It's 3 a.m and I still can't sleep.Everything that came along this week seems overwhelming and frightening as well.If it doesn't make you afraid,then it's not a dream which is big enough to go after people said.Yet, when facing it first hand,alone,on your feet,it really causing a very uncomfortable butterfly kinda feeling in my stomach,guts perhaps.
Was updating my profile to keep my circle small .Day by day,I really don't feel like talking with anyone.They don't really bring values for long term I felt. I realized some people that have a good repo with me unfollowed me.Few blocked me as well.Some people just don't like me and I don't really understand why..Well,people that meant the world could replaced me in a second so none of them really matter nor surprise me.Rip.
Glad they left before I remove them.They will either come back,stalk me from far or regret for doing so because I am an asset, not a liability to lose.
Nowadays, I don't feel like sleeping longer as well because my past kept haunting me in my dreams.Maybe I miss them or my subconscious mind is trying hard to delete those memories.Whatever fck it is, it's really felt extremely unpleasant waking up missing someone who left you dying alone.
This world deserves evilness than kindness because some people's drama seems worse than mine and super irrelevant.With everyday approaching 7th May,I don't really understand why but the heaviness in my heart feeling beyond word could describe.
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