I installed messenger on Friday morning and ended up seeing unwanted terrible pictures from fake profiles that I really don't want to see.Well,I learnt a valuable lesson from it.
Months from now,this 10 people,who knows might be more with time ,will discuss with others how they know me.
They will.
Past 3 years,I spoke, I spent time,I discussed with so many people about my plans.Some never bothered,some cursed,some pretended as if they cared and the reactions varies with each one of them.Some came on board,then left purely because of their laziness and their mentality seeking easy money.I teamed up with alot of people and different type of groups at different time period.None of them stick with me up to this days.Those people claimed that they have big dreams but they aren't visionaries.They bought the good thing that comes with my plans but none of them seems willing to work harder than me.Some said to me ,just be a doctor and live your life.Well I always told them,medicine never cures a life,hope is what actually cure an illness.If I'm an ordinary doctor,I can treat a patient at a time but if I'm an entrepreneur and hire 100 doctors and make them follow my protocols,I can treat 100 patients at a time,right?
Every one of the patient should feels that they already become healthy the moment they came to me.Waiting when they can actually see a doctor, twice daily even in a private hospitals and the doctor spend less than 5 minutes and left; will never happen with us. So I have decided to eliminate all of them from my sight and go solo.Months from now, they will come,they will try to message me ,initiate conversation with me.It will definitely happen but one thing that I learnt all this while was,if you don't believe me when I have nothing,when you can't be on my side when I'm nothing then one day,If I go back to a bad shape again,you will never stay but leave me alone like a parasite.Pattern never lies.So I will never ever waste my time with such people anymore.I have decided to keep only those who treated me as a human when I was struggling and suffering.The rest,they means nothing.
Hmmm
I realized I'm the type that keep on eating everything that I have avoided when my mood is bad.It's a point that I have to bring under control.
These added my stress.So I have decided to meditate longer on that day.
And exercise more to bring everything under control.
And by end of the day,I did came back to my senses;I felt, at times, I'm very kind towards someone,at times I super fucking rude and evil with someone.It's not mood swing I realized, it's like an auto pilot inside me that change according to what people around me deserve but most of the time,this concept never works the moment the day get dark.Once it's night ,I just feels like everyone should be treated nicely even if they don't deserve it.My moon sign took control in such a way.But it's morning now,fck those people that I forgave last night.
I got up early ,started my day with apple cider vinegar ,turmeric and pepper mixed together. I studied like usual and I went to temple.I just felt like going.I only slept for 5 hours on that night.I started testing this sleep and level of tiredness as a preparation of working in a hospital. 😊
As usual, I made more conversation with strangers .I still can't find that one people that will work harder than me.He got carried away I guess but not sure if he really open his book the next day. 😛
🙄
It feels good to see your content is being shared without you go and ask anyone.
It feels good when someone appreciate it as well.She's sweet.
It suppose to be smart,macho etc right?Too much of beautiful 😒
Hmm.
She's someone who was a very close to heart kinda person once.Not sure how she got my personal number but how nice if I could reverse the time back and be with them for one last time before I leave.
It's okay.Time's up perhaps.
I fasted for 20 hours on that day.So the only meal for that day was this:
😐No comments.
The least liked post yet made a big impact on someone's life.My morning is someone's night,irony of life.
I will touch the life of millions of people out there a day ☺
Hehe..
Have to balance between med and personal development books. It's gona be a long day,so i woke up much earlier with 4 hours of sleep that night.
Bought an old camera from my friend.I like it.
My b grade decorations for my twin sister's ROM.I can't finish this on time so,I missed the registration part.It's okay,used to it already.
By 2 pm,I'm sleepy af already.
This bouquet and the reaction 👇
Hehe
Padahal,👇
Forever alone..😅😅
Back to routine
Playing this after 2 years.
No carbs after 7pm.
My source of glutamine. VEGAN diet for Monday.
Doesn't matter how many friends are there to talk with,there is always a sense of something is missing.I felt like I don't belongs here and a sense of pain is always there.That pain is what I'm turning into rage.That rage is preventing me from sleeping and being the same old me,as if my head is on fire.
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