I usually never regret with the
choices I made in the past.Everything happened for a reason justify by the
butterfly effect that we encountered along the path.Studying in a 3rd world
country is a good place to gain knowledge especially medicine.Mates back in my
country used to experience few tuberculosis cases per month.They said, at times they wont
even see those cases for months until one unlucky human get infected.I see them
everyday including community acquired pneumonia an etc -everday.
No
gloves,no mask,nothing.The shield between you and Mycobacterium Tuberculosis is the cellular barrier in your body.Taking the risk is not only a choice
but a compulsory necessity.The last when I was in contact with patient from
such cases was two days back,a CAP male patient in ward 16 medicine ,unit
3,(sounds nice right) taking his blood pressure.
I
wonder if studying medicine in a third world country is a good long term run
(skeptical,) or should regret for not studying back in my own country--or some
other place where ,hmm..no hard feelings,an easy place to pass.The system made
the differences. Those student studying at a really nice country,I mean really really nice place to study,your are expendable-
this time.
One of my senior mate doing medicine in **l***(guess the country
yourself.Clue-it's a fucking nice place to study,not that expensive ,same as
mine) when we were talking,this senior friend from that ** country who was doing
his final year that time asked his cousin(who
looked like 18+ yr) to take BCG
vaccination again to prevent from tuberculosis.--Just some normal friendship
based panic when one of the friend admitted and quarantined with tuberculosis.
He
has no idea that BCG does not protects against infection with Mycobacterium
tuberculosis.We are not talking about M.Bovis which infect babies through
infected cow milk and that is the reason why BCG is given at that early age.It might be
his care,but recently I called him to
ask about leptospirosis ,when a friend
of mine admitted with that fucking rat urine disease which toll his life.To
young to go.This same senior friend who is a doctor now told me that lepto is a virus and must give antibiotic for
dengue.
I
know it's bad to criticize a person
based on their knowledge level.They might have no idea about things I know and
vice versa. There's no exact limitation for knowledge. Whatever field it might be,the
knowledge that we can gain from there is about the size of ocean.So never have
a major interest in two different vast ocean.It will soon or later drowns your soul into pessimism.Stick to one
major and keep multiple peripheral
interest or time passing good activities as an addition. .So no point
comparing anyone's good shape with another people's down.The ugly truth about
this is that there are many people out there that will try to bring you down, but remember,giving up isn't an option at all.You
never make it this far by comparing ,so go further by following the same
principle.Leave the past behind,don't carry that unnecessary burden ahead.
Just
came back from professional MBBS ospe examination.None of the suggestion questions that
the madam gave seems useful.Plain shit wasting my precious time and
sleep for that one useless suggestion class.It's never feels this way during
last exam,but when you know someone failed you by one mark in written,it feels
fucked up to study everything again for that one unlucky subject.Its just
59,at least by giving extra one mark for formative part which they gave only 6 out of 10 when
I sent the papers to recheck again could pass me..All the money to do the bank draft ,taxi etc just
went into drain..it's sucks.Nobody is teaching here and that is their way of
teaching .Its a common trait of third world countries teaching
method.That's why student suicidal is high in this region.My Principal said
'jahana jauu(go to hell)' to us when we went to ask his help to give us sent up
for exam.The fucking departments lost all our 52nd batch records and said they
can't help us with that.Still rotten with their handwritten record system.All the
attendance records were lost so they gave us 0%.I just wonder why it's only
happen to foreigners especially ONLY to Malaysian.
Flashback
in short-few Malaysian girls made a complaint to embassy that this college failing
them for no reason, but the real reason -they won't study as per required by
the system..No Malaysian does because we never been trained to study in fear.
Teachers are just another friend of us,just that we need to know our limits with them..Teacher here are more into looking for fault in student, setting highest
priority to find reasons to fail student
in exam. If a department achieved high number of honor student during prof,
head of department will be transferred. It doesn't reflect their contribution
for the students achievement which was the real fact but reflect the
inefficiency of the h.o.d ..Wonder who started this kind of stupid system. .No
more spoon feeding here.Not even providing food. You have to make your food by
your own .You have to figure out how by yourself without a proper understanding of their multi dialect language.If English is not the medium used for teaching,then why the fuck its written as English medium on their official websites?I wondered.
---and
he's mad at all Malaysian because of the stupidity of few, up to this year even
after three years. He was very helpful in the past.He is the ultimate power and messing with such a person always devastating to you and people around you.So passing exam and
practical here is not only luck and hardwork,
but the good deed of previous birth too
do play a role. It’s just pure bad luck to be here.Torture .Working without
being paid is plain shit when you have a retired parents back at home. It’s bad
to complain about our situation.There are people facing worse than us yet they
are still fighting forward against their obstacles. Coming here is one
of the major regret I felt at times. I wonder if it's a blessing or a curse to be
here.The reason why I craft this post
here is because years from now, when I read this again,I will smile looking at the good and bad times I faced in my life.Who knows,I might be thankful for many negative incidents that happened at that time leaving me with hurt and pain.It's takes time to realize the good in a bad like yin and yang.When we realize it,our basal ganglia moves all our facial muscles producing a peaceful relief smile on our face.It's priceless.Feel yourself by creating your own history.Legend
leaves their prints but history can't be made without pain and struggles. Being
in comfort zone or spread out is your choice. Make it today.
time to train--
zzZzz....to be continue...
