"Can I talk to you for a second?"
That's what the dm sounds.Such private messages and mails from strangers isn't uncommon.
15 minutes later I replied,"Yes,is there anything ?"
"Are you busy?"she asked.
I don't usually ask for their info and waste my time.Being busy is a commonly misused word by human.No human is ever super busy,we might preoccupied with something and we always have time for something important.
She was expressing her emotional turmoil regarding her job, relationship betrayal, financial downturn and common human problems.
"I don't have the strength to continue this life.I just can't make it another day.The amount of humiliation and embarrassment is overwhelming."
"If you don't mind,tell me about it,"I replied.
When she finished,"Your experiences seems better then mine.Looks like I'm the one that should end my life first,"I joked in a serious manner. "Why,what happened?"she seemed curious about me.
Not today,will write about it a day.You can read it on my blog.That blog is what got us connected after all was my reply.
Few hours later she replied and she's back to square one with her suicidal thoughts.
"Girl, listen.For me,that particular moment where you're alone,late at night,with unbearable burden in your mind and soul,it takes lot of courage to undergo that situation.It's hard and definitely not easy.I'm not gona say show that courage with life or any bs like that.It's your life.Your decision.In life,I realized you're your best teacher.When you realize that,you wouldn't seek anyone's soothing words for comfort."
"What should I do now?"she asked.
Such question clearly showed that she just need a little push.For many, such little push determine whether they will fly or fall. "Go find an ant and look at it for a moment.Then take that guy on our hand."
"Seriously?"she replied.
"Yes.When you try to hold that ant,he will try his level best to survive.That little ant that don't even have a pair of lungs values his life that much unlike humans,"I replied.
"Ants don't have lungs?"she was curious. "No,they dont.Without lungs, ants can't drown, although they might appear to be dead in the water but when we saw that,we assumed ants are dying.The same happens with people around us.We see someone smiling,living a nice life and we assume they're happier than us.Problems are common aspect of everyone's life.Life doesn't spare anyone.The problems that you're facing doesn't make you special girl.Don't think God or humans will come and help you.I'm sure even God have their own problems."
"Why human have to suffer so much?"she sighed.
"It's humans own preference I guess. We have 3 time zones and we're trapped between two.Thats the problem I felt,"I said.
"Can you explain?"
"We humans are suffering emotionally most of the time.Those thoughts are what actually shaping our reality.Either we stuck with the past memories or future assumptive imagination.We already started to suffer today for things that going to happen two days later.
"Hmm,sounds true.Resembling my problems and what's the third zone"?she asked.
"It's not only your problem.Its an universal problem.Memories are important.Don't try to erase it or else you will repeat the same mistake again.Just learn your lessons and turn it into your wisdom.And remember, imagination is different, visualization is different,wondering is different.Get to know how they're differ and use them accordingly for your growth;not as a tool of torturing youself. The last one that we ignore most of the time is now, present.The day feels long only for miserable people.When you're sad,time stretches.Have you ever experience how a good day ends so fast?
"Yes!"
"Haha,so next time when someone bless you for a long life, don't buy it,"I teased.
"Let say I started to live in present,what else to do to make my life seems more colourful?"she questioned.
"Let me ask you this and from this you figure out your way on your term.Let say you mix a coffee for your friend.How would you feel when she spit it back into the glass and claiming it taste like shit.?Would you ever mix a drink for him or her again.?"
"No.."
"That's just a two minutes work but when your action never touch someone's life,you don't enjoy doing it.Be it your job, action of whatever it is, human activities become meaningful only if it touches another life.If you could create an impact through your knowledge,your job or just simply from ur existence ,it gives a blissful sensation.
"Thank you for your words.I feel better now,"she replied.
"This is just temporary.Such suicidal thoughts might come back when the feel good emotions fades.When it reappears,I want you to do 2 things?"
"What's that? Message you?"
"No,I won't reply for the second time.I already gave you everything that you need.You came looking for a fish and I taught you fishing.When such thoughts visit you again,tell yourself this.You wana end your life,as I said, it's your life.No one can control you but promise me this.If you ever want to end your life,you should do it only when you're continuously happy for 3 days.Then book a domestic flight at night on a full moon day.Get a window seat.When you're 40,000ft above ,closest to the universe above,look at the sky.The next day, you end your life if you want."
That 4 days experience will make you realize how beautiful is your life on Earth.
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