When the World Will End

"For the young ones,their weight wouldn't kill them.The officers' assistants would pull them down and break their necks."Throughout this process,they remain blindfolded.They do not know when or how they will die until the noose was placed around their neck",the news says  entitled "Human Slaughterhouse:Mass hanging and extermination in Syria.

The day was  annoyin enough faced unmannered visa office staff.I stil havent get my last year's visa because someone somewhere in Dhaka  mistakenly typed me as Nepalese.Thats cool but it left me roaming days for nothin.I asked him if could get a job in visa office ,he looked at me as if he constipated for 14 days 14 nights.What else to do to fix it rather than working there  my self.

I turn the next page of The Daily Star  and i saw the next news reads,
'Soldiers often shot villagers,and took part in rape,gang rape,invasive body searches and sexual assaults on women and girls between oct 9 and mid dec last year.(2016)
I saw a line written as," They gathered all the women and started beating us with bamboo sticks and kicking us with their boots.After beating us,the military took 15 girl ,raped us one by one ,tearing our clothes". Hmm.When im happily eating,getting emo for nothing ,someone out there suffering and feeling pain for real n they dont deserve it at all.The funny thing is no one could or would do much about it including the so call God.

That news made me to start working out at 0230am, which I was skipin al this whle.
Does it make a change ?I wondered..Does it gona stop someone from kiling each other?..I dont have the answer but I prep myself so that If one day,any uncle with his daughtr being bullied by 4 half drunken machans who got their air in their balls by 1 bottle of cheap club 99 during thaipusam again in my life in the future,I wont be like one of them~the common people that watch it or record it with their phone and by pass it when they can gather in group and stop it.Wonder how many feels the same as me,not for a moment but all the time.Peaceful living is my rights.Our fcking rights.We get what we deserve.When we dont get what we deserve,we take it.

Get out of Head to Use your Mind

'Why you wore your  t-shirt inside out when u workout?' my brotha asked.
'To bring me into the mood to train',I replied.
'You could wear a singlet,maybe?'His curiosity lengthen.
I smiled and explained him about an incident~years back,in the surgery ward along with my batch mates.
Its was a complete race like the movie 3 idiots-all the time.We aren't familiar with it 'yet' then..The pt n teacher will b surrounded by my 25 mates.The pt will b encapsulated by us and I will b in the last circle,most of the time.The environmental commotion made the voices of the dr n pt almost inaudible.The different dialect of the pt made it worse most of the time.On that fine day,somehow my sir pointed me and cld me towards the centre of the pseudo-circle and asked me to examine the pt.No steto,no termo,nothing with me except me myself standing there with pounding heartbeats .My Sir asked me to just imagine like I have a termo, bp mchne  etc n do it.Everyone had a good time that day with a laughter thru out the general examination.When I reached the pt wrist to check the pulse rate,my Sir stopped me.This time I had a watch arnd my wrist to check the rate,but it was on the right..Since Im not left handed,it became a fault.I had to change the watch to my left wrist and continue.
'What's the connection of this to ur tshirt',my brotha interrupted my nostalgic flow.
'Did you wear them on the left now?'he questioned.
' Still on right',I said.

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That day,it felt like a clown in my head  but I knew I cant change the environment and at the same time I cant change my way.It wasn't comfort zone.Nothing really comfortable in life.Even when u sleep,if you gona have an important day tmrw , the sleep too isn't comfortable anymore..But when I have my reason for my act,If I change anything for the cause of around,then its not me ..So I decided ,after this whenever I feel nervous I will wear my watch on the left.Exam and situation like that required me to wear them on left n hnstly its a nervous moment too.So like Neil Armstrong's wristband,when this watch is on my left,it always reminds me that everything is going to be fine rly soon and I will change them to my right wrist in awhle.That way, the environment never change but the way I see the problem changed.The same with training,I dont love them.I wont sleep in my coffin with abs.Being with ripped body isn't the core,its a choice not necessity.But being fit n healthy is a necessity.It could give u extra years of life that you could spend with your loved one with a cup of low sugar green tea during ur last days~something I learnt from my friend recently about how important is the last days comfort..When I can't change the environment,when I can't change me for things that I want,I adapt.I dont change something that seems important for me for the sake of another priority.That way life always remain on my term,not being a victim of it..For that I need consistency and for that I don't need ability but motivation.Change is not a matter of ability,its about motivation.When your surrounding doesn't give u that motivation,cheat ur mind with a silly reason to initiate it.Get out of ur mind first in order to use your head,otherwise you will become like Trump.