Lakdhesz: January 2018

Sleep, God and Beggar :All Are The Same Shit in Different Names

Without sleep, it's hard to focus and produce a content.Doesn't matter how much I train myself for this situation,lack of sleep hampered my willpower.It's like I can't control that one thing- looking for sweet and sugary foods.

The two person that controls the willpower,the rational thinking and emotional thinking became imbalance.

Emotional mind won.

STILL, I moved my ass to burn that excess calories from that over excess sugars.

While walking back home ,I saw a beggar begging for money from a guy.That generous guy took 10 taka from his pocket and asked the beggar if he have 5 taka chance back.Maybe everyone in this world is begging for something I thought.Some for job,some for degree, some for care,some for money and the list goes on.No one is in such state that they can nor capable of giving something willingly for someone.

The beggar said may God bless you and walked forward and disappeared in the crowd.

If there's a God in the first place,If he is the ultimate power,why don't he change the mind of every human being into a neutral, loving and caring human.He could eliminate all the bad things from human.If He wants, of course He can ,right? After all he is the God.

Then I realized,If he did that,there's no fun for him right?If he is really up there some where in the first place,at least He could remove congenital illness from mankind.He too sounds selfish.At least it would reduce the burden of studying congenital problems for exam.

New case.This time I won't let them die.Starting with correcting her microbiome.

Best Diet For Cancer |Intermittent Fasting |Ketogenic Diet

Fitness | Cancer | Intermittent Fasting

The main reason why I could lift something heavy as 75kg weights with my 64kg body weight is due intermittent fasting technique.Well everybody knows what's that shit and ketogenic diet is about.Skipping fitness details ,let me share how this helps during cancer.Many out there die because they can't afford the expenses of chemo and G-CSF to fight the neutropenia induce by chemo.A simple fever could kill a chemo patient.At least this diet would help those who are unfortunate for such privileges on this sinful greedy Earth.

Extensive research reveals that cancer cells need food in the form of glucose energy every single minute of the day; if they do not have access to their food minute by minute they lose their vitality, and many of them will eventually die.

Undergoing a fasting-mimicking diet, you are able to let the body use sophisticated mechanisms able to identify the bad but not the good cells in a natural way.

One of the benefits of intermittent fasting is to normalize insulin within the body – and insulin is a powerful promoter of cancer cell growth. He also points out that fasting reduces inflammation and oxidative stress – two major contributing factors to cancer growth

Research also shows that fasting increases tumor-killing T-cells and helps strip away the protective covering from cancer cells; that enables the immune system to recognize cancer cells and target them for destruction.

Dr. Thomas Seyfried, Professor of Biology at Boston College, who has studied cancer cells extensively, has presented proof that some cancer cells can be destroyed with five to 10 day intermittent fasting when consuming a ketogenic diet

A ketogenic diet produces ketones in the body instead of glucose. Ketones are the breakdown product of fatty acids as an alternative energy source -- nutrients that normal cells can make good use of, but cancer cells are unable to use. Cancer cells can only thrive on glucose energy, whereas normal cells function fine with either glucose or ketones.

NOTE:Patients who are severely nutritionally depleted should not engage in any type of fasting unless medically supervised.

Resolution of Hitting Rock Bottom Of Life.

Well before I continue, I wanted to share something to the world.I knew many secretly following and reading this and I don't feel like hiding this because I seldom lie.Truth will make yourself earned the respect without seeking I learnt.

Today a random stranger asked me if I passed.When I first saw the comment,I was wondering if I should secretly dm him that I failed?
'Since when you started to revert back to the old you?"my mind voice asked me.
Never.
I don't just failed medical exam like the rest but this is my 8th years being here.
Before I came here,I have a perfect family and it's no more now.

I failed in my MBBS school.The teachers just dislike Malaysian and I knew many of my pals are suffering still giving 1st and 2nd prof.

The girl I loved was 3 years elder than me yet I take care of her so well but then she can't passed the exams.People here took advantage of it and changed their mind by creating new law that you have to pay 3000 usd each year til you pass.Circumstances never permits everyone to sustain and she had to stop.

Then came another twist,her parents wanted to get her married.She asked me what she should do now.?I can't help since I'm stucked here and it was a dead end.I sacrifice all the love I had on her and hide the pain in my heart.I told her to go and get marry and be happy.

I can't see it for sure.I blocked her from my life.I stopped talking to her.I hide this from everyone else because I wasn't over her yet to talk about this to anyone.The only thing that hurts me was,she didn't fight for me either.I knew it was her situation and she can't argue with her parents for me;for someone jobless like me.It's understandable.After all she is a girl and I too have sisters.I understand the situation and let her go but stood from far protecting her.

I was happy for her but I knew no one could take care of her better than me.Things went fine for her,a man wanted to marry her and things went smoothly for her,at least I thought.

Within a month they realized the guy was a conman,cheated money from girls and many others in the name of business and love lane.

She cried once again.I told her to go to UK and work there because such an opportunity came at that moment and she went taking my advice.I just wanted her to recover from everything.

Things were fine and the psycho criminal started to harassing her and wrote fake bad news about her with her picture and sending to others.I saw everything and I can't do much.My mistakes caused inevitable and unbearable pain to her.I can see the girl that once my world is suffering and I'm hopeless.

Failure after failure and at the age of 27 in 2018 I'm basically jobless and degreeless.
My studies uncertain,my love gone,my family were unhappy and everyone around me were suffering.

I went to the temple and walked slowly to my house listening to my own footsteps and I saw a crowd of people chasing a man.He was running towards me at that busy GEC road.I caught him.I was holding his hand firmly never let him go,and my reflex made me to raised my hand to punch him but I stopped.I could feel the burning sensation on my arm from the scratch he made during my attempt to stop him.I don't feel like beating him because I don't know what was his situation that put him in such a miserable situation.God is cruel I thought.

I saw that he was holding a phone closed to his chest.He was small in build, wearing a lungi and frighten faced was obvious in his appearance. The group of people that chased him punched him and kicked him the moment I let him go.I tried to stop them but then I stop my self and walk off from that place.

Why I had that empathy and sympathy in me but not others towards me and people that I care.Why?I asked God.

As usual he remained silent.I realized I hit the rock bottom of life.There's no way down further,the only way is up .I came to my sense.
What should I do now I asked myself.I cant change everything in a day.Those pain and humiliation will never ease from my mind and I knew it for sure.
Let me take control of my whole life from today.People around me should be happy and that satisfaction will give me peace.

Everyone that causes pain to another soul must be punish I felt.How could you make it happen I asked my self..How can you change this sinful world.?
To change the world ,first I have to change myself.To change myself I have to change my habits.To change my habits I must start doing things that I have never done before.I learnt greatness is the remedy of pain and greatness is a habit.Changes that remain unchanged is the key I realized.So I will master that from today.

But if she cry,I will turn the world upside down.

Price of bravery

Sinful-Earth

MALAYSIA

BANGLADESH

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Two different parts of the world,
Two different heights,
Two different views,
Two different weather,
Two different structures of buildings,
Two different kind of environment,
Two different kind of humans,
Two different type of languages,
But the same kind of hunger,
The same kind of emotions,
The same kind of pain,
With the same kind of destiny,
With the same kind of hope,
To wake up another day,
To live a better life,
But without realizing,
The time does change but the betterment doesn't,
Day changes but the evilness remains.

How Does Memory Works

Blessings and Curse of Memories.

Nature seems to have invented mechanisms

for storing memory more than once. For instance, under normal

circumstances, your memories of daily events are consolidated by hippocampus.

But during frightening or intense emotinal situations such as a car accident another area , the amygdala also lays down memories along an independent secondary memory track.Amygdala memories have a different quality to them;they are difficult to erase and

they can pop back up in "flashbulb" fashion as commonly

described by rape victims and love failures. In other words, there

is more than one way to lay down memory. It's not memory of different events, but multiple memories of the

same event;as though two journalists with different personalities were jotting down notes about a single unfolding story.

There can be a large gap between knowledge and awareness. Implicit memory is completely separable

from explicit memory.You can damage one without hurting the

other. Patient of anterograde amnesia, who cannot

consciously recall new experiences in their lives,if you spend an afternoon trying to teach them the video game Tetris, they will tell

you the next day that they have no recollection of the experience that they have never seen this video game before.Most likely

that they have no idea who you are either. But if you look at their performance on the game the next day, you'll find that they have

improved exactly as much as non amnesiacs.

Implicitly their brains have learned the game.The knowledge is simply not accessible to

their consciousness. (Interestingly, if you wake up an amnesic patient

during the night after they've played Tetris, they'll report that they

were dreaming of colorful falling blocks, but they have no idea)

That's why it's wise to read before you sleep.

#notmoviemagazinesforsure

#somethingsusefulperhaps

#foryouandforpeoplearoundyou

Warming up

Why You Failed

Late night warming up.

If you not realizing what you want,it's a problem of knowledge.

If you not pursuing what you want,it's problem of motivation.

If you not achieving what you want,it's a problem of persistence.

I knew exactly what I want.Use my pict,dm me bad stuff or do whatever you wana do but first listen to this,I build my self esteem not from the right thing.I built it from pain,suffering,heartache and rejection.Regular hospitals gives you prescription during your discharge.My prescription will ended you up in hospital for the next 3 months with broken bones and a blessing to be mummy's son once again;depending on her for everything.

#harmpeopleIknow

#bereadytopaytheprice

#12kgofriceperhand

#training

#bloodandsweat

#prepyourself

#evengodwillneverhelpsyou

#dancingwith#dumbells

#andgaysstopdmingme

#itsfckingannoying

What is Faith?

"What is faith?"

As soon as I stepped through the gym door,I heard the question and I knew something big was up in his mind.
Drawing a deep breath,he explained that the girl he loved left him over another guy.
"She traded me with another guy right,"he asked with a low tone.
"Traded?"I questioned.I knew what exactly it meant:exchange,changed,to swap,to get ride of,betrayed but I tried to redefine the word so that he will feel better.
"I just wanted to get out of that haunting memories.Lick my wounds,"said Tom.
I looked at him blankly.What emotion was he masking asking about faith,I wondered. I knew it wasn't easy for him.Almost as if in slow motion replay,he stretched out his hand to mine."
Catching my breath,I said"You know this must be God's will,Tommy."
"I don't know how to explain what is faith but from my wisdom and area of expertise, this is faith."
'A doctor with a name that you can't pronounce gives you a prescription with writings that you can't read ,yet you go to nearby pharmacy and you buy the medicines that you don't even understand nor aware of the functions ,but it heals you.That's faith.
Have it in ur soul and things will be fine once again.
It will.

Wondered why I cant feel the dopamine in my head...

Called

God🙂😒

💙

How to Increase Memory Power Through Fitness

"The winter seems paralyzing our daily routine,"said Tom while sipping his coffee."It freezes my brain."
I just wandering in my head about somethings else while parroting his phrases,'freeze ur brain?'
"Stop pretending like you listening man."
I smiled looking at his smartness.
"Did you bring the language book?"I asked.
"I forgot!"
He sighed "Is there anyway to overcome this forgetness! "
"Forgetting is what made man's life liveable Tom",I replied while looking at the GEC road floaded with water from a broken pipeline through the window."At times, it seems a nuisance and I get it.Try this."
He listened silently, "In 1962,during Safar's experiment living alone in subterranean cave without access of time ,it made him blurred, amnesic ,underwent disrupted sleep pattern .The best way you can easily train your brain neurons daily is by starting you day by knowing the date,day and time of sunset for the day.This indirectly train ur brain neurons.If you want to sharpen it more,remember the birthdays of your closed one for the month and link it every morning when you start your day.The more connection you train your brain to make,the more stronger your memory becomes. Forgetting will be a word for you in 3 weeks."
"So whats the connection of this to the video?"
"I always train after 18 hours of fasting."
"But why?
"To induce BDNF through intermittent fasting which is great for memory ".
"Can u explain more about it?"
Some other time perhaps.

Victim's Mentality

The irony of today's world is that, if you dont know how to fight back and avoid the problem,the world labels you as coward.The person that causing the misery dwell on you fear and causes more pain in you.If you know how to protect but stay calm,they see you as a person with great patience.The problem is that,it follows economic's possibility effect-when you pay attention to a threat,you worry and the decision weights reflect how much you worry.The worry never proportional to the probability of threat.Reducing or mitigating the risk isn't adequate.To eliminate the worry, probability must brought down to zero.Person that causing you misery wont feel sympathy.Psycho's mind work differently than normal human.Under fMRI,when you buy something your pain and disgust area is what being activated.Your pleasure only activated when you buy something for cheap price.When you punish someone,your pleasure area is what going to be activated.Each rapist see the victim as playing hard or they claiming they only showing affection.Their pleasure area is what being activated when another suffers.Human is the problem and solution to another human.Each person leaves their home with hope and dignity.Each girl covers themselves fully the moment they come out from bathrooms even if the male outside is their father but some motherfucker out there strips their body and soul naked.This isn't only for rape case,the same happens to discrimination and biases.Your soul,faith and hope is being ripped apart but if your body and mind is well prepared for hardtimes,no one can do harm to you.Prepare for the worse everyday.

#iwishicouldplacesuchanimalsinthatpunchingbag

#motherfckrs

Day in and Day out

Communicating with God

17 January 2018

It's show time.

Common sense is something that common people don't have

How To Help Someone
Common sense is something that common people don't have.

It happened to be a beautiful day,blue sky with few floaty cumulus clouds and golden sunshine.I sat down and soon an elderly man whom I judged to be in his fifties,flopped down in the seat beside me.I edged myself away from him and when he flung open his newspaper I was grateful that he didn't want to talk.But in the middle of the ride,he suddenly crumpled the newspaper and flung it to the floor."F*ck this useless word!"he snarled loudly.When someone does a thing like that,it's obvious he's seeking attention.
"What's wrong uncle?"I commented.The old man only glared and sullenly stared ahead.
Good,I thought to myself,I did my part.
He turned back to me,"you and others your age are far out of it,there's no enough knowledge in people your age and that's why there's no wisdom in people your age group."
I leaned forward and have a look what's on the paper and I saw the words'North Korea,Raped,Accident etc'.I understand the reason but his general statement sort of irritate me.
"So uncle,If we have so much of knowledge,do you think we would be wise full of wisdom?"I enquired.
"What a bogus question,Yes,"he answered.
"So why science which is full of knowledge drifted and causes misery for mankind?"
He turned and look at me,"You don't know the time of the day.Future going to be hard because you people dont value the time."
I took a deep breath,"Are you any different? " I pursued.
Wisdom isn't based on knowledge.It comes for people who seek it and have a good mindset..
"So what wisdom means for you?"he snapped.
"Common sense,"I replied while he stared with a pathetic look.
"What do you mean?Everybody have common sense!",he justified.
I remembered my friend Nooman's word.Common sense is something that common people don't have.
"I have lots of medical based friends who time to time post pictures with a baby or an animal,"I started to narrate while he quietly listening.
"Such people have a deep thoughts that their act is based on pure humanity."
"It is ,"he interrupted.
I smiled."Test them.Seek their time by pretending you're down.They never spend it for you."
"It's justifiable after all ,"he said and continued,"Time is precious and such people that love another human and animal knows the value and that's why they going to become successful,"he exclaimed.
"Why they could do it in hospital or with their white coat but not to real person in trouble.?"
He remained silent for awhile.
"It's not real humanity uncle.It a good fake feeling.You do the same as a job is for money.If you're that genuine,you see human the same,not just for the sake of picture or place.Such people grow older and causes pain for another being when they get into such a position.We should be imbalance to be balance but many misunderstand it.Selfishness and selflessness should be in balance.."
He was listening.
I know the value of time,should I elaborate it,if you want?"
"Well,go on,I'm curious,"he replied.
If you want to value 1 year,ask it from a student who failed a semester.
If you want to know the value of a month,ask it to a mum who give birth to a pre-mature baby.
The value of a week,seek the answer from the editor of a weekly publish magazine.
If you want to know the value of an hour,question the hourly wage worker who have 6 kids to feed back at home.
To know the value of 1 minute,ask a person who missed a flight.
To know the value of second,ask from a person who just met with an road traffic accident.
To know the value of a millisecond,interview an Olympic gold medalist.I knew the value well.

"So what you suggest could be the right way to spend your time to someone at the same time not wasting your own time".
"It's simple.Don't see it just for time,see it as a help.You can learn the lesson from the donkey and the horse story.You can help someone in any te'rm,but never help someone and take their trouble to your own.Don't put it on your own shoulder just to make them ease.That way you going to make yourself misery.Spending time for someone extremely down,listen to them and give some nice words won't do much harm.Yet there are few people that seek you only when they need help and neglect you or hurt your ego with their rude act when they're fine.Ignore them.Words might lie,action might do the same but pattern never lies.