The Root of Human Existence :To Experience

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"Doctor,do you ever felt depressed during your time as a houseman?"I asked naively.
She smiled,looked at me and said,"depressed ,not really but the stressed was always there."
"Why you're depressed is it?"she questioned.
"Not exactly ,but when someone is very strict, scolding for no reason,it felt uncomfortable and unpleasant to work,"I sighed.

"That's normal.I was very malignant once .Then I changed,"she admitted.
"Why that sudden change Doctor?"I asked.I don't call anyone as boss.I'm not very fond with that word and I don't really know why.
"With time I understand that I don't have to scold for everything,just say it in nice way would be sufficient ,"she said while both of us walking to room14 from hdr.Hdr is for patient that need more serious care during labour.

"See lakdhes,sometime when people scold you,take it this way.Learn the thing that you lacked and was the reason for the scolding and sometimes it's about them.I can change myself but I can't ask other mos to change right?"
I just silently nodded.
"You can learn more things actually,not in medical basis but a part from it during these situations,"she continued and reached her water bottle to take a sip.
"But doctor,we only live once right.. . Does the stress actually worth it?Being in hospital for 24hours as an mo.."I interrupted.
My question stopped her halfway from drinking.
She looked at me with a puzzled sight.
"Sometimes when my 2 and half years old daughter is closer with my husband than me, I do felt one kind but she paused without an answer..No one ever asked me that you know..,"she acclaimed.

"What's your biggest life goal doctor,"I continued my interview.Past 2 months I spoke to so many people to know more about their perception of life ,job and do they really happy and the conclusion is, everybody is living but not 100 % happy nor satisfied with what they're doing.

They  doing for the sake of living and going with the flow.
"Goals, I didn't think about it la..Maybe was busy with hospital life and got carried away..I have been in O&G for 10 years you know.."she said.

"Like write a book, become hod, specialist,"I tried to give her some hint to really understand what's her deepest desire and the answer was the same,she didn't think about it.

I realized  that people that never have such thoughts,never experienced certain things that made them realize that life is only once,live it in a way that even after your demise, people should remember your name for 100 years; they're just going with the flow..Living one day after another,turning one page after another without actually writing a readable story.
They don't really know what is their story about hence they seems fine with whatever life's adversity.
'That's life'- they labelled it that way.
They don't wish to see the Hawaiian clear sky and the cluster of Andromeda from Earth,they don't wish to experience the beauty of Switzerland,they don't wish to see the Artic snow,they don't wish to see volcanic mountain nor experience the coldness of Everest.They just don't have a greater desire,the root of human existence and evolution;TO EXPERIENCE THINGS.
But for someone with a definite purpose and goal mixed with realities's uncertainty,they started to rebel it , became unhappy with the current situation when they realized it's not favourable for them to achieve their goal.
That's the feeling that will make them take that one bold decision that other ordinary people would never even thought about.