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Whatever It Takes,Let's Get it Done because Regret is More Costly






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I was busy listening to a podcast and from no where,I had this urge to write this.
I never realized writing was an escape for me and in fact,without realizing,it made me better in many occasion,the moment I complete an article.

Delivering the abstract images in your mind into words that could reach thousands of readers around the world is one of the hardest thing to do.Unlike videography,photography nor music,writing is entirely a different feeling yet I love it each time I started penning it down.

Past few days,the amount of sleep I slept was less than usual,somedays I only slept for 4 hours but I don't know why,I love what I'm doing.In 2 days,I already mailed ,messaged,spoke to more than 105 people regarding my website.The conversation that really count;I can count them with my fingers yet I don't feel like giving up.

My circle get smaller day by day.People that never stay with you when you have nothing never deserves to be with you when you have everything is the only lesson I learnt from people around me.

A day,I have 5 figure amount in my account,weeks later,I roamed with my last penny.The cycle kept repeating months after months.I made wrong move,screwed up everything,learnt,earned back and invested in something wrong and back to zero.It's kinda tiring when I think about it.

"Why don't you just save them,buy a car,move on,live a better life,eat well,sleep well,why this unnecessary cycle?"
These question popped up in my head time to time.
"You're a doctor,just focus on it rather than spreading yourself thin",my self asked me at time..
"What if I regret for not trying when I'm in my coffin?"
Regret is more costly.

This entire attempt could wipe the invisible tears of millions a day; if this works,right?
I convinced  myself..What is more gruesome than crying alone,at night,in front of a mirror,screaming without letting others hear you..How many people underwent and still undergoing it daily in their life..

The pain that they experiencing,maybe because I experienced it,I knew how it felt and how the heart seek for a helping hand from the invisible power which never ever reach at the moment of need.That was a torture.
I wish and I will change it.One day,million of life should sleep peacefully because of my effort,millions of life should heal,millions of souls should reach home safely,millions of kids should study because of me and millions of hungry stomach should filled with food because of my move.That thought itself never let me to give up nor quit.

If you had a chance to stop it,would it a risk worth taking?"I asked myself and I always knew the answer,and it never chance for years,it's a YES.

The Struggle was Real


 One month ago,at last started my business legally.




Single campaign.



Launched my own e-commerce beta version site to test how to make money with little investment.


Before that,I realized I need to learn how the business industry works,so

From cabling


Cctv

Electronic

Electrical

Designing

Pipe,airco air-cond,chiller,wiring




Agriculture


Construction

Painting

High voltage cables


When you work at such places ,this is the only way to wash your hand after eat.

Drainage



Ad designing

Copy writing

Designing logo 



Marketing

Website creation
 And lot more..
I mastered everything and i realized the most important aspect is, marketing,to close sales,so at last I went into it.
Turning a slow businesses into a profitable margins.





I realized most businesses collapse not because of external factors solely but due to internal conflicts.


ROI after 3 weeks.
Next I want to aim for 5 figure ROI.




The Oneness


                  My morning coffee



No other planet is filled with such abundance.We  are living surrounded by them yet we can't drink them.

"Sun's heat evaporates the water, remains in the atmosphere as an invisible vapor until it condenses, first into clouds and then into raindrops. "

The whole design make us realize that everything is interlinked,every element,every creation and every situation matters.
The oneness.






One Day,It Will Happen.


There was a day when I wished I have my own keyboard.When I had it,I wished I can play it and compose some music.When I can play it partially,I wished  I could compose my own song..Today I wish,one day I could produce my own good listenable song.
#trying


Goals

"Our goals can only be reached through a vehicle of a plan,in which we must vigorously act because goals are dreams with a deadlines."

The Storm Within.





If you want to see the sunshine,you have to weather the storm,

There are some thing you can only learn in a storm.

And not all storms come to disrupt your life,some come to clear your path.

Third Attempt Yet It's Not Working



To laugh often  & much.
To win the respect of intelligent people & the affection of children.
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends.
To appreciate beauty,to find the best in others,to leave the world a little better, whether by being a healthy child,a garden patch oral a redeemed social condition;to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.For me,that is the meaning of a great life.

We all die in the end,but there's no reason to die in the middle.

Third attempt, it's not working still but... learning..and will make it work a day.

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Usually people go in this direction,making profit and then starts a charitable program.
In my case,It was opposite.

Money isn't the reason but I won't lie that money isn't important.I learnt that with money,I can touch life of millions and help them in a better ways.

As a doctor, I'm aware that Malaysian government pays the doctors well.Study further and you could live a luxurious life.It's a fact . I learned that being a doctor alone,I could change the life of a single person at a time.Human labelled it as a service but from what I'm witnessing daily,I felt,in 2019 it's more into business than service.There are some kind soul but let's admit it.The percentage of saturation with people seeing it as a business is more .
By making more money I can touch life of millions at a time on my term.A term that not only manage problem but cure and eradicate the root.

When I was a student,I faced lot of discrimination .Due to color, country,gender,amount of money you have,the denominator  goes on according to human around us.


Initially I went to med school so that I can be a forensic pathologists.Someone that perform autopsy and find out the cause of death.I love to see the cut opened human body(don't ask me why because even I don't know).So whenever there's a chance,I always visit OT and autopsy room.

Autopsy room's experience always seemed to leave me with an impact.The kind of deaths,the injuries that a dead body had ,the degree of aggressiveness and violence that a person inflicted on another person made me flabbergasted beyond words could express at time.
It made me wondered which one is more important,health or safety?

During my 5th year,I saw a case.
It was a girl.A raped victim.From her physical signs she must be around 12 to 14 years old.
In forensic,the degree of rigor mortis,cadaveric spasm,the development of certain parts,hair everything gives a clue about them.From their personality to the cause of death.

She wasn't dark nor fair. Definitely not a rich kid too. Straight hair texture,who knows what was her dream.To be a doctor,to earn a good money and take care of her parents?Only she and non responding God knows.
But standing there,I knew one thing.She don't deserves to be here.Lying breathlessly,in a cruel condition.
There were nail's scratch marks all over her body,her lips were torn at a side,bite mark on the right breast with marked darkened erythema,
a deep cut wound probably from a glass .The margin and tail of the wound clearly showed that it's wasn't from a knife.Fractured right elbow,dislocated right shoulder and a bite mark on her left inner aspect of her thigh.I can't share the remaining injuries because it's way too awful to describe to a normal reader.

The doctor told me that she passed away due shock and severe bleeding from ruptured genital vessel due to irregularly torn hymen and pelvic dislocation.

Bite mark on thigh?How much pain would it caused?
Every one of us knew how much a simple pinch on our thighs hurts,right?
That question kept ringing in my head and honestly I was very disturbed .
That's when I realized, safety is more important than health.
Why?
Even Google can solve your health issues,but in term of safety,even the God can't help you.
At times, law enforcement and people that should protect you stays numb even though that was their duty.

Vitriolage,burn injuries from hot water,oil and chemical wasn't a new sight when I was there.You can't even take a picture of these victim in the Burn Unit because their appearance will be so bad.

Do you know what kind of trouble someone have to experience when their lower body and buttocks involved in such injuries?
I learnt it from a small boy's case where the owner of the shop kicked a hot boiling pan full of frying oil to him.
Till the wound heals,he have to depend on a colostomy bag because he can't pass motion normally because the wound will get infected.

I don't see it as a gender discrimination,I saw it as
a strong evil person harming and hurting a weaker soul.

I can't help everyone. Ironman and Superman is just for movies.
Then I figured out something.The panic that we experience,the inability to defense ourselves or unable to achieve a good fight or flight response is because we're unprepared.

To prepare someone I can't just tell them a day and leave.It has to be done in stages.

In the past ,I realized, seeking fund from a person and help others wasn't a pleasant experience.It felt like some sort of slavery to please the donor.

So I decided I want to use my own fund and run my own foundation.
Be it health safety education food or money making,I realized I can help all of these aspect through a center.
Rather than building a own center,I decided to run it on the existing schools.Rather than start big,I thought lets test it in a small scale, with a weekly once class.A class that doesn't just teach abc.A class that comes with a whole different syllabus.Basic English and maths,basic Ai,Robotic, Space,basic medical info like Cpr,wound management,git problems, difference between good and bad touch,self defense by making them stronger n be prepared,and lastly mindfulness to minimize inflammatory changes.It's a big dream and I can't do it alone.

Volunteer in the beginning stage isn't possible.It might be achievable in the future but now, definitely no.
So,I spoke to my good friend and will pay him monthly for him and for the expenses for the kids books and food and clean drinking water during classes.

If anyone reading this have a good insight or better idea how to make it possible or willing to help to form and construct the syllabus,feel free to message me.I really need some good brains and souls to make it possible.

That's is why I started this whole idea of E-commerce.

Next ,get the class started,test what works and what don't,learn and fix it and move forward.

It's time to revolutionize the health and safety of mankind through knowledgeable.
Person to person.Step by step,one life at a time.

















The Worth of Pain



"What we get out of life for is not determine by the good feeling we desire.It's the bad feelings that we willing and able to sustain to get us those good feeling.The positive is the side effect of handling the negative.

It's part of our life.Pain will be in everything but in different forms.The pain to be wealthy is different.The pain to build muscles is different.The pain to be knowledgeable is different..Ask yourself what kind of pain you're willing to experience.I learnt that,if you don't deliberately choose the type of pain,then undesirable pains will choose you.Trust me,you don't want that and if you see it deeply, it's actually a choice.We aren't aware of this fact, that's all."

There's no sound from her.The conversation turned into pin drop silence.

 "Listening,"she uttered after couple seconds of mourning silence.

 "Happiness requires struggle.
Our struggle determine our success so choose it wisely.You always have a choice."

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