Lakdhesz

Have you ever feel bad for eating a chicken,a fish or any kind of animal which was alive few seconds before but dead now,turned into your meal?

If look deeper into that aspect,it makes me feel guilty but after few couple of seconds,I feels fuck it,that's the way the whole ecosystem and food chain are all about. Since killing each other among human are common nowadays,it's not a big issue when a chicken dies.

sorry chicken

Ok,this is something you should never eat when you visit here.That's the temporary habitat and food reservoir for all kind of flies .So never try to cook and contaminate your system with all kind of ova and cysts.Making an assumption that heat will kill the pathogens is up to you.The risk is on your own.

The good thing about the vegetables here is that the price are relatively cheap.

Sometimes, the vegetables are washed with dirty blackish smelly drain water to make it look fresh.I wonder how people are living eating all this.That question made me wonder but somehow I came out with a solution for my self since first year.----never investigate much about the food you're eating or going to eat unless you're really sure that it's going to leave you in your toilet with diarrhoea the next day ,or you saw the person cooking it seems unhygienic (it's a surprise to see a hygiene cook here) or you have an exam or need to travel the next day.Never take the risk.Back up your drawers with metronidazole,activated charcoal and loperamide.They are the misery safer. 400mg of albendazole is a must every 2-3 months once in case for foreigners,(our system can't compete with the flexibility and tolerance to microbes of local's gut).Clean the vegetables yourself as much as you want,(trusting maid is like 50:50 probability).

rainy day

Overall,it's a shitty rainy day where the roads are coated with sand that turned into mud.The rickshaw fare will be auto increased by the rickshaw puller.Everyone sets their own rules here including a fucking retarded peon..They never ever retreat in their way:they feel defeated I guess..This 27 millions of people feels that wining is all about moving forward blindly without considering about anyone around.It's about them and nothing else matter..Seeing other human as human is a rare qualification in this country.

Well done..

For now,let's enjoy the flow ...

Lakdhes

The difference between M.D and MBBS

I usually never regret with the choices I made in the past.Everything happened for a reason justify by the butterfly effect that we encountered along the path.Studying in a 3rd world country is a good place to gain knowledge especially medicine.Mates back in my country used to experience few tuberculosis cases per month.They said, at times they wont even see those cases for months until one unlucky human get infected.I see them everyday including community acquired pneumonia an etc -everday.

No gloves,no mask,nothing.The shield between you and Mycobacterium Tuberculosis is the cellular barrier in your body.Taking the risk is not only a choice but a compulsory necessity.The last when I was in contact with patient from such cases was two days back,a CAP male patient in ward 16 medicine ,unit 3,(sounds nice right) taking his blood pressure.

I wonder if studying medicine in a third world country is a good long term run (skeptical,) or should regret for not studying back in my own country--or some other place where ,hmm..no hard feelings,an easy place to pass.The system made the differences. Those student studying at a really nice country,I mean really really nice place to study,your are expendable- this time.

One of my senior mate doing medicine in **l***(guess the country yourself.Clue-it's a fucking nice place to study,not that expensive ,same as mine) when we were talking,this senior friend from that ** country who was doing his final year that time asked his cousin(who looked like 18+ yr) to take BCG vaccination again to prevent from tuberculosis.--Just some normal friendship based panic when one of the friend admitted and quarantined with tuberculosis.

He has no idea that BCG does not protects against infection with Mycobacterium tuberculosis.We are not talking about M.Bovis which infect babies through infected cow milk and that is the reason why BCG is given at that early age.It might be his care,but recently I called him to ask about leptospirosis ,when a friend of mine admitted with that fucking rat urine disease which toll his life.To young to go.This same senior friend who is a doctor now told me that lepto is a virus and must give antibiotic for dengue.

I know it's bad to criticize a person based on their knowledge level.They might have no idea about things I know and vice versa. There's no exact limitation for knowledge. Whatever field it might be,the knowledge that we can gain from there is about the size of ocean.So never have a major interest in two different vast ocean.It will soon or later drowns your soul into pessimism.Stick to one major and keep multiple peripheral interest or time passing good activities as an addition. .So no point comparing anyone's good shape with another people's down.The ugly truth about this is that there are many people out there that will try to bring you down, but remember,giving up isn't an option at all.You never make it this far by comparing ,so go further by following the same principle.Leave the past behind,don't carry that unnecessary burden ahead.

Just came back from professional MBBS ospe examination.None of the suggestion questions that the madam gave seems useful.Plain shit wasting my precious time and sleep for that one useless suggestion class.It's never feels this way during last exam,but when you know someone failed you by one mark in written,it feels fucked up to study everything again for that one unlucky subject.Its just 59,at least by giving extra one mark for formative part which they gave only 6 out of 10 when I sent the papers to recheck again could pass me..All the money to do the bank draft ,taxi etc just went into drain..it's sucks.Nobody is teaching here and that is their way of teaching .Its a common trait of third world countries teaching method.That's why student suicidal is high in this region.My Principal said 'jahana jauu(go to hell)' to us when we went to ask his help to give us sent up for exam.The fucking departments lost all our 52nd batch records and said they can't help us with that.Still rotten with their handwritten record system.All the attendance records were lost so they gave us 0%.I just wonder why it's only happen to foreigners especially ONLY to Malaysian.

Flashback in short-few Malaysian girls made a complaint to embassy that this college failing them for no reason, but the real reason -they won't study as per required by the system..No Malaysian does because we never been trained to study in fear. Teachers are just another friend of us,just that we need to know our limits with them..Teacher here are more into looking for fault in student, setting highest priority to find reasons to fail student in exam. If a department achieved high number of honor student during prof, head of department will be transferred. It doesn't reflect their contribution for the students achievement which was the real fact but reflect the inefficiency of the h.o.d ..Wonder who started this kind of stupid system. .No more spoon feeding here.Not even providing food. You have to make your food by your own .You have to figure out how by yourself without a proper understanding of their multi dialect language.If English is not the medium used for teaching,then why the fuck its written as English medium on their official websites?I wondered.

---and he's mad at all Malaysian because of the stupidity of few, up to this year even after three years. He was very helpful in the past.He is the ultimate power and messing with such a person always devastating to you and people around you.So passing exam and practical here is not only luck and hardwork, but the good deed of previous birth too do play a role. It’s just pure bad luck to be here.Torture .Working without being paid is plain shit when you have a retired parents back at home. It’s bad to complain about our situation.There are people facing worse than us yet they are still fighting forward against their obstacles. Coming here is one of the major regret I felt at times. I wonder if it's a blessing or a curse to be here.The reason why I craft this post here is because years from now, when I read this again,I will smile looking at the good and bad times I faced in my life.Who knows,I might be thankful for many negative incidents that happened at that time leaving me with hurt and pain.It's takes time to realize the good in a bad like yin and yang.When we realize it,our basal ganglia moves all our facial muscles producing a peaceful relief smile on our face.It's priceless.Feel yourself by creating your own history.Legend leaves their prints but history can't be made without pain and struggles. Being in comfort zone or spread out is your choice. Make it today.

time to train--

zzZzz....to be continue...

Lakdhes

Snapchat of My Day

The limit is the sky above us.

I'm that kind of person that eat the whole day when stress kicks in.Something still left over there yet it always feel like starting from zero.The regret why I never maintain it will always be there.Problem of student life.💰💰💰💰

Someone I met today.Boy i guess.

Wonder when the view will change.

Crossing road with ~~them,~~ me

How my shadow appears

Now her turn ,but it turn out into batman

Another view of my world,for now 😐

Day ender.

Reality of Life Sucks

Have you ever wonder why life turn into a slow deadly nightmare for some of us in the middle of twenties.The reason might be varies,but the common consequences from it will be depression.When we are depressed,when our soul start to feel the impact from it,the one thing that we all will encounter in commen is loneliness.That is the toxic xenobiotic we might get from that complex process.

Those time,there are few common reaction that people have in as their choice.

The next thing that going to happen in their life,10 years from now will be from the choice they going to make in the middle of twenties.The time later aren't time to make decision anymore.It has it's own purpose and responsibilities..It will be too late.Some might become trapped in the dilemma ,some will be brave enough to by pass and over come it and the third group will be the one who just go with the flow with a pain deep inside their heart,(that wakes up with you in the morning everyday).They go with the flow unhappy playing the victim role.This is the most sucks group to be in.This is where majority of us are in, living it everyday.

Everyone realize and has the sense of truth,yet the environment,time,circumstances ,needs of money family and every single shit around them will make them to run throughout their life without knowing the reason,without unable to wake up peacefully next morning.If you never feel bad thinking about the flow and you really happy without any complain,having a chill beer with friends on weekends is more than enough for you,then you aren't a victim.That is life about after all.If they wish to go to the next level,its a different choice that they has to make at that time.It's not now ,so never think that further yet.

Thinking about the future gives anxiety to many of us.The best way to avoid that unnecessary feelings is by just be at the moment,the present now. The gratification from the rush of good hormones in our body, is the achievement at the moment.It has it's different levels.. Achievement is a time based event.Its infinity till your last breathe if your choice is to strike for more.Never judge your self by comparing with other.As I mentioned early,it's a different path for each one of us.If it's the same,there wont be anyone to work in a mortuary,no one will be working as a zookeeper..Your interested,your goal ,your achievement is totally different from the rest 6,999+ billion humans on earth. (wish they are not doubling the amount in anytime sooner)..So never compare your life with the success of others,it's not the same.You might be sleeping when he training with his guitar at 3am in the morning.You might be studying for exam when she's hitting the gym at 6pm.It's a different call for each of us.

Realizing it and never compare yourself with other is the key for real happiness.We get bored with everything around sooner.For most of,our goals and interest keep changing with time.They don't stay the same,but the fame that another person getting by doing the same thing everday and keep growing with it is what we wants too.We failed to realize that consistency with what we are doing is the path to success,and if you keep changing ,keeping a leg there and another here,it wont work for many unless you're a born multitasker and blessed to be successful in everything you pursue. .

Ok let me continue in awhile...

What Will Happen During World War 3

Years from now,what if world war 3 starts..At the time I'm earning and living a great life,all of a sudden,the world is on war.Putin ,Trump and ISIS - the perfect deadly combo for mankind.Human wears a mask.Their whole life is controlled by the voice in their mind.The battle between heart and mind is awful.The liver and lungs will face the consequences where kidney is the final sufferer.Being honest is stupidity and being bad is a crime.A crime until money closes everyone's mouth and mind.In four billion years ,Andromeda will collide with our milky galaxy and we're fighting in the name of religion.A belief that became an addiction.As usual, as an addiction ,the religion that created for betterment of life became a reason that toll people's life.An external pleasure perhaps.What characterizes an addiction? You no longer feel that you have the choice to stop believing it.Pleasure always leads to pain unlike joy.Religion became an addiction until pain is just a word for some.A life with four legs that can't even utter a word seems loyal than homo sapiens.So much could be better by replying an unwanted commotion with silence..After two thousand years of civilization,fingers join tongue's club as the problem maker.The good thing was,human still incapable of destroying all the beauty that nature gives us.Luckily, homo sapiens are the helpless creature God ever created..If they have the strength of a tiger,human life would means more nothing.Without mind we are nothing,but at times that mind is our enemy.

By lakdhes.