"I still can feel the pain,"patient said.
She's on table for past 45 minutes but the spinal anaesthetic is still not full working.
The numbness only present over right side.
It happens for patient with two previous caesarean,the anesthesiologist's medical officer said.
I was already scrubbed in and was standing there.
As a house officer ,all I could do was: just stand.
I stood there for another 20 minutes.Mo and the scrub nurse went and sat on the chair.
While I was day dreaming how I could end this unnecessary stress and just put a full stop for this mess, I could feel the baby's move.
I'm not sure if its kicking but I could felt it on my palm.
It's a beautiful feeling.
Yet can't justify my decision.
I looked around.Some are smiling and laughing for real,some are tensed while the rest just going with the flow with a poker face.
In this ever expending cosmos,floating in complete darkness and we're just a tiny dot in it,why does humans have to face such amount of stress, unhappiness and pain?
Our life has no meanings, it can end tomorrow or an hour later but why do we have so much dramas in between..
Why does God brought such suffering to some of us when He is the one that created us here?
I still can't figure it out.
An hour later, elective lower segment caesarean started.
Abdomen was opened layer by layer but we can't reach the uterus.
There were lot of adhesion.
"Indian won't eat jamu ke?" surgeon asked meaning don't you indians take herbs after delivery?
"I'm not sure but most won't I guess,"I replied.
Mutton and chicken curry every weekend, that's all I knew and as a consequence it
it leads to terrible health and obesity.
The patients was 156kg.
Just retracting her abdominal fat for exposure and the fundal pressure to help the expulsion of the baby made my right arm extremely weak.
Maybe eating the right herbal food after caesarean can help the uterus to contract fast and prevent it from adherent to peritoneal walls I thought.
A question that left unanswered.
"Ala,you go to gym also can be tired is it?"surgeon asked.
Gym is like short distance running and this is like long distance running I felt.Standing there for 2 hours and 45 minutes was tiring. Repeating the same process since 630am to 9pm was worse and my bad luck,most of the patient were obesity class 2 and 3 .
It was OT,my favorite place,hand full of bloods yet I can't achieve the flow still.
Stars, moon, rocket,space, Forbes, pallavi;only those were the thing in my head for now.
For the first time in my life, I regretted for not choosing engineering.
