Elon Musk Vs Lakdhes :Every Life Starts by Winning but World Turned Many Into a Loser

Every Life Starts by Winning but World Turned Many Into A Loser

Elon Musk vs Human Mask

"Where have you been?"
Why you didn't answer my calls?",Pallavi asked the moment I answered her call after her 27th missed calls.
"Sorry,just came back from gym,"I said while arranging my study table full of medicines.
"Gym?You going to get your stitches ruptured and then you will know!"she said with a stern voice."You should get rest right? Don't do anything silly."


I can see her concern,"but lying on bed all day doesn't seems alive Pallavi.I need the motion.Without the sun,added by rain and winter simultaneous, I felt terrible.That's why I went but I was careful though.I make sure my jaws was relaxed through out the training,"I reassured.
"Did you eat anything? ",she questioned.
"Yes," I said while jotting down  notes about quantum theory that I went through yesterday night in my special notebook.

"What you ate?Don't eat anything too hot,"said Pallavi while being in the middle of traffic..I can listen to the sound of the traffic around her.
"I ate tablets."
"That's all?","At least drink soup,don't be like this.What if you ended up with gastritis?"she said with a worried tone.

I don't know if I like the care.It feels nice when someone cared towards me but at the same time,it's frightened me inside.
"Omeprazole is there as a saver.Don't worry Pallavi .I didn't take pain killers.It's just took metronidazole and cephradine.I'm used to pain.I don't  need them.The dentist said she going to give me the strongest pain killer.I thought it's tramadol at least,but it was etoricoxib 90mg.She must be making fun I guess."

"I don't  know if you're strong or you just faking it like you're strong ,"Pallavi sighed.

"Both I guess.Before the minor surgery,she said she going to give me a super medicine.I was wondering what could be that med that I'm not aware of.Later I learnt that it's diazepam.The pharmacist was worried if I have hypertension or any illnesses before he gave it."
I smiled to my self Pallavi. Those are like tic tac for me some years back.
"Dont worry,I'm right here.Is it still painful?"her sweetness never decrease even a percent since the day I know her.

I just smile.
"Is she actually a qualified BDS doctor?"How can she be so careless?!"Please take the pain killer and get some rest,"said Pallavi.
"Don't scold her,she did her best.My tooth was as strong as me I guess,"I joked.
"Before she started the procedure,she recited prayers.That's showed her concern at the same time it scares me.She struggled to pull the remaining half with extra effort and that's what leaded to the palate's wound because it's hard to control stopping velocity in that tiny oral space right?
I'm blessed that my mandibular joint is still intact,it was that painful..It's understandable Pallavi.

During the procedure,suddenly they stopped and put vaseline kinda substance to my right cheek and angle of my mouth.I knew she mistakenly injured my cheek but it's was only today I realized even the angle of right lips was slightly torn.That's why it's hard to talk nor open my mouth widely.You might guessed it from the way I'm speaking  right?
The are blisters and bruises all around my oral cavity.That's nothing compare to when the gum got cut when she pressed too hard using the blade.It felt numb for sometime but with time the pain became more obvious and the worst of all was when she mistakenly cut the side of my tongue."
"WHAT??!"Pallavi was surprised.
I laughed,"It's my fault.With the diminishing numbness,it became hard for me to control my tongue from interrupting their work.If she hold my tongue,I nauseated.It wasn't their fault.The pain caused reflex tear rolled from my right eye."

"She said in Bengali,"don't cry,you're not a kid. Infact I wasn't ,I told her.It tears of joy.I was suffering for 12 months and it's going to end today.I was humming my favorite song so that they don't feel bad.It made them laughed and worked with less anxious .After all they're human too right.I knew that feeling It's just that they operating inside mouth and I have done it at sites other than inside of a mouth.Before she started I told her Pallavi,back in Malaysia,we have this thing where each year they will do free dental check up during our primary school.I'm super afraid of it not because of the pain,but because the nurses will always scolded me because I will nauseated when ever she put her fingers in my mouth.The latex smell of gloves and when she touched the inner part of my mouth,it seriously made me suffered.So during standard 5,when I went into that Sekolah Kebangsaan Alma Jaya's dental clinic,I saw that green dental report card which contain records for that whole 6 years .

It was there  and I noticed no one was seeing me.So I took it and misplaced the record at the place where they kept record of students who already got checked. I walked out proudly after done that 'crime' and went to class. I lied to my mother too.Unfortunately the next year,because I skipped a year of check up,I ended up with much worse trauma;caries which was super painful during fixation procedure.I told  her that event made me super phobic and that's why I didn't even try to go and check with a dentist  for years. I told them I'm here again in a dental clinic after 14 years and if can, don't scold me like the nurses back then if I ever feel like vomiting.

Pallavi gave a loving smile and before she said something,I interrupted,"you go and do your work first Pallavi.This is normal.Whatever this place touches will ended up this way.Be it repairing a laptop,phone,tab,health ,studies or life.It gave the effects of inner city.Most of the time it ended up disastrous with the thing it came in contact.I will be fine.You carry on.We talk later ,"I assured.I knew she's busy."If it's super painful I will take a cold shower,"I reassured.


"Use hot water.Don't inflict more pain Lakdhes,"Pallavi said with a caring tone."You made me worried almost everyday.I can't figure out what's in your mind.Don't be weird like this please."
That made me laugh out loud."If I can't keep my self uncomfortable for 5 minute with that cold water,I definitely can't do the thing that I wanted to do Pallavi and stop figuring out me ..Don't think I'm rude but please don't,because I don't want it nor needs it."

She remain silent.That silence was awkward and unpleasant for me.I broke the moment,"Pallavi,don't mistaken me.Soon or later, this feeling will end.It might be dopamine,oxytocin or the worst PEA. I'm sorry Pallavi,I knew sticks and stones might break bones but words will break our heart,"I tried to make her understand.
I don't even feel like explaining much this time to anyone even to her but I knew how it will feels when we hurt people that really care for us by ignoring or by being rude.
There's still no sound from her.
"Are you there?"I asked yet seconds later, still no sound from her side,"Should I hang up?" I continued.
"I'm here,listening.Hurt me more,"she said.
Her voice and her cute way of expressing her sorrow made me smile.
"Pallavi,let me share with you something."
"Tell,"she replied in a split second.
"Don't get excited.It' nothing relevant about emotional garbage. ,"I exclaimed while heating up the water kettle to make coffee.I can hear she clearing her tears from her nose.I smiled while cutting that 10taka coffee packet with scissor.

"It's okay,as long you talk something with me,it feels good,"she said..
"Pallavi,have your heard about this girl,Pramodini Rual,known as Rani..?"
"I don't know,who's that?"
I smiled,"she's from your country Pallavi,from Bhubaneswar,Orissa."

"She's had been returning from home after an exam with her cousin when a 28-year-old man cycled biked past and doused her with acid. He was a paramilitary soldier, melting her skin and blinding her in both eyes simple because she had turned down his marriage proposal."
"She can't walk for 4 years,can't even bent her neck because the acid melted her neck bone and it took police 9 years to record her statement,as you know the system since that motherfucker was in military,so.. ,"I explained while she was listening quietly.
"When I compare my pain to her or people out there that suffering for real,this is nothing right?"

"Maybe,but I'm more concern about you,"she replied in a way that I really don't know how to react wondering if I should cherish her concern towards me or be mad for being bias like the rest of the world.Seconds later,she sighed and asked me,"why are you so concerned about such people?"You could focus more on you right?What you can do to them?Nothing,right"
I just smiled while sipping my hot coffee.

"When I was small,I was at my grandparents house and my twin sister was with my mum.I loved my grandmother but I remembered few incidents Pallavi,"I said while  she was listening silently.

"I  knew that my grandmother used to secretly asked me not to talk to my mum,be it on phone or in person.In front of my mum or others, she will be normal.I don't get it back then but I remembered this incident,it was during Diwali season."
My parents came to bring me back.It was my grandmother who prepared me with new clothes and everything but inside the room,when we both were alone,she said this to me while talcumed my face,' your mum will call you later to bring you back,but you shouldn't follow her back.You must tell that you don't want to go.'
Even now I don't know why I followed her words but when I went out,I said as what my grandmother asked me to say.My sister took back the toy gun that she gave me when I refused to follow them back.I was standing and looking what's happening and I remembered my grandmother said this to my father,'you and me aren't related,only money are related'."

When they brought me back after years to my parents house,on that day prior 'kidnapped', I remembered my uncle hides me in his home.I remembered he told me to hide behind the last room's door.I sneaked out and saw my father and my elder sister going front and back of the house on a bike. I don't  remember much but the next thing in my memory was,I saw shop lots near my real house's area in town,being sandwiched between my father and sister on a  bike.I'm so used to be at village.That concrete terrace house seems like a prison.


The feeling  of going back to my grandparent's place was extremely intense.It felt  like suffocating but I can't cry out loud.I broke the toys in anger,I don't mix with my siblings and I made so much chaos in the beginning .Whenever  I cried I wanted to go back to village,my mum have a technique.I wont voice out what I want because I'm scared of my mum so I cried silently.My mum will give a slap and told me,' don't cry for no reason,cry with a reason and that slap is the reason."

"She never beats me often.She wasn't cruel or what Pallavi,it's just that she don't know how to change me.I'm super good with adapting and hiding my feeling. I'm a fast learner I guess.Time flew and the intensity of feeling like going back to my grandparents became less intense but I love them more than my mum.I like my father more than mum because she tried to manage me by inducing fear and my father won't even say nor talk anything to me.My mum, even up to this day felt her way was correct but she don't realized what she had done to me in long term.I spoke about it once and I learnt that she's adamant that she's correct all the time."
"She used to compare me with my twin sister by saying you both born together ,why can't you be like her,why can't you speak English like her and bla bla bla without realizing the mistake that she had done."

"There was a day when my mum didn't cook so my father bought rice from shop outside.It must be night after 10pm because my father went to bed already when this incident happened. He always go to bed at 10pm because he have to get up early the next morning.We just finished watched a movie on television and I started to eat right away when the movie ended.I usually hate sharing and I remember I was holding the drumstick and enjoy eating it because I owned it even though I was sharing the rice with my sisters. "

"From no where,during our conversation ,topic about my grandmother came in.At that age ,I don't know that my grandmother was just pretending,so I loved her a lot.I supported her neglecting my mother's care.I hate it when someone says something bad about her.She got mad,"I paused.

"What happened?""If you don't feel like telling it's okay,"Pallavi assured.
"No,nothing like that,she wasn't mad, perhaps got hurt by my behavior would be more  appropriate word," I said and continued,"she beat me and made me sat outside on the shoe rack.My legs wont reach the ground when I sat on top of the rack so  I  remembered that day clearly because I saw my oscillating  legs and it was full moon.While crying looking at the moon, I wished to the the moon how nice it would be if someone come and save me from this heart ache .Then my father who was sleeping heard I'm crying outside, came and brought me in.I don't remember what happened next.Maybe she did something , tried to make me better,asked sorry etc I don't know.Only that intense sorrow is there in my mind now.She don't remember this when I asked but the consequences of  event like these were deep Pallavi. It made me became fake.Even when I felt like saying something I don't say it out loud.I kept within me.If she found a better way to deal with me back then,I would be better in many term too yet.."
"you know what,a part from the fakeness,it created this thought  to help such people ,not solely from childhood experiences but also due to discrimination I faced here in Bangladesh.Whenever I see someone cry or suffer,I always had this feeling that I should be their hope,never let them suffer alone inside."I explained  while leaned back on my chair ,raised my hand and kept the empty coffee cup at the corner of my study table.

"I born with a girl Pallavi.,"I continued."Sometime I  wondered how would I look if the sperm next to me won the race but not me.I'm sure that we wouldn't look the same.If you see my twin sis,she's a different sperm into a different ovum and she's completely different,be it look,gender ,characters or traits.Every life starts by winning but so called life and circumstances turned them into a loser and sufferer later.It's not fair."


"Elon wants to bring human to Mars.It's great.After all,human loves traveling and nothing wrong with it.. But somehow,where ever we go, we have to come back.right.Nothing gives the comfort like home but if home literally turned into an unsafe ,fucked up place with bad assholes then where else we can go for shelter and comfort.Well, its fine for me.I have 'wings' to fly but how about those birds that can't even fly?.At least their home should be safe right?
"This is a men made world Pallavi and only a man can change it ,be it for good or bad."

"But Lakdhes,it's not easy...In fact,it's impossible to make the world a safe place for everyone to live,it's damaged beyond repairable,"Pallavi stated.

"Maybe I can't change the whole world and the whole human population don't deserve it too honestly,but I can keep my surrounding  to be a better place to live right?I can make people who suffered and suffering powerful right?Doesn't matter if I need to be an Iron Man or Batman,what have to be done should be done."


"My friend once told me,action speaks louder than words.I kept quiet and walked away but that night I realized words are  more powerful than action.Words started  the whole paradigm .Your action was leaded by the thoughts in your head and it's always started as words.Everything that you bring out to the world created twice.Before they become tangible in your action,you created them in your mind as words which means nothing is ever impossible Pallavi."

"If you can see it in your mind,if you have the courage enough to speak about it,it will happen"

"When I said it to someone, a person once asked me,if it's true,then transport human to Mars in a second.That's a legit question but still,I'm adamant  with my point,nothing is impossible. It might seems not possible now ,but with time everything is possible.About a century back,flying isn't  possible.Roughly half decade back, going to moon isn't possible.It's just a matter of time before certain so called impossible thing become possible. Who knows years from now,even teleportation nor time travel will be possible,including better life at home.; As long as people that never buy such  words 'impossible' are  there in this world."

"Understand Lakdhes,but show some concern about your life too,"Pallavi requested with her as usual loving tone.
"Pallavi,honestly I'm melting with your care and voice,but keep the emotion aside.I came from stardust and I'm going to end as stardust..Before I departure,I will do something about it.

never taste my punch -superman

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How to Overcome Extreme Depression Effectively

How to Overcome Extreme Depression  Effectively 


Ways to Solve Chronic Depression

This post is closely related to   Recover From Depression-Cortisol--.So  read it as well to understand more about the stress hormone.

Most of the time,the feeling of depression that you facing might be mistaken.Don't get it?


When you visit your nearby doctor,most of the time,when you express your feeling,the doctor will prescribe you an  anti depression.I had done that too to my friends and even I myself personally took anti depression without actually aware of the real problem.

If I said I'm going to give you the top 10 ways to cure depression,then I'm going to fool you.There is no such thing that  as a common method that will apply to everyone.Everybody is unique and  different.Without actually establishing a two way communication,without you talk to me,I can never solve your problem.No one can actually.Maybe some are blessed to find their ways of fixation by their own but even  them,they might use the information and experiences shared by others,so you get it?

Most of the time,the acute feeling of 'depression ' we feeling isn't from the dopamine,serotonin endocannabinoid system or oxytocin. Those hormones are from the brain,to be more precise,limbic system ,amygdala  and hypothalamus.In general these hormones origin from inside of our brain and they related to more complex and chronic mental illness..The ways to heal them aren't impossible or extremely hard but it requires a lot of manual 'workshop',which of course I can help you,only if you're willing to make the changes.

Most of the time,we misdiagnosed it our self with the aid of google ,our own assumptions or even doctors who mispredict them.There are vast difference between the causes.It might be from the brain or it might be from the adrenal gland's hormone-cortisol.
Adrenal glands are 2 small glands  located on top of our kidneys.The problem with all the negative aspect of the hormones is that,our brain is more sensitive to bad than the good.Pessimism is more common than optimisms.Negative self thoughts are much easy to screw you than positive dual voice because our brain are wired such a way.Almost all the information will be filtered by different layers in our brain leaded firstly by amygdala,the kingpin of emotion.So negative emotions like fear,anger,anxiety are more common and susceptible because of these factors.

If you read the other post,you will get an idea how cortisol works in screwing .Rather than self evaluating,you can mail me at lakdhes91@gmail or direct message me on my Instagram so that I can assess you and figure out which system you're stuck in.We are more good in evaluating others than our self and that's a fact,right?So don't  make it worse if you can't help yourself. 

Majority of  the auto immune disease like Multiple sclerosis ,lLupus,Rheumatoid diseases,even systemic diseases like heart attack etc always happen after a stressful event,primarily loss of a loved one ,divorce,extreme heart break- due to cortisol.If you read the link above ,you will know that cortisol will accumulate.Hormonal changes with aging,menopause,menstruation  period,the accumulation of repeated old stress which never  really show up will hamper your autonomic nervous system.The moment you see a doctor,anti depression is what you will be given.That might help for sometime,but it only going to  mask the real problem because both system almost mimic one another leaving the real problem uncured. That is why finding the root cause is vital..I have given few tips on how to reduce your cortisol..The good news is,almost all of them,doesn't matter from adrenal or amygdala,I can guide you for better life.


Well,now let's go into more serious stuff.I already explained about cortisol and the hormonal cascade that might cause the depression in you.There are people who faced much worse than the rest,the near death experience,extreme abuse,PTSD,suicidal experience,sexual abuse,bully,raped,acid attacked or whatever it is,you name it.This is for you.

Firstly,whatever you gone through is related to those hormones from your brain.I'm not here to feel sympathy but to share my empathy by helping you get out of the matrix.I'm here to lift you up from your 'helly' rabbit hole.I'm not going to simply tell you to workout ,meditate like the rest.I will help you by guiding you the exact ways how to over come it.Small win is just a simple term but digging deep into them is like an ocean and it varies for everyone..When we exercise, brain derived neurotrophic factor BDNF will be secreted.It helps with brain's neuroplasticity. Assume the brain as a plastic and we can mold it into something else to bring you out completely from it.I know it's sounds nothing new but you don't know my story so trust me. If you're reading this,I knew you already on the path of finding ways to fix yourself,so mail me.You know what going to make you great?

Those people that faced near death experiences,God has a different story for us.Yes us.There is a saying, 'teach the thing that you need to learn',right?So you know we belongs to the same tribe.
You know why?Even scientist can't explain it how and why.The brain is like the universe.You can't actually figure out the exact answer for every puzzle but the biological reason that occur in the mind of people with such experiences changed.

If you are 18 years old to 25,the approach you need will be different.The brain grow completely matured at the age of 25.If you're more than 25,it's not easy to change you unless you experienced a painful situation.You know why you're gifted?

Those with such experiences ,the biological reaction changed in your brain and no one knows exactly why.Our senses will detect about 400 billion bits of information per seconds.The number might varies but that's what scientist predicted .Unfortunately the informations that out brain can interpret at a sec is 120 bits.When you listen to someone's talking,it's about 60 bits.So when 2 person talking at the same time,your brain can't register them properly and this is the reason. When we sleep,there are 4 cycles that we will go through ,each last for 90 minutes.They consist of rapid eye movement sleep,REM and non rapid eye moment sleep non-REM sleep.There will be 5 waves that we will encounter during sleep,alpha beta theta delta gamma.The unique thing about this is that,we can accurately predict how a person going to be 6 months later,either you going to be depressed or happy by assessing your sleep today.

When we sleep,we usually reach REM sleep after 90 minutes.The going to be happy or will remain happy people will achieve this at 90 or up to 110 minutes.Those who seems happy today but when they sleep,they reach the REM stage within 50 ,60 minutes of sleep will be miserable in coming months.It's 98% accurate and we don't know how and why it's being such a way.The blessing that near death experience people have is,when they sleep,they reach their REM cycle at 110 minutes.Something inert biologically happened and changed after such experiences for them and I see it as a blessing .That is the first step ,perhaps blessings that others wont get..That is why I said you guys going to be the greatest among the rest.

If you feeling stuck in such a dilemma,don't know how to survive another day,mail me at lakdhes91@gmail.com or dm on Instagram.Better days are coming and it's starts from now..

How To Lose Belly Fats and Recover From Depression

How To Lose Belly Fats and Recover From Depression 

Relation between Winter,Sunlight,Cortisol,Insulin and Food

The moment I asked google what is the temperature today,the phone rang.
It's Pallavi.
"Should I answer the call or just leave it and get to her later?"the internal monologue kicked in with a question inside my dark skull.
I just don't  feel like talking with anyone yet.The day felt so uneasy,I slept for 8 hours yet I felt awful.I woke up twice in the middle of sleep and when I finally got up from of a vivid dream,I felt I woke at the wrong sleep cycle.I felt super dizzy and drowsy.
She called again for the second time.
"Let's just face it,who knows,maybe she can make you feel better,"I said to my self.

"Hello,"I swiped the screen and uttered the first word of the day with a grumpy voice.
"Bad dream?"she asked guessing from my sulky tone.
Despite such mood,I smiled to myself thanking God for blessing me with such an understanding friend.
"Sort of,"I replied and continued,"I dreamt  bitten by dogs.
"Hahaha",she laughed."That's why you moody?"
"I don't know,but it happened twice in my dream,"I tried to recall the dream while ignoring her smile.Her smile was optimistically contagious.
"No wonder why boys kept dm'ing you Pallavi.You have a sweet smile,"I said while pulling my blanket covering my legs.

She smiled again."You want to sleep back ?"she questioned.
"It's coldddd,"I said with a low tone.
"Aquaman ,you took shower with that cold freezing water at midnights and you complaining of winter 's breeze at 10 A.M?"she laughed.
"No,I'm Superman."No Iron man."I corrected her while re-correcting myself.
"She laughed harder ,"you and your uncertainty!"
"Superman is considered son of god.I can't be him.Iron man or Batman makes sense at least.That's why I changed the hero."

"You going to be 27 next year and you still fantasizing superheroes," Pallavi teased.
"I will take it as a complement,"I sighed.
She smiled and said,"let's contemplate whats going through in you head and fix it."
"Okay,try if you want,"I challenged.
"Check your fingers if your body have enough blood.Check for capillary refill."
I pressed my finger nails,"they looks fine.I took iron tablet and multivitamin last night.Don't think that I'm  anemic,"I ensured.
"Dehydrated?"she asked."It's common during winter,the body tricking us like we are well hydrated.Drink water and see,"she  concerned .
"Lips feels fine,"I reassured,"but will drink more."
"Seasonal affective disorder?"she questioned.
"Don't know,"I replied.
"There's no such thing as dont know.There's only yes or no,forget it?"she asked trying to remind me of my own philosophy.
This time I laughed.She got my attention.
"I think I know the cause.I stopped gym few days back.I started to workout at home.Basically I didn't go out past three days Pallavi."

"Maybe your cortisol is high because of lack of sun light.Maybe lack of Vitamin D as well,"she clarified.
I tried to recall everything that could be the cause.
"I don't smoke.No alcohol.No sleeping pills.No any external stimulants. Hemoglobin most probably is fine. Didn't take excessive carbohydrate over night ,so don't think so there's excessive insulin in my body.Water intake should be fine.Sleep cycle seems fine.Even though I got up at wrong cycle maybe REM phase,the sleep inertia should be fine by now.The one thing seems abnormal was lack of sunlight.

The problem with body is that,there's only ON switch for adrenal gland.Both adrenaline and cortisol are stress hormones dealing with flight and fight mechanism.The stress that body going through from cortisol effects will be cumulative means it will keep on adding.If you felt tremendous amount of stress,it doesn't means that the effect will wears  off the next day.It will be there and if you facing more stress the next day,it's more like an add on,not starting in a fresh manner.The only way to eliminate it is by balancing the buffer system of the body by regulating it with counter elements that hamper it's production like vitamin D3 along with Vitamin K,vitamin B1 from food,not the synthetic pills,calcium-calcium citrate and lactate.Calcium carbonate is the bad one so avoid it.Long walk,acupuncture,sun light,proper sleep ,exercise,breathing and food helps as well.Let me explain why.

When you never get proper sleep,the growth hormone will be secreted less in your body .GH will be secreted while you sleep.With lack of sleep,the opposite of GH,cortisol will be high.When too much cortisol is  in system, it prevent protein from reaching  muscles.The culprit prevent amino acid from sticking to our skeletal cells.Instead it shunted to liver and broken down and converted into carbohydrate.This is one of the reason why  ketogenic diet which is high in fat,low in carbohydrates and protein ,or even high protein diet failed to help you losing excessive fats.

The ketones or protein undergoes gluconeogensis in liver and became carbohydrates which means making new sugars.With a simple mistake,you will never see the difference,credit goes to this process.From adrenal it ended up in liver and this is why diabetes, high belly fats and cholesterol are highly related to cortisol.Cortisol increases insulin in this way..If you're eating really good but not losing weights,having stressful  circumstances ,it might be due to the stress hormone cortisol.When you're aging,the anti aging  hormone;growth hormone goes down and destructive cortisol increases. GH is secreted by pituitary  gland in our brain and as I mentioned  earlier, it will be activated during sleep.With aging,we sleep less,so the consequences is clear here.So more sleep =more GH but you shouldn't induce it artificially using drug or alcohol.The irony is,with aging ,our problem kept increasing and a peaceful sleep seems impossible,right?

The other closely related hormone is IGF;Insulin-like-growth factor.It is released by liver and regulate fat burning.It help regulates blood sugar when you 're not eating.What the difference between IgF and insulin?

Insulin regulate blood sugar when you eat and IgF does the same when you're not eating.
Walking helps because it's regulates insulin and prevent insulin resistance.The cortisol effect can be lessen by gentle massage at the nape of neck,back of the head,around sternum and area above umbilical.Indirectly you are stimulating the parasympathetic nervous system to calm down by massage and this is where acupuncture comes handy. Potassium helps to 'calm ' the parasympathetic system as well along with relaxation activity,breathing exercise,meditation and etc .The exposure of sun light produce good amount of Vitamin D 3 which you can't get the needed large quantity from supplement alone.So,that is why winter blues occurs.Go out,get proper morning sunshine to shine through out the day.


Rather than assuming,feel free to mail me at lakdhes91@gmail if you facing  any serious problem so that I can give an accurate ways to tackle it.Each body is different.Even the mode of delivery of yours,either normal vaginal delivery or you're a c-sec baby makes a lots of difference.So,use this as guidelines but if you feel you need further information,mail me or direct message me on Instagram.If you feel cortisol which is more to acute depressive problem isn't the cause for your misery,then you should read the link below before you mail me.

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I don't follow the regular pattern -

the alarm goes off, hit the snooze button,lay there for few minutes between the land of wake and sleep known as the hypnopompic state.I got up only when I had enough sleep but doesn't matter how long I sleep, most of the time,I felt groggy and disoriented ,thanks to sleep inertia.I wondered why I felt like I'm attending a series of never ending lectures while I'm sleeping.Everything that I studied the night before got synergized and came out as a single sentence in my dreams.When people asked me which book I referred ,I can't give a definite answer because it's a combination of few sources,linked together ,tanx to my vivid dreams.

I switched off my phone 30 minute before I went to bed.That's really helped to initiate a good sleep when melatonin pills(Fillfresh 2mg) and apple cider vinegar failed to do what they supposed to do.The moment I woke up,I switched on my phone and asked Google two thing.Yes,I don't check it by seeing,I asked.You don't have to own a fucking iphone.Even Google could do what Siri been doing dear Android users.

"what is the time now?"

"what is the temperature today?'

I can simply see it myself but Iron man and Jarvis really messed up my system.After all,starting my day like Tony Stark made my day most of the time.

The most important thing ,never get carried away with notification.The dopamine that you going to get from seeing them is purely illusion so I never start my day getting excited with likes and comments.It's purely a disastrous way to start you day but I won't blame it fully.There are so many people out there that kept posting a picture of them,especially with inappropriate clothes which is purely unnecessary unless you're doing it for a purpose like modelling.I know I know.I'm posting half naked  picture most of the time but come on,I'm a boy and I have a purpose for doing it.You might feel good about it but girls never know or might know but choose to ignore the fact that boys or perverts out there liking their inappropriate pictures for their own pervertedness.(you know what I mean).During my last holidays,I went out with a group of people.There was a boy,assume it boy A who constantly checking his Facebook and Instagram ,spent majority of the time talking about girls,their body and bla bla bla..I realized he lost his interest whenever  I talk about something useful with others.He was fucking turn off for me at that moment.There was another boy named Dorai.He seems  like a nice guy and he said something that still in my head to this moment."You seeing  girl's picture and imagining bad about them is almost the same like seeing someone taking shower in a secretly pervert way".

Your kids will never be happy or get  inspired to see such pictures of their parents in the future.Don't be a social fool and get into unnecessary problems.The dopamine that being released when you received a like or comment will never do good in long run.Don't believe me?Post a simple picture of quote and you will see the engagement that you been receiving for your inappropriate picture with 2,134 likes will ended up with  only 178 likes.This never apply for the nice girls with private profiles,having small circle of friends.This is for those who had a big circle of  14k ,40k,75k followers,creating no content,just uploading 2, 3 pictures per day with a caption 'she is wild as fire ,she is the queen,brown girl can wear shit bla bla bla'.Your intention clearly visible even from 3 miles away.. Men are pervert in one or another way girls..Indirectly,you teaching your kids to be another idiot like you. Hate me for being real but this thing is super useful for certain group of people.You don't get it?Those who went through PTSD or  acid attacked victims;this will be a life saving method to give them the drive to start another day like the normal people out there each morning.(If you're one of them and you felt trapped ,feel free to dm me.I can't help you in term of money but I can teach you how to be powerful and earn a good living by creating a market or help you monetizing your product or service into a valuable asset.I can get you connected with people that will really help you.I don't want to over sell but at least I would try).

I will take my own sweet time before I use my gadgets,mostly after I performed a mindful activities.

Soon,I'm going to chase every gays in my friend list.You can even forgive gays but those heterosexualist ,such guys are the most pervert breathing creatures on Earth.To my surprise,I encountered many of them recently.I wondered how they actually camouflaged among the rest all this while.It's their personal but the way each dm me is so fucking annoying..If  they tried the same in person,I can guarantee that they will ended up in hospital for the next 3 month with a broken jaw.I promise. They really have some sort of mental illness that we can't see with naked eyes.Just because I wish to treat human in a good way,they misuse the kindness.-P/s:  I'm freaking super straight!Motherf*ckers!

These guys aren't bisexual by the way.Those are some of the nicest people that I got to know in recent time.

The groggy day became super alert the moment I saw her name.For a moment,I thought she actually replied my story.I laughed over my overly  ambitious's hope and the day started.

If you can see it in your head,If you have the courage enough to speak about it,it will definitely 

happen.Blink*

Well ,I don't want to hide anything.See yourself,judge yourself.I wondered why we Malaysian always failed when someone examined us in person.Simple,I'm stupid enough,right?.Thanks Bangladesh.You don't know what you going to produce.Wait and see.This picture will be a history 5 years from now.Trust me.

I came back,felt fucked up saw the result.One thing I realized,the coffee on the right made me felt anxious and terrible when I took 4 of them cumulatively .The one in left doesn't give such feeling even when I took 5 at a go..I tried this for 3 days with all  different brands,with the same fasting condition and they appeared the same.The heart started to beats faster with more rapid breathing at the end of 4th packet.So,if you feeling the same during your day,cut your fucking caffeine. 

Price of Milo :Rm18(look at the size) 😥

The house looked terrible because I didn't pay much attention  past a month after the result came out.So I decided to clean them.First ,I need to get a broomstick because I broke the old one into 2 part in anger trying to kill a fucking cockroach on the result day.

50taka only.

Before 

After

Bachelor's life's misery. 

I guess my housemate equally been damaged by the result.That was a terrible way to see your rice cooker.

Bangladesh's "KTM"

Longest code ever.

That's how we pay the electricity bill here.Top up system.Make a mistake while keying in,your cortisol level increases 200 fold.

Had to keep the business on track as well even when I don't feel like doing much.

Ya,watch me.

While being lazy and felt fucked up cleaning ,Nikhil's like was a boost.By the way,this isn't dopamine.It's more into serotonin cascade.She only liked my comment tho not the rest,so it's not dopamine but serotonin.

Took a shower and went out again.This time,

I wanted to buy  fruits.When I first went and tried to buy it ,there was a boy.I bought it for 40tk each.I went to different shop,finished my shopping and I felt I wanted to get more Pomelo because my housemate will eat it as well.This time,the small boy wasn't there but a different guy was there.Much older ,talking with a man,seems like his friend.The moment I asked how much,he said 60tk.Just a moment,it was 40tk.I didn't say much but walked towards other shops.He kept screaming calling me asking how much I'm willing to give but I don't feel like entertaining  a cheap asshole.At the next shop,there was a small boy ,in his 10 or 12,trying to sell it for 70 tk.I asked him to give for at least 50tk and if he willing to give it for 50tk each ,I ensured him that I would buy 3.He refused.Another local customer came,the boy said the same price.The local customer got pissed off,cursed that little boy for selling that small sized Pamelo pricey and went away.I tried to get into his head,I told him if you don't sell it now ,it will get spoiled tomorrow because the fruit  already looked bad,almost going to spoil.Still he refused.(Today I just went back to see how he reacts.When I went, he tried to sell it to me for 40tk,I smiled and  walked off.No one ever buy his 6 Pomelos since yesterday and all went wasted.Karma is a bitch I guess).

The problem with people who trying to sell anything is,they try to negotiate in away that I see it as a prey and hunter mentality.It's unlike the victim and warrior mindset that I used for   daily life .When it's selling and buying involving negotiation ,everyone does the same,they try to turn you into a prey or trying not to get hunted.Thief is the extreme version of hunter but it only emerged if you being so naive.Most of the time,we human won't be that stupid unless a beautiful girl try to sell us something.

Days back,a volunteer from an organization stopped me asking for a donation.She looked gorgeous honestly but I only took 10taka from my wallet and tried to put into the donation box.

"You're a foreigner and you only giving 10tk?"she asked.

"At least if not 1000taka,a 100tk will do right?"she continued.I knew she saw the 1000tk notes in my wallet because I just came out withdrew money from the bank .

Beauty might turn men  blind but not me girl,"What will you do if I donate you extra?"I asked.

Before she tried to utter her reply,I continued,"Two thing will happen.Either you will use it to fulfill the vision ,come and ask me again or you going to waste my money if  your mission doesn't work out or  if it doesn't reach the right people",I explained with a fucked up face.

She turned to her friend,another activist ,said something to her ear,swearing me maybe.?

This hunter and prey mindset  tend to work some extend in such activities as well.I knew the founder of It's Humanity Foundation from Dhaka.That guy doesn't simply went to street and ask money,he turned the ladies with skills into something more meaningful.He taught the poor ladies to use the skills to create product from trash,sell them online,share the profit with them,giving education for under privilege kids and much more.If he can do it in such a noble way,what's wrong with the rest?

You might came a cross this notice in supermarket,'limited  -only 4 piece person'.When they remove it,people only buy 1 or 2 of the same  product but when they put such statement once a while for certain product,human brings their family member,asked their kid to grab 4 and the will buy 4  themselves and paying at different counters.You might witnessed it before.Such urgency only increases sales.We have seen it at KTM,TBS etc  with people screaming ,"last 2 seats left!"..Such pseudo- urgency creates a sensation that you have to buy it before other get them.

So when someone tries to negotiate with you,the easy way not to become their prey at the same time increase your chances of getting it is by not going far away from the price limit that they set and make it clear to their mind that you isn't the best candidate for their tricks.For an example,if they said it's 100tk,you just have to let them know,"I'm sorry,I only wanted to buy it for 60tk not more",Either you will get for 70tk ,the average or 60tk the price you bid  or the worse case scenario you won't buy anything from a corrupt seller.Either way,it's more like a win-win situation but trust me,you won't go with an empty hand with this but if you set it as low as 40tk,they won't compromise.When I see some people being evil,I tried to make them give me discount without they actually realizing it.For an example,I will buy a  3 packet of 12tk coffee  along with a product which is 25tk.The total will 61tk and they will give it for 60tk.I used it for even larger amount which will make them give me 90tk or 80 tk change in return.Majority will give the discount and small percentage of people will be stingy.This won't work in hypermarket but if it's a tax free small grocery shops,it works for certain extends.Whatever it is ,I will feel the fun trying and doing the experiment because somehow I will learn how people react and behave..The 10 year old boy tried to be great by selling it for higher price for the sake of himself.Maybe he might feels good or his father might praise him or he try to use the extra money that he just cheated to his own use.The older guy might try to show off his friend this cheating skills.It's common around the world people trying their best to make more profit from a foreigner .I have seen it in Batu Ferringi ,Langkawi ,Pulau Pangkor etc where the price is much cheaper for the locals than the foreigners.What goes around comes around right?

When a single rickshaw puller set the price high,every one around him set the same price.The only way you can get a cheaper rate is by walking far from the group to a guy who never heard the conversation otherwise everybody became a tribe to cheat you  alike.Unlike Malaysia,people here have shops of the same type around the same area..If one shop selling clothes,every shop in the row sell the same shit.If one selling cement,the whole area sells cement but in Malaysia,they usually  don't do it.They move far away from the same type of shop to avoid competition and increase their profit.

During negotiation,lot of variables came in place.Their mood,their gender ,your gender,if you're a girl,if you can speak their language and even if you're a girl,the odd of outcome varies for girl that looks dark and for the girl that looks fair.People might  object this,but that's the truth that I kept seeing for years.The easy way to break the pattern not entering their prey method is by giving a clear statement of objection in a subtle way using alteration of tones,ways you express it.Most of the time the persuasion works for me.

Before I end this post,I should remind my self of this day,4th Dec.I wonder if next year thing would be same,but this is consider a special day because it's Priyanka's birthday.She is an unique girl I encountered in recent time.When someone entered in my radar,I always evaluate them to certain extend because I don't trust anyone especially girls.No one can screw a boy's life stronger than a girl.Majority of them got into the entertainment category,ambivalent or toxic people but this girl was completely different.I kept testing her but she remains the same.She is one of the nicest friend I have ever seen in recent time.I don't think she will see this for now,but Priyanka,if you're reading this in the future,thanks alot for being my Telugu teacher and many more happy returns of the day girl.Stay safe and stay blessed forever.

I don't forget anything unless I decided to.

Little time left

To think clearly about the future,we need to clean up the language that we use in labeling the beliefs we had in the past.

Heal Your Physique with Little Effort

Lose Weight with Little Exercise

I'm going to post today might be useful for many people out there especially if you're working,studying or doing anything with notion that you don't have enough time to workout.Some might have the desire to lose weight and you might be sweating your ass off but you can't see an obvious progress.In case you have been doing everything in a correct way but in a wrong environment,to be more precise,in a stressful working,studying or living environment,I will explain the reason why and how you can actually overcome it in my future post.Definitely this whole post isn't about reps and sets like how others been sharing.There are many good pages out there sharing  such info,so I would like to emphasize more about how to initiate and sustaining the whole journey than the process itself..After all,there's no fun doing and sharing the same shit that everyone been doing out there.It's completely free and dear girls,this is more specifically  for you.Putting on weight with aging and post marriage?Let me help you.Let me explain the most common secret that you actually can manifest for a better progress which you have never been notice before.This is for those who don't actually have enough time to workout.This post might be long before it actually reach the point,so you can read the full information (link in bio)..Before I came across all this legitimate evidence for my mind,I had noticed this effect through my friends.

There was a group of researcher in Italy,Dr Fabrizio Benedetti and his colleagues doing studies on patients undergoing thoracic surgery.Cutting open your chest cavity ,reaching your heart and lungs is an invasive procedure which will be carried out with full course anaesthesia because it's super painful. Within an hour post surgery,the pain killer effect fades away and the pain will haunt the patients.So Dr Benedetti divided this patients into 2 groups.Both group received morphine sulphate for the pain but the difference was,one group received the medicine by a doctor.The doctor injected the medicine to the patient and another group was administrated by an auto self regulating pump.I will try to convey it in more easy understandable language and if you're one of those people that achieved greater 'wisdom' and seek an explanation for every single thing,google is your friend.


The group that received the medicine by doctors reported significant reduction of pain and those who received using auto pump self administrating morphine didn't seems to experience the same benefit.

Dr Benedetti was curious and wondered why..Whether the patient aware of it or not,the medicine,once injected into our system,it suppose to do its job,right?

So,he tested the same method with anxiety ,Parkinson,hypertension n etc and the result seems consistent.When the patient aware of it,the treatment is highly effective.When they don't, it's blunted.In some cases,it's not even effective.. Maybe that's why there was a saying ,'doctor nor medicine never heals you,it's your belief that does it'.


This frame of mindset,the lens we interpret the expectation to heal is more related to placebo effect.I have seen my friend A that became super sleepy within 20 minute taking midazolam.(but what I gave him was just a B complex but this effect doesn't work for my friend B that never tried dormicom 7.5mg  prior in his life.Friend A that continuously took it in the past got the same effect when I gave him a B complex tablet,the same size of a midazolam tablet but different color with a disclaimer  that's its a different brand. ) Midazolam is a sleeping pill and dormicom is the brand.


What's the connection of this to exercise?
Exercise is sort of a placebo effect that working in conjunction to this law.If you're not aware of it,it will never give the benefit fully.

You might be asking,"I had done everything correctly,diet,rest and workout yet it's not working"?
As I said in the beginning,this isn't the problem of yours.Your belief system might be working properly,but your hormone (cortisol) isn't working in favour (if you aren't on steroid).That's a whole vast topic that I will cover next time in medical context for better understanding and practical application.

To justify the placebo and exercise (since some human mind  simply never satisfied and continuously seek evidence and gain nothing , over analyze = paralyze),this explanation is for you .

84 hotel house keepers from 7 different hotels  in U.S have been studied.From the studies,the researchers learnt that 2/3 of them never do a single workout past these years.
   So the researcher wondered what would happen if they change the mindset of the workers.
This might the case of you as well(Yes ,I'm telling you).

Most of the activities that they workers had been doing satisfied the Surgeon General Requirement list,for an example :
*Changing linens for 15 minute ~ burns 40 calories
*Vacuuming 15 minutes ~burn 50 calories
*Cleaning bathroom 15 minutes ~burns 60 calories
*When you doing nothing,just breathing,reading,thinking about your boyfriend,for a 130 lbs person,you literally  burns roughly about 50 calories in 30 minutes.(values might varies but please keep in mind that there might be  several views but the fact remains the same,you do burn calories even when you doing nothing.Imagine when you actually walk at your work place,reading something,refilling petrol to you car n etc)
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So when the workers been informed about this ,they came back 4 weeks later.(None of them actually do any extra activities like joining  a gym or went for jog etc,if I should say it in SRK's style,everything remains same to same.Just their mindset and awareness was different.)
4 weeks later,their weight dropped ,systolic blood pressure went down,their behavior changed,they literally liked their jobs more.(My friend and I used the same strategy,we turned house chore n etc into cardio -it's just that his willpower isn't strong enough so he went back into the same shape,wasted his money and time for nothing,changed my whole perspective towards him )

The researcher needs more concrete evidence so they conduct another studies.They set up a booth,offered a sensi milkshake(140 calories ,no sugar and 0 fat).Anyone who drink it and let their blood sample to be taken  to measure their ghlerin will be paid 75 dollar.
*Ghrelin is  the "hunger hormone" produce by gut when there's no food in your gastrointestinal tract

Another group was given a rich milkshake (620calories,30g fat,62g sugar) and their ghrelin was measured as well.


Both the result was compared.The group that drank the sensi milkshake,their  ghrelin level was ,for an easy understanding,assume within the scale of 1 to 10,was at 7,means their hunger hormone is still high which means they aren't full .So they going to eat more  anytime sooner because of hunger.The ghrelin level of the group that drank the rich milkshake,was at 2 and they literally felt full with higher leptin in their blood,the opposite hormone of ghrelin.

                             but you know what?

(Both the group was given a milkshake of same value with different looks- with 320 calories,10g fat and 30g sugar).
This simple concept can be used to boost your restaurant or food business's profit because the brain is that stupid .Will explain the method for profitable business in future post).

If you can see the difference,the mindset and the body works in an alignment that you can easily manipulate them to your favour in any condition.
We can  alter the  physiology nor psychology for the benefit of one and another.
It doesn't means that you can simply eat oily mutton curry everyday and expect the changes.As I said,both system related to each other like how conscious and subconscious minds works.If concept of one seems far away from the threshold of logical sense,it gets neutralized and will never work.For an example,if you drink alcohol as fuck and ended up at nasi kandar thrice  weekly and telling your mind that you will walk longer at work next day,it's definitely more like fooling yourself since your input doesn't match your output at all.So this will never apply for lazy ass out there.You might wondering how does this concept apply to conscious and subconscious right?For an example,if you have a disease and you trying to initiate your subconscious to heal you;it will never work if you keep telling your mind(conscious )that ' my cancer should go away or I should be cancer free in 3 weeks.If you look deeper, without realizing ,you been telling your conscious mind that you had cancer and you expecting it to go away which  won't because you neutralizing it.This whole concept  will definitely help for those who struggle with daily life yet trying their best to be fit and healthy with limited amount of money,source or time  and ended up sick because of the imbalance between mind,body and circumstances. .There are ways to do it in much sensible way that I would share more in the future,but what you can do for now is,even you don't have enough time to actually hit a gym,you can simply turn all your movement into some benefits by changing the way you believe and see things.

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When nothing works,when no one really willing to make a difference,the old unnecessary skills that I acquired during inappropriate time during exams helped at last.The network and people that I tot useless helped.The hours I spent learning non cognitive knowledge and skills helped.Learning how to use premiere pro,how to handle a dslr  helped.Hours of learning blogging, coding using html and writing helped.The last minute collateral benefit inducing strategy that I learnt helped me to make it to the next step.My first b grade advertisement that I made for free as an exchange  helped me with the next step.Mayb what ever happened n came across us eventho it makes no sense at that time has a purpose in the future.

I learnt it today. 

Siblings

When we were young,having siblings is weird because like one minute you want to strangle them and then later you're singing dramatic duets together.It took me years to realize that you dont choose your family.They are God's gift  to you as you are to them.Like branches on a tree,we all grow in different direction with time yet our roots remain as one.I knw the video and my wishes didnt sync yet many more happy returns of the day. May all your dreams and wishes come true and hope your special day brings you all that your heart desires. 'Both' of you,please stay safe and blessed..See you soon.