Smiling is a Rare Blessings That Only Few Could Possessed | Lesson's From Anesthesiologist's Specialist

It will be different.

It was a beautiful morning.It was 

because the MO was such a kind person.She didn't scold,she didn't raised her voice,just a soft spoken , beautiful Chinese doctor.

I  wished everybody could be like her.
It's my first time in gynecology OT.
I had assisted laparoscopic ectopic once..Even at that time,my MO was an angel.I don't wished to reveal her full name but a part of her name was Puteri,If I'm not mistaken,it means princess in English.Only some are blessed with such a beautiful name,angelic personal and look.She's adorable as well.She never even scold when I didn't hold the camera as how she wanted..
There are so many nice Mos here.Almost everyone labelled an Mo as angel but for me,my angel was an Mo that graduated from Egypt,Dr Yana.No one ever,like ever here in this Hospital addressed me smart and intelligent. She does.I don't really know why but deep inside I knew , I'm not.Not because I'm stupid but I lost the interest with the job.

I had done many outstanding stuff when I was a student, that's what people around me said but here, I'm a zero.A loser.At times I felt that too.Again, because I don't even feel like trying.Maybe because I don't like being here.

It was a great sunny day..
Stepping into GOT for one whole day made me realized something.
The same feeling I once had when I'm going for a new competition ,during our first futsal tournament. We have to win.
That gave a sense of psychological stomach ache..I don't know if its butterfly or something else but I could feel it.When I came from Penang after holidays,I can't sleep properly that night.I woke up with the same feeling when I was having professional examination the following  week and I have to study everything in few days.You don't feel like eating,you don't wish to wake up but you have too.You're more mentally exhausted than physically.That's how it felt.

I realized,the feelings are the same but situations are different.
I smiled when I recalled them back.

I learnt something very beautiful today,from an unknown person.Maybe anesthesiology's specialist,her smile and her coolness handling a stressful situation.

That's when I realized,smile is a god's gift that not many of us could possess.
It was a good day overall.

Click here to watch this In search of life video.

Hope it will be helpful

Hmm

• That's me.

How Google Predict Our Happiness

"Why did you went to a haunted place?"my friend asked an irrelevant question.
"Are you depressed?"additional extraneous from him.
That's one of the places that I was fully in present. No futuristic thoughts nor past bullshit.

Happiness.
A meaningless,time based term .We can't really measure it.It will never last forever but we can measure life's satisfaction.
When i dig into it, I learnt a coolest way to measure happiness through what we google for.
It turns out that people who google about dogs are happier than people who are googling cats.People that sharing cats memes.. .😏🤔
People who are looking  for action and comedy movies than romantic movies are happier.
The funny part was,people who google for softcore porn are happier than people who google for hardcore porn.🤭
I learnt that Singapore is the 2nd happiest country in Asia.
Malaysia which was 35th last year dropped to 80th on this year's list.
There's no ghettos for Malay or Indian nor gated community for Chinese there.
Kids go to school together and happiness is an important personal goal for most Singaporean.
Nice.
About 40% of our happiness is dictated by out genes.
About 15% is dictated by our life circumstances and about 50% of our happiness is really up to us.
Take control of that 50%.

Abdominal Lump

The peritoneum is the serous membrane forming the lining of the abdominal .The outer layer is the parietal while within peritoneum is intra abdominal.

Intra peritoneal means within peritoneum while retro means behind the peritoneum.

PARIETAL VS INTRA- ABDOMINAL
-Can be ascertain by either head rising or leg rising test.

When you lift your head and shoulders,if the swelling disappears or become less prominent,then the swelling inside the abdomen (Intra abdominal).

If the swelling becomes more prominent or remain the same then it's parietal.

For lower abdominal swelling,lying on bed and lifting both the legs bring the same interpretation as head rising test.


INTRA-PERITONEAL OR RETROPERITONEAL

Do a knee elbow position .
If the lump disappears or become less prominent,then its retroperitoneal.If swelling becomes more prominent or remains the same, it's intra-peritoneal.

The Secret Formula of Happiness | How To Be Happy

21st May 2019.
The moment I opened my eyes,I checked the time on my watch.
1145a.m.
Later than usual but it's fine, yesterday's midnight show wasn't that terrible after all.
Routines- Apple cider, exercise, meditate, affirmation,few minutes with instrument and some positive videos.Was watching TedTalk and it made me wondered.
I saw my niece.She sleep,she wake up,eat,watch cartoons for hours,run here,play there,shit and sleep.The the next day, the same routine continues.
Everyday it's almost the same, just at times there will be some variation but it's the same pattern.
You,me,the entire world is facing the same aren't we?
Just that some people's life is more saturated with dramas, emotion stirring events,be it good or bad.
That experience is the reason why two person can never experienced life as the same.The joy,the fun the sadness,the struggle,it can never ever be the same.
Local holidays and oversea's holiday aren't the same experience.
Struggling childhood,and a happy childhood creates different future.Kids from third world country and kids from developing countries leads a different life.

When someone says you never know what I faced, decorating their small pain as if as devastating tantrums,I quietly observe their dramatic presentation.

That's not wrong but exaggerating is our mind trying to create the best screenplay.With time,even the originality of the event changes because the mind remember what it remembered.
What does it mean?
It means,human mind doesn't goes 20 years back to recall that childhood moment.It goes to the last moment when you recalled them.If you recall that memory 6 months 8 days ago, that's where it went.

So what's this entire life is about?
This compounding, collective accumulation of moment leads us into different stages of life. Initially we are carefree and then we started to study.
Then?
We started to learn.Some learn how to learn,while the rest go with the unproductive flow. We use  education to attain a job.That ensure  us food and shelter.

This entire cycle is about moments.
MEMORIES.
We human, insects, snake's, elephant,moon, asteroid are made from the same elements of periodic table.
Same dough,but different shapes and form.
Some can talk, some have tail,some can breath in water and land, some are poisonous,some are venomous. Such a marvelous creation.Same material but the creativity is infinite.

Maybe this entire life is about creating and collecting memories.
I tried to recall my childhood . I was a little fortunate because my childhood is super dramatic.It's not lame and boring as my niece.For years I thought I was cursed but today I learnt that, that's the blessing.
I can recall things that happened when I was 2 and half, 3 ,4 years but the mid period,8 years old to 15 years;not that much.
Secondary school moment and med school memories are fresh as well, thanks to my exs.
I realized, rather than that laughing,joy moments,things that make us experience the moment intensely,sad, excited, thrilling and challenging lasted freshly and longer in our mind then the rest.

Years from now,how would it feels if I created such exciting experiences around people around me.
Maybe when I recall them back,it would be more fun,maybe the lessons and relationship that I made along the way would make people to remember my name for 100 years after my demise.

Hence I wondered, what's the role of happiness then?How to be happy?How to attain and sustain it?
I realized,these questions itself is a trap.
Happiness is like money.
For some they know how to earn it,for some they know how to save it and for some they know how to spend it,but to be the master of all 3,only the 1% of population could do that.Even if you does,your 100dollar bill that you owns today might be someone's elses tomorrow.
Happiness isn't a stagnant feelings.
It comes and goes.
Why?
Environment? Circumstances? Hormones? Food ?The parameter goes on.

I had the question in me for years.How to be happy?
Maybe my question was wrong all these years..
How can I be happy?
Maybe I'm not allowing myself.Maybe you don't know you can create them.If it's a feeling,then it's a perception , right?
If it's a perception, it's kinda an emotion.I applied First principles thinking and digged deep down.
If it's an emotion, it's mainly a mind stuff.

I realized this when I thought about the slum kids.They have nothing,pants with a hole,poor skin condition,dirty yes,they are dirty,many health issues but they never bother about them and played happily..Why?
Maybe because they're kids and they aren't exposed to the reality yet.
Then I came across poor rickshaw pullers,those roadside beggars that happily laughing,having good times with their pals.
I had money in my pocket, smartphone,good clothes, medical student,in simple word, I'm living a life 50 times ,perhaps 100 times better then them,but I didn't smile, miserable .I thought I'm the only one but once when I turned and looked at my friend,he was in a state no different than me.

What's the secret? What's wrong?
Then one day,I sat to complete my surgery case histories that I have to submit tomorrow.10 all together.Each case would be 6 7 pages.I knew it gona be a bad evening.
I started with a single sentence.
I thought let's write them in a beautiful handwriting.
Time to time I felt,the writing was good and nice for a lazy male.
Page after page and I don't feel irritated as if I achieve the flow.
Once in awhile when my fingers ached,I stopped and I look back.The entire handwriting seems impressive for me.I was happy and I don't know why and how this sudden shift happened.
I realized something that day,
When we create something that challenges us and we witness the progress and take a moment to appreciate the effort,It felt extremely good .

Create +challenge yourself
             |
      -Observe the progress
      -Take a moment to appreciate the effort
             |
    =Ended up loving the process. Everything that you hate seems likeable.

That's when I realized, happiness and good time is created.Not externally but internally, first in your mind.

When problems are seen as a challenge and we try to figure out a solution with our own creative terms,it feels different than the feeling that we felt when we dwell with the problem feeling hopeless and overwhelmed.

What happens if I could apply this formula and a sense of knowing that it's all about creating the best experience even during toughest day.


Heart aching problem
          |
Plan a creative way to solve it.That problem it self is a
challenging situation.
           |
      -Observe the small progress.
      -Take a moment to appreciate the effort, evaluate what's working and what's not .
Realize that a week from now this shall pass and you going to create an experience that you will excited recalling back.
20 years from now, it will be a good story to share with your grandkids.
             |
What would we feel?


Trying to solve it self is a different vibe,the emotion of solving and dwelling and crying is different.The energy and the mindset is different.

Happiness and living is a mind thing.There is where we should look into if we want to be happy but to tackle more chronic life problems,it can never be solve in few steps or method.
Like building a car,the base,body, engine,the battery ,oil,painting everything is a different element brought together for a perfect conditioning car.
We humans are more sophisticated machines and we too needs few other methods along with this.

What's the next method?

How to Cure Yourself with Water

"Do you know why you have to pay for your education and health?"
"Why?"he questioned.
"Otherwise you will take it for granted.That is why you paid that sum for my questionnaire.I don't want you to waste my time by forgetting what I explained to you."
He was listening quietly.
Let me tell you a story perhaps my secret ingredient for my clients.I will teach you as well,do it daily.
During my third year,a patient that was close to me passed away because of nosocomial infection.Since then I was looking for a different way & learnt that medicine is a science and there's so many things science can't explain.The moment it can be explained,even the science will change.I was wondering how human cure themselves 5,000 years ago and I ended up reading translated
fourth Vedic scriptures of Hinduism and found something interesting. Since we human are so fucked up,divided by religion ,nation and belief, I needed something else scientifically to back it up.And I ended up with Masaru Emoto's book;The Hidden Messages in Water and learned about rice experiment."
"What's that?"he was curious.
"Modern instruments have made it possible to record the fact that within each of water’s memory cells there are 440,000 information panels, each of which is responsible for its own type of interaction with the environment.I tried myself, sensed what it does and learnt how to make use of this abundance around us for our own benefit.I guide them how to make use of it & it never fails to do wonders.."
"Can you teach me how to do it?"