3 chicken breast :Malaysia Rm5/piece
Bangladesh Rm4.The only thing that seems better in comparison.
My special Coffee ☕
Some hair style looks ok,some looks like 9,some like a beggar,some looks like a sosma60's candidate .Basically hair is a dead stuff but it makes our face alive I realized.
Looks like modern day's dog food.
Even the cat is excited but I'm super sleepy with 3 hours of sleep everyday.
Azahar,ex Mr Penang.
Just 21 years old kiddo.
Are you willing to jack 5 types of steroids per week,3 kinds of oral steroid per day and chew 20 tab of amino per day?
-no.Then never compare yourself to anyone.ANYONE.
Hmm,when it's rains,im drained.
I dont raise my hands for any other God in that temple except this 2.I don't really know why.
When my mum asked me to follow them to the temple,I rejected it initially. When I went there, I realized why and who wanted to see me on new year.🤗
Worst menu.
You're not allowed to take pictures inside a pub/club;unless you're me 🤗
Worst place ever.Super bored.
I couldn't save her sister 3 years back but let me try with her mum this time since I'm done with the previous 2 cases.Her stage is so advanced with ulceration,but hope never fails to do miracle added with years of sophisticated knowledge.
I hate taking orders I said but the moment someone says in such a nice way,I don't know why,I don't feel like doing it anymore and wanted to go back home.
Its not what she said,it's her way of saying that made me to do it without she asking me to do so.I realized,to be better or worse,you just need a reason.Warmness that calms any soul is what makes the world rotate.After all,we just need a hope and reason to live otherwise we're walking but dead inside.When someone left us,betray or cheat us,what they gave us is death.If you're weak,no one else is there to help you,you will end you life.If you make it,it's because you fight your way out.If you make it alone,with exam,stress, problems around you, then you're a different level of human.
When my housemate's gf played with his feelings,I heard him crying in his room for many nights.I saw him slept with lights on and fan switched off even in summer.I saw him suffering with winter coldness while I'm taking cold water shower at 4am.I saw him took sleeping tablets yet only slept for 3 hours.I saw him losing his weight like a cancer patient ,20kgs in 3 months.I saw his suffering and I be there all the time to lift him up.I saw he wasted all the food that i bought for him.I saw he can't eat even if he didn't eat for 3 days.I saw he can't workout,study or being alive.At the age of 27,what a girl gave to him isn't fair I felt.I tried my best to prevent him from ending his life.I saw my self in him.I saw and I knew exactly what he went through that 4 months,something that I underwent for 4 5 years all alone even when there were many so called friends around me back then.They felt it as a nuisance and that leaded me to self destruction. When I went through it,the same person never even try to understand what I went through and said every words that breaks me more.When a friend didn't help but make it worse,teased your condition,gossip it with others claiming you're weak,argued that suicidal and love is coward,it hurts.Yet years later I saw that when they felt the same,they realised how it felt and regret with their mistakes.
That's when I realised that God put me through something terrible at much younger age than the rest.When something much worse,perhaps worst repeated at 27,I was devastated inside but no more destructive on the outside.Indeed the same 4 months that he and I went through was my best life changing moments for me because i figured out the one thing human need to survive.In order to be adaptive, self soothing is the first secret that we as humans need to master.When we master it,others human's companion is a choice, never a necessity.Thanx you God.
He is someone that everyone hated back in Chittagong but for me,he is just another human being with flaws and he is my friend.When I see someone as a friend,even if I have never seen him or her before,if they're sad,I shift my whole priority to them.If they cries and seek my help,I would turn the world upside down once.Then I changed my perspective.Only do such life changing help to someone that earned my respect.I learnt that love ,respect, care,and forgiveness should be earned.You won't get it if you ask in today's world because everyone dont deserve to be treated equally especially with today's double faced self centered community.
Noted.
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