9th May after 7th May

It's her birthday 🎂

Prepared my meal.

Along with my supplements.

Spent sometime with her.

Done with the meeting.

Here again after 3 years.

The best feeling in the world,solitude .You owns you.

I owned this whole space for today like how I used to felt on 7th May every year since 2011,like I owned the whole world on this day.Including a day before and a day after 7th May to be precise.

I just wana be alone.

7/5 ritual,cursed perhaps.

That's my diary. "CONFIDENTIAL " 😆

Honestly that's not any of the supplements.

#Arjunreddystyle

I saw her everyday in my dreams.

Craving from nowhere.

The whole world looks dark.

That's  how I sleep.At a corner,without bedsheet.Otherwise I can't sleep.😑

More work.

Road with less traffic due to school holiday.Preparation for Malaysia general election PRU 14,2018 9th May going strong. 'Who cares'
Indians are the minorities but their drama and all the fuss on Fb and whatsApp regarding politics is so fucking annoying.
What to do ,we Indian loves drama,same goes to me ,right 😆😆

Morning cardio after temple.

A prayer for her won't do any harm right?☺

I just can't stop being hungry,for food and something else in life which I don't know how to put into words.

They best thing is,it's overrrrr,same as 7th May 🤗!!!

The World Deserve Evilness than Kindness

It's 3 a.m and I still can't sleep.Everything that came along this week seems overwhelming and frightening as well.If it doesn't make you afraid,then it's not a dream which is big enough to go after people said.Yet, when facing it first hand,alone,on your feet,it really causing a very uncomfortable butterfly kinda feeling in my stomach,guts perhaps.

Was updating my profile to keep my circle small .Day by day,I really don't feel like talking with anyone.They don't really bring values for long term I felt. I realized some people that have a good repo with me unfollowed me.Few blocked me as well.Some people just don't like me and I don't really understand why..Well,people that meant the world could replaced me in a second so none of them really matter nor surprise me.Rip.

Glad they left before I remove them.They will either come back,stalk me from far or regret for doing so because I am an asset, not a liability to lose.

Nowadays, I don't feel like sleeping longer as well because my past kept haunting me in my dreams.Maybe I miss them or my subconscious mind is trying hard to delete those memories.Whatever fck it is, it's really felt extremely unpleasant waking up missing someone who left you dying alone.
This world deserves evilness than kindness because some people's drama seems worse than mine and super irrelevant.With everyday approaching 7th May,I don't really understand why but the heaviness in my heart feeling beyond word could describe. 

The World Remember the Uncommon

"You need to be more like this,"she said while showing a page by  another pal.

"You need to be more like this,"she said while showing a page by  another pal.
After went through the page which got 4043 followers,I replied,"they took other people's content and post it on their page.It's easy.Anyone can do it..We don't do that.We create our own content that no one else is preaching,interlinking health and fitness in a way that many can't do unless you're in the medical field.."
"Then try to do online coaching,"she continued. "We do,but only for those with health problems, not random people,"I replied. "It would generate alot of money you know,"she explained.
I was listening.
"If anyone can have it,I don't want it,"I replied without thinking much subconsciously.
"Too much of pride?"she teased.
"The world recognize similarities,it identifies pattern but it only remember the uncommon."
"It's a rat race and I don't wish to be one of the rat."
"What if the world don't  recognize you?"she continued.
I answered,"That's the trick ,to care about everyone while not caring what they think."

I prefer superman la 😑

🙄

Over acting kid.

Human's Rat Race

One of the most important thing any human being can do is rise above being human.

From an evolutionary perspective,the mind is developed to keep you safe.The mind has developed certain algorithms that made sense from  an evolutional perspective, it made sense when we had to worry about  being eaten by a lion but it's no longer makes sense in a modern context.And when you allow the  fear of being ostracized, when you allow the fear of failure to hold you back,that's when people never really build the life that they were meant to live because from a chemical standpoint ,they're allowing themselves to be held back,by the very thing that got us here;humanity.

But once you realize it,you can take control of your life on your term.

Day 11:Visualization

"Do not hold mental picture of difficulties and setbacks,but lift your mind above them and visualize achievements.When you elevate your thoughts into the area of visualized attainments,you look down on your problems rather than from below up at them and this you get a much more encouraging view of them.Never approach a problem from below."

"Now let me continue further,"she said."How would you like to see your body at the moment to keep going?"

"I thought quickly and said I want to see a cephalic vein over my biceps brachii.Without a pause,I added," median cubital vein and basilic vein over forearm and.."
I slowed down my voice doubtfully when I came to my sense.
"All right,"she said confidently, "that is not hard.That is easy."
"Easy??I'm training for 6 years and it's not popping out!"I said while looking down.
"She turned to me  and said,"Lakdhes,can you see that vessels at this minute?Look ahead of you.In your mind's eye can you see them?"
"I wasn't convinced as yet,and I said rather doubtfully ,well,maybe so but they seems pretty dim to me."
"I guess my imagination wasn't working very well because all I could see was the insufficient but actual flabby arms."
She was a little disappointed in me I thought, as she asked,"can't you imaginatively visualize it?"
And today, I learnt that,if you can see it in your mind,if you have the courage enough to speak it,it will definitely happen.
#doesntmatterhowmanyrejectionyoufaced
#inanythingfromanyone
#dropset

This kind of post is what confuse and eventually fck your life up.

😊

😊

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Reasons of my destruction once.

Same rule applies even in 2018,2019 and forever.

Adee poddaaa

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Too late to realize.

☺

Sweetest madam ever,once upon a time.

Perfect summary  🙂👌

Yenna yelevo 

Aliens in The Moon.

"The world looks beautiful right?"

"Ya,"I replied while immensely mesmerized by the view and hilltop breeze.
"But some human's act make the world ugly,"she continued.
I was just listening without saying anything.
"Feeling bored is it?"she questioned.
I turned and looked at her,"Listening is a blessing right?"I made a statement and  looked into the sky.
"Do you think there's aliens out there?"she asked curiously.
"For that you must refer to Fermi Paradox or Drake Equation,"I said while turned and leaned against the guardrail.
"What's that?"she innocently asked.
I smiled reluctant to explain much.
"Maybe there's alien in the moon and that's why man aren't going there anymore?"she assumed.
"Nasa sending unmanned spacecraft to moon next year December.2023,they going with man."
"Can we go to Moon?"she asked again.
"Maybe our grandkids will celebrate their honeymoon over there.If Blue Origin starts early,who knows,we might."
"Blue Origin?"
"Do you know Tesla?
"Yes,"she replied.
"Do you know Amazon?"
"Yes!"she replied.
"That Amazon's owner,Jeff's next big project is Blue Origin.If you're an astronaut and you purchase a book from Amazon, he will send it to the space.That's his plan apart from space tourism,"I explained.
"Sounds crazy!"she screamed.
Her reaction was cute I realized.I continued,"Human are on the verge to become type 1 civilization.Currently,we are type 0 civilization.Google billionaires are planning to mine rare metals from asteroids belt.At present,it takes 3 days to go to moon and 3 days to come back .Soon Tesla will make the  duration  shorter."
She was listening quietly.
"Star Trek is a good examples of type 2  civilization. Star Wars is an example of Type 3 civilization, where we would be able to  roam in the galactic space one day,100 ,200 years from now."