She is indeed a very special person for me.
We usually can't connect with someone with a motherly bonding.I'm not sure about others but for me,I can't.
She's the only person that I had such feelings.
She was my pathology professor.I don't know if she treats all her students like that or she really likes me.When the teacher that taught you asked you a question,it really meant something.I don't know how to explain that feeling but it felt warm inside.
She's the only person that I seeked when I'm down with problems or in a confusion.
We used to talked for hours.She shared her point of view and she's a very good listener as well. Even my own mother wasn't like that, unfortunately.
There was a day when I went to meet her.
"Dear son,let me tell you this,"she uttered softly.
"I can see so much love in your eyes when you looked at her but I can't see any love in her eyes.She is competing with you and trust me son,she will leave you.She don't deserve you and she's not worth your effort,"she said about my ex girlfriend who was my girlfriend back then.
It hurts but the thing is,people around us could easily see it,they could predict that it's coming.Sometime even we're aware of it but we neglect to accept the fact.
I stood with tears in my eyes.
"Dear Lakdhes,at your age, I started shantani bank in Bangladesh (blood bank).What are you doing?At this age,you can win the world but you're going after a girl that not even worth it.There are so many pretty girls out there.This girl is just an average girl.You will get someone 100 times better than her.Leave her,"she said.
I still remember that one sentence.
'You could win the world at this age.'
Well people used to say that,leave her,forget her.We all said that to someone but the problem is,we have been taught how to love,how to care
but no one taught us how to undo the love.No one teach the ways to unlove someone.It took me years to learn the way.
We always gets more attracted to things that we can't have.
Even after a break up,we still miss them,we still like them infact we love them more.
Our mind ignores all the bad stuff about them and only think about the good memories.
It's not they're great.It's because we are in an egoistic state.
Don't understand?
We choosed them.It was our choice .We felt we can't be wrong.We try to fix it because it's not about them.It's about us.We don't wish to be labeled wrong.
For a moment,take a break and think deeply.You will slowly come to your sense and you could see what really happened.
Your mind will ignore the good dinner moments and recall the way they betrayed you messaging someone else while sitting beside you.They smiled,they pretend like they're giving full attention to you but the fact was,they were cheating.When there's no loyalty, there's no more love. Love towards a special person can't be shared.
You will ignore that cuddles and remember all the trouble she/he brought into your life.Your life could be easier, happier, wealthier but they brought their misery into your life that you don't even deserve in the first place.
Ignore the good sex and think about useless arguments and recall their demonic voice and act that you never even imagine that they had it in them during that early flirting period.
Forget that time based ,never lasting fake love they portrayed.Think about their selfishness and evilness for a second.
Do they worth living with?
We glorify our choices and that is why we stuck there.If we stop seeing that pseudo happiness and focus on long term contentment,we can clearly see why they're actually a terrible mistake.They are a bad choice and you will be glad that it ended.
I have seen my friend struggled with break up and ended up failing his exam.He was suffering inside and I spoke to him.His biggest concern was,the sex was good and he can't experience it back.Funny I felt.If you're an alpha personality,that wouldn't even be an issue.
Imagine if you get a better person and slowly you starts to live with them.
Every moment that you had with your ex,be it dinner,hugs,kisses ,best moments or even sex,it would be twice, thrice or even 10x better and happier than what you experienced before.Our mind is our biggest prison.If you want to let go of a person,take a break and think all the bad,to be precise the real cheap character of that person.
You will be glad it ended and move own with gratitude.
Don't try to resist them.Dont try to avoid them.Dont try not to think about them.Our brain can't take negative commands.
Lakdhes,this is my name.
Now, don't think of my name.
You can't and will ended up thinking about it because that's how our brain are wired.
So rather than avoid them, replace them.Replace good memories with bad memories that you experienced with them.
There are so many fish out there, don't ended up a piranha.
She's following me everywhere.
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Haha,just saw it today.😅
When friends from India get curious.
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