Last Day of 2021

It’s a sunny yet gloomy day.Klang won’t be able to stand another flood.Hopefully it won’t rain continuously.It reminds me of my childhood,my grandparent’s house.

When I was a kid,I love my grandparents  and their village more than my parent’s house.I’m a rare old school kid.Tree,jungle,river ,snakes,spiders,scorpion,chicken,cow,goat,I just love them.I felt entrapped when I was forcefully brought by my parents to their brick prison so called home.

When we were young,we used to wonder when we will be an adult but now as an adult,the reality hit us hard with a torn slipper.Being an adult is a miserable phase of life I felt.

In less than 12 hours ,I’m going to be 31.At 30,I felt like there’s only 20 30 years remains and I will die in another 20 30 years.

It’s an unnecessary feeling but I felt every second passing by is a second towards death.

Past 2 years I lived my life as a mediocre. Procrastinating,being lazy,slow and I just simply screwed my life for the past 2 years.In the end,I’m really tired being such a person.

“What is your goal?”when my friends used to asked me two years ago,I told everyone repeatedly;when I die,people should remember my name for at least  100 years.

Since I started working,I slowly drifted away from my goal and passion.With time,everything faded.I’m no more myself.

Today is the last day of 2021.A year that will be in our memories for a very long time.

Well,it’s time to say goodbye and to start a new chapter.This time,let’s live our dream.

Welcome 2022.

When Doctors do Mistakes

 

In medical, disaster do not simply occurs,they evolve.When things goes wrong,it is usually because a series of failures conspires to produce disaster.

A doctor shouldn’t dithered.It produce a wrong outcome.When you are lucky enough,a wrong decision won’t be big enough to cause harm to anyone.

When doctors make mistakes,it’s not something that we can talk about and learn from it.

To prevent a doctor from making errors,the system was created  in  such a way where there are multiple layers of  preventive  measures to prevent any unnecessary negligence.

The kid was a 3 years old boy with known case of thalassemia and transfusion dependent.The biggest reason why I hate clinic is because of  general paeds.It’s definitely not my cup of tea especially with problematic parents and over weight kids where I can’t even appreciate a single vessels,thanks to Mc D.

It took me 40 minutes to take his blood and set an IV access.We have to wrapped him with clothes and the sound pollution was unbearable.Thank god I didn’t delete my subway surf.I let him play the game and from  no where,he don’t feel anymore pain from the needle.KIDs.

“Madam do you have conjunctivitis?”my MO asked the mum while checking the kid.

From far I can see her teary eyes.

“No,I just ate prawn balls and started having this panda eyes.Just a normal allergic reaction,”she said.

“Lakdhes can you help me to check and see if her eyes are red ,”my MO told me.Unfortunately she is my age and my batch mate.

I don’t think it’s eye infection,it’s looks like an allergic reaction.

“Loratidine ,cetrizine?”

“Give piriton,”she said.

“Once every night/PRN?”I double checked.

“TDS.”

1 hour later,the pharmacist called.

“Doctor,you prescribed piriton for this patient right?”

“Ya,”I answered.

“The patient is breastfeeding,so piriton isn’t suitable.”

I didn’t expect her to have another baby too soon and I was stupid enough not to ask about it.

End of 2021

Well,it was a great year full of  dramas. Covid,no water supply for days and at last flood.The price of choosing Klang for housemanship .

Personally too,so many things happened and a lot of things changed.

Some for good,some for bad but end of the day,everything taught a lesson.

When a baby born flat,I used to cursed myself but end of the day I realised that,you learnt more from bad situations than a good casual moments.

Experience is the key for long term memory,not just going through books theoretically.

2021 going to end in few more days.What is my resolution?

A question that I asked myself.

“Maybe we shouldn’t be afraid to start over again.Maybe we might like the new story better.”

New beginning.