In the middle of a warm night,loud
phone's ringtone was extremely annoying.
With eyes still closed,I tried to reach my phones under my pillow
with my left hand.
I took it out but it wasn’t the ringing phone.
Setting all phones with a similar Hans Zimmer's Is She with You
from Batman Vs Superman was a mistake I thought.
It was 1.34 A.M.
A WhatsApp call from my friend
.
I answered,"Hello,sleeping?"he asked.
"No was cooking."
"Haha,sorry sorry I thought you would be awake, that's why
called you,"he said with an annoying smile.
"Well, anything important?" I asked so that I can
continue my sleep if it's just a useless conversation.
"Bro,did u heard about it?"
"What? You're pregnant?"
"Bro..,"he sighed.
“Come to the point,I’m very
sleepy and I have to get up early tomorrow.”
“It’s about your girlfriend bro,”he
said and that single sentence turned me fresh from my sleepy state.
“Who,my ex?”I asked slowly.I just
don’t feel good when someone uttered such words.
“No,not your ex,your girlfriend.”
Since when I had a girlfriend
without me myself knowing it I thought.
“Who is that la?”
“Pallavi,’he replied.
“Bro for god sake,please!”
He laughed and continued ,”Bro,do
you know that there’s a video went viral about her?”
“Hmm,your tone seems very happy
about it and you called me at this time just to tell me this?”
“No bro,I just wanted to asked, that’s
all,”he said.
“Listen here. When I look at a
man’s physical body,I felt that physical body today is an absolute reflection
of only one thing.
Not his goal,not his desire but
his standard.If your
identity,your standard resemble like an
athlete there's an energy in a regular basis because that's who you are.That’s
how I see a girl as well.Just because I’m her best friend’s friend now,my
dreamy and playful words aren’t reality.
That girl wont even act by
exposing herself nor desperate for a
chance.
When someone is the talk of the town
,this is normal but use some common sense and you will know that no one will do such
thing and keep a video of it.”
“No bro,I just asked,that’s all.”
“Just because I have experienced betrayal and disloyalty, I didn’t see everyone as the same .We human ,most of us having a dual character. What people around
us know about us and what we knew about our self aren't the same .We all have
secrets.
In life ,I came across many people.Girl that told me that she will never
forget me completely ignored me.Girl that asked me not to ever leave her ,left
.So I don’t take human ,especially girls seriously.
I'm not even her fan. Liking someone
way too much will turn into an obsession so I don't want to have any sort of obsession
towards a human being..."
"But you know,'I continued ,
"There are some people that when you see
them,your heart skips a beat.
That’s how I felt when I saw her.
Long hair,acne scars,duck like face,confident,I don’t know why,I love those traits..She’s a star
but how I see the world is different.We all are one.Homo sapiens divided by
gene,blood groups and emotions.The rest are the same.What made me up,her ,you and
a moon are the same thing so nothing is impossible but what I want from life
isn’t a girl,love ,relationship anymore.
Robots ,Artificial Intelligence,space,going
to moon,these are the thing that in my head 24/7.
Going to the moon could be a one way trip so I don’t want someone to depend on
me.that is why I remain single.Sometime I felt Armstrong didn't really went to the moon.Maybe they went to the orbit but if they really landed..seems suspicious.Either no man had ever landed there,or they went later but not as being claimed as the first man landing or no one could actually go there.How lunar wave works is still not understandable.I wonder if it would wipe out your spacecraft or there's really extraterrestrial life up ,we can't be sure so it's a deadly dream. ”
“Sorry bro,”he said.
“No bro,don’t be sorry.You
telling her as my girlfriend is cute indeed.You know,that butterflies in your
gut kinda feeling but these video,bullshit,fuck them all.
That day,when my aunt saw my
phone’s wallpaper,she asked
"Is that your girlfriend ,?
I said yes.When she
tried to look clearly,she said,"This is the girl from the rowdy baby song
right?"
“Yes,during my wedding please don’t
asked her to dance okay,”I teased.
When everything seems dim ,such
imaginary imagination made me smile, that’s all.
Have you ever wondered how some
one would felt when they’re undergoing such fake news and everyone is excited
about it.It’s a single person against a vast group.Even the strongest might felt the pain.
When I was in Bangladesh,I used
to roamed around the hospital after classes.I don’t talk with anyone,I just
walk from one end to another .While walking I used to observe the people around
me.Unlike Malaysia,the entire hospital will be crowded with people.I noticed
something.I don’t want to talk about the man,because it’s a different topic
entirely.I used to came across girls,woman that took care of their
father,husband,brother ,son by sleeping at the corridor.The toilets are
terrible but they are the one that took care of everything by staying
there.It's a horrible place to stay. trust me.
When kids being naughty ,I have seen the fathers screamed with their deepest voice
but a mother,even when the kids are disable, troublesome, they just cared them with so
much of love.It's a beautiful sight and only a female could provide such warmness.That is why you need them and that is why you need to respect a real woman..Otherwise man would wipe out the entire woman population.Thank God we can't produce babies.
There are some girls who are
super fucked up,I agree,screw them.Same like the existence of some asshole males out there among us.,but there I sensed the other side of that group,the most
amazing trait of a woman.Like the saying there’s a her in every hero,don’t
treat everyone as the same with fake news."
