Hurting Someone is Contagious | Lesson From A Nurse

"Doctor,you want to order any food?"the nurse asked.
That was first time a nurse asked me if I want to order foods.

"No, it's okay nurse,"I said.

Everything was well.She was kept laughing,making jokes and being cool.

I was literally having good day because coming morning I'm going to Kuantan for a vacation before a disastrous week ahead.

430am and the same person said something rude and became demonic.

I looked at her and she kept being the same.

It wasn't new after all.
The only reason I don't like to be a doctor anymore was this.
People scolding, humiliating and hurting my feeling.I don't like that and that leads to hatred towards this job.

Hours later she came and asked sorry for being like that.

I looked at her and  smiled.

Previously, I learnt that smiling is a gift and only few could possessed such a blessing.

"It's okay nurse.Everyday,each time, from different people, I learnt something here.
Sometimes it's not even medical based, it's more about life.
Today I learnt something from you.
Hurting someone is contagious.
Someone spoiled your mood,perhaps hurts you and you continued the cycle to me and it spoiled my mood.

Before this,I don't really realized  that our problems,when we expressed to others,it might , perhaps definitely will spoils their day.
If I don't get enough sleep, I had been rude to my friends,I showed my anger to my ex gf and spoiled her day as well.I don't realized it back then and thanks to you, I learnt it today."

Hurting others is contagious.When one person hurts us,we tend to hurt another soul.It's a poisonous cycle.That's what I learnt today.

I don't have the interest anymore not because I don't like this job but people around me changed me into this.I lost the interest .I'm not even trying to be better.I'm no more opening and reading my medical books.I'm the slowest and the stupidest houseman in this entire department,I told them.

Maybe not because I am but I don't have the interest anymore.

Thanks to people around me and the ill systems that should nurture love and kindness but insisting the other way around;Fear  and hatred towards the job.It's not building competency but turning many into an incompetent doctor

Smiling is contagious and it's a rare blessing that only some could possess.