The Same Tribe Always Cheat You Alike

How To Negotiate and Buy Something For  A Cheaper Rate

The Same Tribe Always Cheat You Alike

I don't follow the regular pattern -

the alarm goes off, hit the snooze button,lay there for few minutes between the land of wake and sleep known as the hypnopompic state.I got up only when I had enough sleep but doesn't matter how long I sleep, most of the time,I felt groggy and disoriented ,thanks to sleep inertia.I wondered why I felt like I'm attending a series of never ending lectures while I'm sleeping.Everything that I studied the night before got synergized and came out as a single sentence in my dreams.When people asked me which book I referred ,I can't give a definite answer because it's a combination of few sources,linked together ,tanx to my vivid dreams.

I switched off my phone 30 minute before I went to bed.That's really helped to initiate a good sleep when melatonin pills(Fillfresh 2mg) and apple cider vinegar failed to do what they supposed to do.The moment I woke up,I switched on my phone and asked Google two thing.Yes,I don't check it by seeing,I asked.You don't have to own a fucking iphone.Even Google could do what Siri been doing dear Android users.

"what is the time now?"

"what is the temperature today?'

I can simply see it myself but Iron man and Jarvis really messed up my system.After all,starting my day like Tony Stark made my day most of the time.

The most important thing ,never get carried away with notification.The dopamine that you going to get from seeing them is purely illusion so I never start my day getting excited with likes and comments.It's purely a disastrous way to start you day but I won't blame it fully.There are so many people out there that kept posting a picture of them,especially with inappropriate clothes which is purely unnecessary unless you're doing it for a purpose like modelling.I know I know.I'm posting half naked  picture most of the time but come on,I'm a boy and I have a purpose for doing it.You might feel good about it but girls never know or might know but choose to ignore the fact that boys or perverts out there liking their inappropriate pictures for their own pervertedness.(you know what I mean).During my last holidays,I went out with a group of people.There was a boy,assume it boy A who constantly checking his Facebook and Instagram ,spent majority of the time talking about girls,their body and bla bla bla..I realized he lost his interest whenever  I talk about something useful with others.He was fucking turn off for me at that moment.There was another boy named Dorai.He seems  like a nice guy and he said something that still in my head to this moment."You seeing  girl's picture and imagining bad about them is almost the same like seeing someone taking shower in a secretly pervert way".

Your kids will never be happy or get  inspired to see such pictures of their parents in the future.Don't be a social fool and get into unnecessary problems.The dopamine that being released when you received a like or comment will never do good in long run.Don't believe me?Post a simple picture of quote and you will see the engagement that you been receiving for your inappropriate picture with 2,134 likes will ended up with  only 178 likes.This never apply for the nice girls with private profiles,having small circle of friends.This is for those who had a big circle of  14k ,40k,75k followers,creating no content,just uploading 2, 3 pictures per day with a caption 'she is wild as fire ,she is the queen,brown girl can wear shit bla bla bla'.Your intention clearly visible even from 3 miles away.. Men are pervert in one or another way girls..Indirectly,you teaching your kids to be another idiot like you. Hate me for being real but this thing is super useful for certain group of people.You don't get it?Those who went through PTSD or  acid attacked victims;this will be a life saving method to give them the drive to start another day like the normal people out there each morning.(If you're one of them and you felt trapped ,feel free to dm me.I can't help you in term of money but I can teach you how to be powerful and earn a good living by creating a market or help you monetizing your product or service into a valuable asset.I can get you connected with people that will really help you.I don't want to over sell but at least I would try).

I will take my own sweet time before I use my gadgets,mostly after I performed a mindful activities.

Soon,I'm going to chase every gays in my friend list.You can even forgive gays but those heterosexualist ,such guys are the most pervert breathing creatures on Earth.To my surprise,I encountered many of them recently.I wondered how they actually camouflaged among the rest all this while.It's their personal but the way each dm me is so fucking annoying..If  they tried the same in person,I can guarantee that they will ended up in hospital for the next 3 month with a broken jaw.I promise. They really have some sort of mental illness that we can't see with naked eyes.Just because I wish to treat human in a good way,they misuse the kindness.-P/s:  I'm freaking super straight!Motherf*ckers!

These guys aren't bisexual by the way.Those are some of the nicest people that I got to know in recent time.

The groggy day became super alert the moment I saw her name.For a moment,I thought she actually replied my story.I laughed over my overly  ambitious's hope and the day started.

If you can see it in your head,If you have the courage enough to speak about it,it will definitely 

happen.Blink*

Well ,I don't want to hide anything.See yourself,judge yourself.I wondered why we Malaysian always failed when someone examined us in person.Simple,I'm stupid enough,right?.Thanks Bangladesh.You don't know what you going to produce.Wait and see.This picture will be a history 5 years from now.Trust me.

I came back,felt fucked up saw the result.One thing I realized,the coffee on the right made me felt anxious and terrible when I took 4 of them cumulatively .The one in left doesn't give such feeling even when I took 5 at a go..I tried this for 3 days with all  different brands,with the same fasting condition and they appeared the same.The heart started to beats faster with more rapid breathing at the end of 4th packet.So,if you feeling the same during your day,cut your fucking caffeine. 

Price of Milo :Rm18(look at the size) 😥

The house looked terrible because I didn't pay much attention  past a month after the result came out.So I decided to clean them.First ,I need to get a broomstick because I broke the old one into 2 part in anger trying to kill a fucking cockroach on the result day.

50taka only.

Before 

After

Bachelor's life's misery. 

I guess my housemate equally been damaged by the result.That was a terrible way to see your rice cooker.

Bangladesh's "KTM"

Longest code ever.

That's how we pay the electricity bill here.Top up system.Make a mistake while keying in,your cortisol level increases 200 fold.

Had to keep the business on track as well even when I don't feel like doing much.

Ya,watch me.

While being lazy and felt fucked up cleaning ,Nikhil's like was a boost.By the way,this isn't dopamine.It's more into serotonin cascade.She only liked my comment tho not the rest,so it's not dopamine but serotonin.

Took a shower and went out again.This time,

I wanted to buy  fruits.When I first went and tried to buy it ,there was a boy.I bought it for 40tk each.I went to different shop,finished my shopping and I felt I wanted to get more Pomelo because my housemate will eat it as well.This time,the small boy wasn't there but a different guy was there.Much older ,talking with a man,seems like his friend.The moment I asked how much,he said 60tk.Just a moment,it was 40tk.I didn't say much but walked towards other shops.He kept screaming calling me asking how much I'm willing to give but I don't feel like entertaining  a cheap asshole.At the next shop,there was a small boy ,in his 10 or 12,trying to sell it for 70 tk.I asked him to give for at least 50tk and if he willing to give it for 50tk each ,I ensured him that I would buy 3.He refused.Another local customer came,the boy said the same price.The local customer got pissed off,cursed that little boy for selling that small sized Pamelo pricey and went away.I tried to get into his head,I told him if you don't sell it now ,it will get spoiled tomorrow because the fruit  already looked bad,almost going to spoil.Still he refused.(Today I just went back to see how he reacts.When I went, he tried to sell it to me for 40tk,I smiled and  walked off.No one ever buy his 6 Pomelos since yesterday and all went wasted.Karma is a bitch I guess).

The problem with people who trying to sell anything is,they try to negotiate in away that I see it as a prey and hunter mentality.It's unlike the victim and warrior mindset that I used for   daily life .When it's selling and buying involving negotiation ,everyone does the same,they try to turn you into a prey or trying not to get hunted.Thief is the extreme version of hunter but it only emerged if you being so naive.Most of the time,we human won't be that stupid unless a beautiful girl try to sell us something.

Days back,a volunteer from an organization stopped me asking for a donation.She looked gorgeous honestly but I only took 10taka from my wallet and tried to put into the donation box.

"You're a foreigner and you only giving 10tk?"she asked.

"At least if not 1000taka,a 100tk will do right?"she continued.I knew she saw the 1000tk notes in my wallet because I just came out withdrew money from the bank .

Beauty might turn men  blind but not me girl,"What will you do if I donate you extra?"I asked.

Before she tried to utter her reply,I continued,"Two thing will happen.Either you will use it to fulfill the vision ,come and ask me again or you going to waste my money if  your mission doesn't work out or  if it doesn't reach the right people",I explained with a fucked up face.

She turned to her friend,another activist ,said something to her ear,swearing me maybe.?

This hunter and prey mindset  tend to work some extend in such activities as well.I knew the founder of It's Humanity Foundation from Dhaka.That guy doesn't simply went to street and ask money,he turned the ladies with skills into something more meaningful.He taught the poor ladies to use the skills to create product from trash,sell them online,share the profit with them,giving education for under privilege kids and much more.If he can do it in such a noble way,what's wrong with the rest?

You might came a cross this notice in supermarket,'limited  -only 4 piece person'.When they remove it,people only buy 1 or 2 of the same  product but when they put such statement once a while for certain product,human brings their family member,asked their kid to grab 4 and the will buy 4  themselves and paying at different counters.You might witnessed it before.Such urgency only increases sales.We have seen it at KTM,TBS etc  with people screaming ,"last 2 seats left!"..Such pseudo- urgency creates a sensation that you have to buy it before other get them.

So when someone tries to negotiate with you,the easy way not to become their prey at the same time increase your chances of getting it is by not going far away from the price limit that they set and make it clear to their mind that you isn't the best candidate for their tricks.For an example,if they said it's 100tk,you just have to let them know,"I'm sorry,I only wanted to buy it for 60tk not more",Either you will get for 70tk ,the average or 60tk the price you bid  or the worse case scenario you won't buy anything from a corrupt seller.Either way,it's more like a win-win situation but trust me,you won't go with an empty hand with this but if you set it as low as 40tk,they won't compromise.When I see some people being evil,I tried to make them give me discount without they actually realizing it.For an example,I will buy a  3 packet of 12tk coffee  along with a product which is 25tk.The total will 61tk and they will give it for 60tk.I used it for even larger amount which will make them give me 90tk or 80 tk change in return.Majority will give the discount and small percentage of people will be stingy.This won't work in hypermarket but if it's a tax free small grocery shops,it works for certain extends.Whatever it is ,I will feel the fun trying and doing the experiment because somehow I will learn how people react and behave..The 10 year old boy tried to be great by selling it for higher price for the sake of himself.Maybe he might feels good or his father might praise him or he try to use the extra money that he just cheated to his own use.The older guy might try to show off his friend this cheating skills.It's common around the world people trying their best to make more profit from a foreigner .I have seen it in Batu Ferringi ,Langkawi ,Pulau Pangkor etc where the price is much cheaper for the locals than the foreigners.What goes around comes around right?

When a single rickshaw puller set the price high,every one around him set the same price.The only way you can get a cheaper rate is by walking far from the group to a guy who never heard the conversation otherwise everybody became a tribe to cheat you  alike.Unlike Malaysia,people here have shops of the same type around the same area..If one shop selling clothes,every shop in the row sell the same shit.If one selling cement,the whole area sells cement but in Malaysia,they usually  don't do it.They move far away from the same type of shop to avoid competition and increase their profit.

During negotiation,lot of variables came in place.Their mood,their gender ,your gender,if you're a girl,if you can speak their language and even if you're a girl,the odd of outcome varies for girl that looks dark and for the girl that looks fair.People might  object this,but that's the truth that I kept seeing for years.The easy way to break the pattern not entering their prey method is by giving a clear statement of objection in a subtle way using alteration of tones,ways you express it.Most of the time the persuasion works for me.

Before I end this post,I should remind my self of this day,4th Dec.I wonder if next year thing would be same,but this is consider a special day because it's Priyanka's birthday.She is an unique girl I encountered in recent time.When someone entered in my radar,I always evaluate them to certain extend because I don't trust anyone especially girls.No one can screw a boy's life stronger than a girl.Majority of them got into the entertainment category,ambivalent or toxic people but this girl was completely different.I kept testing her but she remains the same.She is one of the nicest friend I have ever seen in recent time.I don't think she will see this for now,but Priyanka,if you're reading this in the future,thanks alot for being my Telugu teacher and many more happy returns of the day girl.Stay safe and stay blessed forever.

I don't forget anything unless I decided to.

Little time left

To think clearly about the future,we need to clean up the language that we use in labeling the beliefs we had in the past.

Heal Your Physique with Little Effort

Lose Weight with Little Exercise

I'm going to post today might be useful for many people out there especially if you're working,studying or doing anything with notion that you don't have enough time to workout.Some might have the desire to lose weight and you might be sweating your ass off but you can't see an obvious progress.In case you have been doing everything in a correct way but in a wrong environment,to be more precise,in a stressful working,studying or living environment,I will explain the reason why and how you can actually overcome it in my future post.Definitely this whole post isn't about reps and sets like how others been sharing.There are many good pages out there sharing  such info,so I would like to emphasize more about how to initiate and sustaining the whole journey than the process itself..After all,there's no fun doing and sharing the same shit that everyone been doing out there.It's completely free and dear girls,this is more specifically  for you.Putting on weight with aging and post marriage?Let me help you.Let me explain the most common secret that you actually can manifest for a better progress which you have never been notice before.This is for those who don't actually have enough time to workout.This post might be long before it actually reach the point,so you can read the full information (link in bio)..Before I came across all this legitimate evidence for my mind,I had noticed this effect through my friends.

There was a group of researcher in Italy,Dr Fabrizio Benedetti and his colleagues doing studies on patients undergoing thoracic surgery.Cutting open your chest cavity ,reaching your heart and lungs is an invasive procedure which will be carried out with full course anaesthesia because it's super painful. Within an hour post surgery,the pain killer effect fades away and the pain will haunt the patients.So Dr Benedetti divided this patients into 2 groups.Both group received morphine sulphate for the pain but the difference was,one group received the medicine by a doctor.The doctor injected the medicine to the patient and another group was administrated by an auto self regulating pump.I will try to convey it in more easy understandable language and if you're one of those people that achieved greater 'wisdom' and seek an explanation for every single thing,google is your friend.


The group that received the medicine by doctors reported significant reduction of pain and those who received using auto pump self administrating morphine didn't seems to experience the same benefit.

Dr Benedetti was curious and wondered why..Whether the patient aware of it or not,the medicine,once injected into our system,it suppose to do its job,right?

So,he tested the same method with anxiety ,Parkinson,hypertension n etc and the result seems consistent.When the patient aware of it,the treatment is highly effective.When they don't, it's blunted.In some cases,it's not even effective.. Maybe that's why there was a saying ,'doctor nor medicine never heals you,it's your belief that does it'.


This frame of mindset,the lens we interpret the expectation to heal is more related to placebo effect.I have seen my friend A that became super sleepy within 20 minute taking midazolam.(but what I gave him was just a B complex but this effect doesn't work for my friend B that never tried dormicom 7.5mg  prior in his life.Friend A that continuously took it in the past got the same effect when I gave him a B complex tablet,the same size of a midazolam tablet but different color with a disclaimer  that's its a different brand. ) Midazolam is a sleeping pill and dormicom is the brand.


What's the connection of this to exercise?
Exercise is sort of a placebo effect that working in conjunction to this law.If you're not aware of it,it will never give the benefit fully.

You might be asking,"I had done everything correctly,diet,rest and workout yet it's not working"?
As I said in the beginning,this isn't the problem of yours.Your belief system might be working properly,but your hormone (cortisol) isn't working in favour (if you aren't on steroid).That's a whole vast topic that I will cover next time in medical context for better understanding and practical application.

To justify the placebo and exercise (since some human mind  simply never satisfied and continuously seek evidence and gain nothing , over analyze = paralyze),this explanation is for you .

84 hotel house keepers from 7 different hotels  in U.S have been studied.From the studies,the researchers learnt that 2/3 of them never do a single workout past these years.
   So the researcher wondered what would happen if they change the mindset of the workers.
This might the case of you as well(Yes ,I'm telling you).

Most of the activities that they workers had been doing satisfied the Surgeon General Requirement list,for an example :
*Changing linens for 15 minute ~ burns 40 calories
*Vacuuming 15 minutes ~burn 50 calories
*Cleaning bathroom 15 minutes ~burns 60 calories
*When you doing nothing,just breathing,reading,thinking about your boyfriend,for a 130 lbs person,you literally  burns roughly about 50 calories in 30 minutes.(values might varies but please keep in mind that there might be  several views but the fact remains the same,you do burn calories even when you doing nothing.Imagine when you actually walk at your work place,reading something,refilling petrol to you car n etc)
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So when the workers been informed about this ,they came back 4 weeks later.(None of them actually do any extra activities like joining  a gym or went for jog etc,if I should say it in SRK's style,everything remains same to same.Just their mindset and awareness was different.)
4 weeks later,their weight dropped ,systolic blood pressure went down,their behavior changed,they literally liked their jobs more.(My friend and I used the same strategy,we turned house chore n etc into cardio -it's just that his willpower isn't strong enough so he went back into the same shape,wasted his money and time for nothing,changed my whole perspective towards him )

The researcher needs more concrete evidence so they conduct another studies.They set up a booth,offered a sensi milkshake(140 calories ,no sugar and 0 fat).Anyone who drink it and let their blood sample to be taken  to measure their ghlerin will be paid 75 dollar.
*Ghrelin is  the "hunger hormone" produce by gut when there's no food in your gastrointestinal tract

Another group was given a rich milkshake (620calories,30g fat,62g sugar) and their ghrelin was measured as well.


Both the result was compared.The group that drank the sensi milkshake,their  ghrelin level was ,for an easy understanding,assume within the scale of 1 to 10,was at 7,means their hunger hormone is still high which means they aren't full .So they going to eat more  anytime sooner because of hunger.The ghrelin level of the group that drank the rich milkshake,was at 2 and they literally felt full with higher leptin in their blood,the opposite hormone of ghrelin.

                             but you know what?

(Both the group was given a milkshake of same value with different looks- with 320 calories,10g fat and 30g sugar).
This simple concept can be used to boost your restaurant or food business's profit because the brain is that stupid .Will explain the method for profitable business in future post).

If you can see the difference,the mindset and the body works in an alignment that you can easily manipulate them to your favour in any condition.
We can  alter the  physiology nor psychology for the benefit of one and another.
It doesn't means that you can simply eat oily mutton curry everyday and expect the changes.As I said,both system related to each other like how conscious and subconscious minds works.If concept of one seems far away from the threshold of logical sense,it gets neutralized and will never work.For an example,if you drink alcohol as fuck and ended up at nasi kandar thrice  weekly and telling your mind that you will walk longer at work next day,it's definitely more like fooling yourself since your input doesn't match your output at all.So this will never apply for lazy ass out there.You might wondering how does this concept apply to conscious and subconscious right?For an example,if you have a disease and you trying to initiate your subconscious to heal you;it will never work if you keep telling your mind(conscious )that ' my cancer should go away or I should be cancer free in 3 weeks.If you look deeper, without realizing ,you been telling your conscious mind that you had cancer and you expecting it to go away which  won't because you neutralizing it.This whole concept  will definitely help for those who struggle with daily life yet trying their best to be fit and healthy with limited amount of money,source or time  and ended up sick because of the imbalance between mind,body and circumstances. .There are ways to do it in much sensible way that I would share more in the future,but what you can do for now is,even you don't have enough time to actually hit a gym,you can simply turn all your movement into some benefits by changing the way you believe and see things.

making friend with winter.

this blog is my icloud .

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Taj Taste of India ,Penang

When nothing works,when no one really willing to make a difference,the old unnecessary skills that I acquired during inappropriate time during exams helped at last.The network and people that I tot useless helped.The hours I spent learning non cognitive knowledge and skills helped.Learning how to use premiere pro,how to handle a dslr  helped.Hours of learning blogging, coding using html and writing helped.The last minute collateral benefit inducing strategy that I learnt helped me to make it to the next step.My first b grade advertisement that I made for free as an exchange  helped me with the next step.Mayb what ever happened n came across us eventho it makes no sense at that time has a purpose in the future.

I learnt it today. 

Siblings

When we were young,having siblings is weird because like one minute you want to strangle them and then later you're singing dramatic duets together.It took me years to realize that you dont choose your family.They are God's gift  to you as you are to them.Like branches on a tree,we all grow in different direction with time yet our roots remain as one.I knw the video and my wishes didnt sync yet many more happy returns of the day. May all your dreams and wishes come true and hope your special day brings you all that your heart desires. 'Both' of you,please stay safe and blessed..See you soon.

In Your World,That's a 'S',but in My World That's HOPE

In your world,that's a 'S',but in my world that's HOPE.

Cib@i A :Bro,you should cut your hair!

Me:Why ?

Cib@i A:You look like a monkey.

Me:Tanx god.I was expecting something else.At least I'm less human.

                               

Day: 2

Certain wounds needs healing.

Certain wound doesn't have to heal.You make them your strength by perseverance.

                             
Day :Don't know



 Cib@i B :You going to be a doctor.If you inflict such scars and calluses,what the patient will think of you?
Me: Superman.
Cib@i B: It's ugly bro.
Me:You go to a cinema to watch a movie and someone disturb your family and when you cant't protect them with your bare hand,hiding your face like a pus**,that's ugly you motherf*cker.Not scars and callus.(Fortunately it's mind voice). HAHA,Okay bro.
Cib@i B:Don't laugh,be serious about it.
Me:To be the most influential person,30 under 30,I need to train my mind,physique and skills together.Lack of any one of them will be a bad combo bro.
Cib@i B:30 under 30?What's that?
Me:Know it first,then let's talk about scars.

My playground for a month.

Noman:Yesterday I saw you at Gec..I showed you to a guy and asked him if he knows you.

Me:I see.What he said bro?

Noman:He said he knew.He told me that you used  to train at Alvira's gym and you had some issue there because of a girl from National University and they banned you from there.Is it true?

Me:HAHA.Wow,I wish that was true.At least life would be colorful.Who is that girl?I'm curious.

Me:Even my father hates me for no reason,a Bangladeshi hated me and created creative rumours doesn't surprise me . Give me more.

Despite sore and painful  knuckles from daily training,I add few more round  everyday using  the help of gravity.It's nothing compare to the circumstances.

                                         

Cold water therapy might have lots of benefits but the only reason I added them to my T.O.T's list was because it build my willpower muscle.Will cover complete details about it in the future but don't try it at home especially during winter.It's torturous;unfortunately for normal human being,not for me.You can't be ME.Ya,you heard it right.

Life was fine and progressing till 2014;then depression paid a visit.

                                          

and I messed up.No,fucked up perhaps.

28/7/2015

The piggy side of the past.

and if it's 2038  and you're my kid,let me remind you that things can go from good to worse and eventually it might turn to worst but remember,nothing is impossible,nothing is the end until you never give up mentally .I will be the best father you could have but I will never catch the fish and give you.I will teach you fishing and you go out there and figure out your way.If I tell  you how to do and what to do,you will be another puppet like people around you.It's a friendly reminder but don't worry,I will always be your pillar unlike what I faced in my life.

Even though I don't have the best privilege,finding nor giving excuses for the lack wasn't my way.

I make use of everything around me doesn't matter how sickening it taste or sounds.

My favorite among the trash:Jaal moori. 

 My saviour during days of extreme hunger.

The only real supplement (creatine) that I had and been using up to today in 2017 despite it's expired..

Constantly have to monitor my eyes for jaundice and leg if there's any edema every morning.Even when I went back Malaysia,I used to look for an expired new protein  powder from Eji Nutrition (since the owner Tan is sort of a friend of mine who still remember my name even after years) because I can buy a RM210 protein for only Rm90 because of the passed expiry date and use the remaining cash to fund  my business plans.Almost all the  plans  failed yet giving up isn't an option.The lessons worth the losses.

Almost all the spices and cooking material I used will be expired yet my cells survived .That is why I acclaimed that I'm less human than the rest,perhaps Son of God.

The cheapest and most sickening food in my menu .Always gave a sense of nausea post meal.

Yet,its far better than eating a chicken curry from nearby shop where you can see a small cockroach floating among the gravy.Initially I used to make lots of dramas and thew the whole meal  into dustbin but with time,I'm trained to put the portion of  cockroach or small bug a side and continued eating  the remaining meal.Having a meal seems a blessing when  I saw  people at the road side has nothing to eat..That's leaded  me here and today I can eat anywhere,anything even if  the rice had been cooked from high level arsenic water source; as long as my brain registered it as edible.

The cheapest breakfast -only Rm.1.50

Price comparison

Malaysia: Chicken breast 2 kg  rm23

Bangladesh :Chicken breast 1kg rm27

Malaysia:Egg grade c 1 dozen :rm3.60

Bangladesh:Egg grade c 1 dozen rm 4.80

Malaysia :Oats 1.5kg rm12.90

Bangladesh :1kg Rm 27

Malaysia:Protein powder 4lbs -Rm160

Bangladesh::Protein powder 4lbs -RM 340

and the list goes on...I had to get everything at a doubled price here.(soon roadside grass will be the wise choice)

My gym which  transformed my whole body(90kg to 65kg today) for past 2 years.No cardio,no machine,only weights and tremendous amount of willpower. 

this punching bag was my therapy for past one month and it's come to an end today.

If you use this treadmill,it's monthly rm95 .If only gym(the weights) then its rm75

Mount Agung's Volcano,Interstellar Asteroid and Human Puppetee

Humans are puppets of emotion.

   "Did you saw the news about Bali's Mount Agung about to erupt?"
   "Yes,I saw it.Terrific ",I declared.
It was a cold winter night .To compound the discomfort,I was just wearing a sleeveless singlet and jeans and both of us were holding our chill Houston can,a carbonated beverage.

   "The sky looks beautiful today,"Tom said while pointing his right index finger towards the dark sky."We're sitting still here on top of 12th floor building and something out there, 124 million miles away travelling so fast coming towards our path."
     "Isn't that astonishing ?"Tom exclaimed.

  "Felt the same",I reiterated surprised at that apparent irrelevancy .He was talking about the first observed interstellar object "Oumuamua'  a weird giant cigar shape asteroid  unlike other asteroid nor comet with such shape  that will pass by Earth in January 2019.

We both lapsed into silence ,thinking about the complexities of the universe and nature around us.Tom sat hunched up,knees clasped closed to the chest while stared out to the sky.I sensed he was thinking deeply while I picked up few small cement made pebbles from the left over construction and one by one threw them down from the rooftop of the  building.

   "Don't kill anyone down there on the street",Tom sputtered while sipping his drink.
  "I don't have too,"I replied, "eventually mankind will kill each other themselves.They don't need my help."
Tom smiled and hesitantly added,"in the name of religion and politics perhaps."

Encouraged to proceed,he said ,"500 years ago,humans live miles away from each other."Then religion came strongly into our context ,glued us far a part to live happily  together and now,"he sighed.

  "We killing each other using the same ideology ,"I mused a loud.
  "Tom,"I said tapping his left shoulder slowly."I forget to tell you something.I failed my exam."He looked at me with a startled expression.
    "I'm sorry man,"he slurred.
     "Why?"I asked.
     "Things will be good next time,"he added looking at me.

  "Don't kid me ,Tom",I countered,"treat a patient in hospital as ill or treating a setback as a failure is the common demonic little thing that society do to us most of the time."
"Don't give the same shit to me."

He hung his head a moment, became subdued and turned back to me.
"That's wise man,"he replied.

I re -replied,"Tom,put your ear up by my mouth.I want to say something for your ears only."
The sugar rush from Houston flushed in his cheeks blushed to pink.

  "There is something you get by winning."
    "There is something you get while losing."
"If you know how to extract the lessons from it,there isn't any setback in failing ,"I added.

   "And Tom,a secret jush between us fellas."
"3 weeks ago,when the result was out,I messaged few selected people to inform about this."
Tom was listening quietly.

"It felt like being at the edge.I might never get it back again so I make use of it to see how people around me that initially claimed had prayed for me reacts when it turned out the other way around."

      "What did you learned?"Tom paid more attention this time.His body turned towards me curiously.

   "I learnt that none of them really matters.Be it friends,be it relatives,be it people I loved,they can't give me the word that my mind seek."

    "I realized I am my greatest teacher at the time of misery and their opinion doesn't really matter."
I theorized the humans around me in few categories."

    "People who are your strength,to whom you can lean during hardtime."
    "The next is the entertainers or sugar candies ."
  "Sugar candy?"Tom asked frowning his eyebrows.
"Yes.Sugar candy is delicious at the moment but it bring no real values except pleasure for time being.The more you dwell on them longer,you will eventually spoil your teeth,"I explained.

"That's interesting.That's all?"questioned Tom.
  "There are two more .The toxic people and the ambivalenter."

"Wait!"Tom interrupted.
"I can guess what toxic people meant but what is that word ambivalenter?"asked Tom.

I smiled and continued,"ambivalenter are people that you aren't sure if they really good or bad.They almost like toxic people but in term of toxic people,you know their bad intention from far but ambivalent people are those who you can't distinguish if they're good or bad even when they sit close next to your face.There are deadly people to have around.They will get into your head in a subtle way and will mess up your life.""There are many of them in this era."

"Tom laughed out loud."That's interesting man.Tell me more about it.How do you know ,perhaps identify such people?"
They seems like wearing a mask aren't they ?"

"You're correct Tom,"I sighed."Easy,whenever you feel or doubt if someone is really happy for you or they just pretending to be,if such thought arise in your mind,just clarify them into such categories."

"Doesn't it sounds more like judging someone?"Tom curious to know more.

"It's different Tom.You usually will have an impression about someone during the first few minute of your talk with a person.That's more like an intuition and people who lack of wisdom might said it's judgmental and there's nothing wrong with it."
"The more accurate way you can use to evaluate someone without judging them is,you first analyze their act and intention ,take a day and re evaluate it."
"Body language can't fake you.Maybe someone's face can fake it but look at more less conscious voluntary parts like fingers.The best would be their feet.Human mind pay less attention to leg without realizing it because fakers use most of the energy to mask the facial muscles and upper body part,"I explained.

I continued,"there was an experiment Tom.In that experiment,researcher take the sample of sweat of two group of people during their fearful state."Just assume one from bungee jumping,more fearful stuff and another one is less intense activity.When they tested it to a group of people in lab asking them to smell both of the sample while their brain activity is being recorded with eeg cap and fMRI,the the sweat of bungee jumper  gave a different reaction in the brain..Although both were just sweats,the bungee jumper's sweat activate different areas in our brain resembling the same area that get activated when we frightened more intensely.People assume it's their gut feeling but the brain knows subconsciously about someone's evil motivate and this is the reason why you feels weird about certain people .I can give you more example but I guess this would be enough to make you understand the concept.. ."

"I got it Lakdhes",Tom reassured.
" Do the participant knows about it?"
 "That they actually smelling someone's armpit's sweat?"Tom made a joke and laughed himself.

"No idea Tom."
"But you know what,despite all this,there was this few people especially these girl,they don't even know me in person."
"We just sort of social media friends that barely know each other but they buzzed  me from no where asking me how am I doing because I'm missing in action."

"That's sweettttt!"
"Do they look pretty?"Tom asked with a silly reaction and curiosity.
I just smiled and  narrated this interesting incident ,"and there was this bunch of people that when I posted a quote of Harun Yahya on my story that sounds like this,"

 'I wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere else on Earth,then I asked myself the same question' - some tried to answer it in a smart way explaining it why.They turned into a pundit for no reason without knowing that it's a quote."
"It made me clear that there are many that see and listen just to say something.Or maybe some tried to initiate a conversation with me.What do you think Tom?".

"It could be either they love you or they hate you,it should be one of the reason",said Tom."and the bird stayed at the same place maybe because it's a fucking dumb animal."Tom too answered the quote.

He continued,"there was a time when I was at Ghana for a charity purpose."
"I remember the first day I got there,this little girl came running over with this plastic cup."
"She got eggs in the cup and she said something that I don"t understand looking at me expectantly with this cup and I was like,why is she giving me the eggs?The host mother explained me that eggs are very precious commodity there.The chicken often don't lay many eggs because they don't have enough nutrition.She explained that the small girl is giving me the most valuable thing that the family has to welcomes me."

Tom continued,"I always wonder people that poor externally are much richer inside than those who have enough to share with others yet they aren't satisfied enough to keep people around them happy."


"Human are puppet of emotion Tom."
"The emotional tail wags the rational dog.Many are guided by emotion rather than by reason.I just want to be the least fucked up version of that,"I explained.
"I knew what happened during the whole so called exam.I don't feel like finding excuses or pin point anything.That will make me work less than I should to overcome discrimination and biases.But..."
I stopped a moment ,inhaled deeply tried to hide the rage in me.

    "That 'but' stopped Tom's humour.His eyes rested on the dark sky above us.
"I can feel the pain in you",Tom uttered.
      "If they take the pain away ,I will lose the strength Tom.Let it be there.I prefer to live by design then to live by default,"I reassured him.
"You are super wise man,"Tom said while tapping my right shoulder gently.

I leaned back while holding the can that no more chill in my left hand,sighed and said,"no Tom,,"I'm not wise,I'm just conscious of my subconscious.If I let it to drive me,soon I will label the whole thing as fate like others."
"I'm authentically going to steal the ideas from the greatest and going to fix the unfixed,"I ended it with eyes full of rage.
That's the way man,"Tom tried to make me feel better and he continued ,"What's next?"
I lifted the can towards his,"CHEERS TOM"...

5 years from now,whenever I see this picture,it will reminds me what happened on that day ,everyone and everything related to that story.

Result Turned Me Immortal

It was always a fear not knowing an answer.It took years before I realized you may not know all the answers but you won't be asked all the questions either.
Deep inside us,there is a person who refuse to be kept deep inside.What does he/she in u really wants?Do u know it for real?No?Good..Yes?Great.Now we're a team.You knew,u hustling but nothing great happen,yet? Doesn't matter how slow it goes,you're still lapping everybody on the couch.As long as its not just motion but progress,even if life seems hanging up side down, its still gona be okay.

Hero to Zero

4AM

Today I learnt that you dont need a heroin to be a hero.

The right mind will be sufficient. 

Exam Turned me Into Superman

No one ever made me feel this way.No place ever made me do this much.I just realized I went tru thousand nine hundred pages of information past six days.I felt like a superman til someone screwed it.Somehow someone will be there to fck it.Yet,I realized,changes always happen during bad time.

Self Made Person

From the conversation with others,one thing was clear,people want it yesterday.Most people want the convenience of transformation without the inconvenience.The reason why most people wont become what they want is bcz they're too attached to who they've been.Everyone has issues.Everybdy has a hard road.Along the way, I learnt that u have to have faith in yourself and the faith is not jst hving or understnd that everytin gona be ok bt even if things dnt go the way as u wanted,its stil gona b okay n that is faith for me..Shw me a great man who's son of a great man..They never going to b a self made person with 

abundance of bck up.I tot exm was hard.Then I realized what is hard.If millions of ppl could do it in the past,it wasn't hard.If only few have done it,thats hard.Med in CMC alone shouldn't be hard bt training without a gym,jst at home without any guidance bt ur brain n maintaining the bsnss that feed ur cells cz there is air stil moving tru ur nostrils n that combo is hard.I prefer the hard way even its imperfect.Looking at one step at a time without looking at the summit is the only key to face hard times I realized.

Human Relationships is an Illusion

When i wanted to post something that i dont want many to read,excpt myself in the future,i choose the less interactive pict n time..

2050 seems future but for me its just 33 yr away.if im alive at 59,i have to witness there will b 9b human whch could go up to 12b humans on planet.Now with 7.5b humans,job bcm uncertain,n crime rate; undebatable.Imagine urself as a parents,grandparents witnessing the struggle of ur offsprings.Nowdys uploadin pict wit ur face tend to jeopardize ur image.Yenda ipidi..? 👏👏

Thats when I realized,human relationships is an illusion at times.

Lemuria

It feels good to have friends from diff countries til someone be fanatic about religions.This era of civilization starts from 3102 bc.First pyramid was build for 19 years frm 2630 to 2611 BC and the height of the ppl was almost like us today frm 165 to 175cm.They wasnt super humans with larger arms.The details about hypothetical "lost land" that connect Madagascar and Australia was in the stories dated 302 BC n was first wrtten in the books in 1350 to 1420.The
concept of Lemuria has been rendered obsolete by modern theories of plate tectonics unlike Zealandia and Mauritia.Science will be correct til someone prove it wrong like in 2006 that Pluto is a dwarf planet in Kuiper Belt.My ancestor knws this shit thousands years back without even a telescope.Yet when someone asked me to believe who comes first n from where they came and to where they migrated and how they did that,I realized human could change the whole story accrdin to how they want it.Mayb its not about who comes first but who could sustain it.If we cant sustain our first place,everyone around us will try their best to take our place with their build up stories.When we know our ground well its not easy to shake our base.Maybe all we need is to know it better.

Price of an Egg

I asked the price of 1 dozen of eggs.He said 110taka.Just 24 hr back, it was 90 taka.I asked him,if they keep increasing the price,how the poor will eat?He replied with a sinister smile,"if they are poor,then dont eat it".Maybe having a small grocery shop made him felt superior and rich but the fact is,he too is an average person.I realized when someone is somehow a step above someone ,they see themselves as  greater  than the rest and they dont give a fuck about others.That doesn't  just stop  with money,its including everything else.Medical dr felt they r superior than dental dr til their tooth need fixation.Final year student felt greater than 2nd year n those who studying in gov clge felt superior than those who studying aboard.Mo feels like they r god when they see ho.Everyone needs such feeling of greatness but it doesnt need to be there all the time with everyone.When its our time,either they gona burn us or bury us.Even if u have a RM10k pacemaker inside ur chest,no body gona give a fuck abt it but burn u with everything including  that expensive shit in ur body.Wonder why that much of unnecessary dramas then.Treat human as human cz once ur body cant cooperate to ur dramas,all u seek is real love from people around u.

Humans are a curious species

Humans are a curious species.We wonder,we seek answers.Living in this vast world that is by turns kind and cruel,and gazing at the immense heavens above,people have always asked a multitude of questions.Some are silly and some are relevant.I wished these questions came much earlier with greater intensity that might placed me somewhere else..why is there something rather than nothing?Why do we exist?I always wonder why if our solar system moving at an average velocity of 828,000 km/hr yet we are standing still?Even at that high rate, it still takes us about 230 million years to make one complete orbit around the spiral Milky Way.That invisible law of gravity reminds me something almost everyday..There is a magic that we cant see but will work precisely for every one of us if we keep trying..I wish I could use that magic not just to exist,study,work,get marry,get laid,reproduce,live the whole life for the sake of breathing with a continuous struggle and eventually die..I wish to live.