It was a rainy day.Not the usual sunny day that it used to be.
Not much patients,just one Indian lady in her late 40s that came
for annual blood screening.
I went out and just gazing the rain,the moving cars,scruffy cat at the corner,
a guy that walking towards his car with a cigarette in his mouth.
'Men created multiple ways to die early,'I thought and craked a smile
in guilt.
'You are one of them that smokes despite knowing it's a chemical that would
kill you,'thought of the day.
'Sheltering from the rain?'the woman behind the counter from KK Mart asked.
I just smiled.Not in the mood for conversation.
'What could be the first step for a better life?'my thoughts started to wander while
staring at a magazine cover displayed infront of 7Eleven.So much of unnecessary problems
in this world.The main 3 culprits;politics,religious diversity and lack of money which
leads to crime.
Elon Musk is taking care of the space and environment,Boyan Slat ,the founder of
Ocean Clean Up is taking care of the ocean.I should take care of mankind's safety.
My mind grew heavier with my thoughts.Our society becaming like a black hole.
A dying star ,collapsing in on itself.
Crime and rape should end.Or at least under control.
When it never happened for us or people we love,we just see it as a news
and scroll our feed.What if someone hurt my family or my son,or my future daughter??
The thought was like a ceaseless mind-cramp ,something too uncomfortable to bear
yet too strong not to avoid.
I remembered being enthralled by the boredom that I used to experineced back in
Bangladesh and how I overcome it.
Now I can't be bored.I need something to numb it,be it an activity or indulgence.
It's good if it is healthy but unfortunately in my case,it wasn't.
Maybe the first step would be,
be comfortable by being uncomfortable and being bored.
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