Lakdhesz: In Your World,That's a 'S',but in My World That's HOPE

In your world,that's a 'S',but in my world that's HOPE.

Cib@i A :Bro,you should cut your hair!

Me:Why ?

Cib@i A:You look like a monkey.

Me:Tanx god.I was expecting something else.At least I'm less human.

Day: 2

Certain wounds needs healing.

Certain wound doesn't have to heal.You make them your strength by perseverance.

Day :Don't know

Cib@i B :You going to be a doctor.If you inflict such scars and calluses,what the patient will think of you?
Me: Superman.
Cib@i B: It's ugly bro.
Me:You go to a cinema to watch a movie and someone disturb your family and when you cant't protect them with your bare hand,hiding your face like a pus**,that's ugly you motherf*cker.Not scars and callus.(Fortunately it's mind voice). HAHA,Okay bro.
Cib@i B:Don't laugh,be serious about it.
Me:To be the most influential person,30 under 30,I need to train my mind,physique and skills together.Lack of any one of them will be a bad combo bro.
Cib@i B:30 under 30?What's that?
Me:Know it first,then let's talk about scars.

My playground for a month.

Noman:Yesterday I saw you at Gec..I showed you to a guy and asked him if he knows you.

Me:I see.What he said bro?

Noman:He said he knew.He told me that you used to train at Alvira's gym and you had some issue there because of a girl from National University and they banned you from there.Is it true?

Me:HAHA.Wow,I wish that was true.At least life would be colorful.Who is that girl?I'm curious.

Me:Even my father hates me for no reason,a Bangladeshi hated me and created creative rumours doesn't surprise me . Give me more.

Despite sore and painful knuckles from daily training,I add few more round everyday using the help of gravity.It's nothing compare to the circumstances.

Cold water therapy might have lots of benefits but the only reason I added them to my T.O.T's list was because it build my willpower muscle.Will cover complete details about it in the future but don't try it at home especially during winter.It's torturous;unfortunately for normal human being,not for me.You can't be ME.Ya,you heard it right.

Life was fine and progressing till 2014;then depression paid a visit.

and I messed up.No,fucked up perhaps.

28/7/2015

The piggy side of the past.

and if it's 2038 and you're my kid,let me remind you that things can go from good to worse and eventually it might turn to worst but remember,nothing is impossible,nothing is the end until you never give up mentally .I will be the best father you could have but I will never catch the fish and give you.I will teach you fishing and you go out there and figure out your way.If I tell you how to do and what to do,you will be another puppet like people around you.It's a friendly reminder but don't worry,I will always be your pillar unlike what I faced in my life.

Even though I don't have the best privilege,finding nor giving excuses for the lack wasn't my way.

I make use of everything around me doesn't matter how sickening it taste or sounds.

My favorite among the trash:Jaal moori.

My saviour during days of extreme hunger.

The only real supplement (creatine) that I had and been using up to today in 2017 despite it's expired..

Constantly have to monitor my eyes for jaundice and leg if there's any edema every morning.Even when I went back Malaysia,I used to look for an expired new protein powder from Eji Nutrition (since the owner Tan is sort of a friend of mine who still remember my name even after years) because I can buy a RM210 protein for only Rm90 because of the passed expiry date and use the remaining cash to fund my business plans.Almost all the plans failed yet giving up isn't an option.The lessons worth the losses.

Almost all the spices and cooking material I used will be expired yet my cells survived .That is why I acclaimed that I'm less human than the rest,perhaps Son of God.

The cheapest and most sickening food in my menu .Always gave a sense of nausea post meal.

Yet,its far better than eating a chicken curry from nearby shop where you can see a small cockroach floating among the gravy.Initially I used to make lots of dramas and thew the whole meal into dustbin but with time,I'm trained to put the portion of cockroach or small bug a side and continued eating the remaining meal.Having a meal seems a blessing when I saw people at the road side has nothing to eat..That's leaded me here and today I can eat anywhere,anything even if the rice had been cooked from high level arsenic water source; as long as my brain registered it as edible.