Plateau

Plateau
When plateau hit me hard,I measure the circumference of bicep,chest ,waist etc,keep them recrded,cover my whole body with long sleeve whenever I train,take less pict for a week,and the mst imprtnt thing,never look at my bare bdy infrnt of a mirror..Its my own psychology to excite my mind that there is actually sum sort prgress hpnin and Its jst tat I dont knw it yet.To knw the result,to make the result count week ltr, to make the mind muscle connectn wrk better than before,this methd wrks well for me.This never fails to help me whenever situation,studies,envrmnt,mny etc hit me hard with diffclties.I maintain my anchr tru out the year.I teach my brothr the same way aft 5 weeks of trainin durin the 2nd phse.. n he asked me,'how la bro,how to stand naked infrnt of a mirror without looking at urself.?
I replied,'how la bro,how cm u cant even figure out ur own way for this simple thing?Im not feedin u food,im teachin u the way to make ur own food and to feed urself.You can use this way to feed others too,oni if u could use the greatest gift God gave u,ur brain in an efficient way.If u cant take cntrl of this simple ting,u cant take cntrl of ur life when something big hit u hard on ur face.Every big tings strts with a small win,this small manipulation enable me to train tru out the year ignrin any sort of distrctn.This methd tght me to wk up on my own at 530am every mrng to stdy the books that I feel like stdyin.Im not forcin it at all,cz the mind strtd to blve that its fun learning things,the same way it believed its fun trainin everdy.Again,this small way chnlld me into lots of new ways that I nvr discvr previously.All we need is a new method for a bigger plan.

How to Remove Lens

Contct Lens 👀

Jst b4 I leave,my sis cm bck frm school, asking me if the cntct lens is stil on her eyeball..The cntct lens was there bt it adhered to the surface of the eye(rt) and she cant rmve it despte hw mch water or eye mo she put tanx to the heat and the suckin effct of the lens..As if the lens never let the eye drops to enter insde the lens to lubrcte it for easy remval..House M.D taught me that we can use onion to detect Sjögren's syndrome bed side.With my mum making the situation tensed,no proper ent instmnt,going to a clnc n payin unncsry 100bcks cheque wil b the last resort I realzd.So we tried the onion therapy 😆 n to my suprse that onion didnt brng much tear even aft 40 sec 😐.Not oni material stuff,even China's onion sucks.I thrw the onion a side ,brght Australian orange for the help.As usual,Aussie was helpful n I managed to rmve the lens easly by making the eye to prdce its own tears.🍊saved the day,bt extra 5mint teary reddish eye was the bonus she incurred,stil worth not wasting the Rm100.😊

Dogs

Aft fnsh my wrkout,I went to a chnse shp to eat.I saw the ownr gv al the left over bones to the stry dogs bsde her shp.I jst smiled at her,she smiled bck n told me,they r very loyal dogs n it seems the dogs wil tc of the shop at night.Hw sweet..Frm there I went to a barbershp to shave.I saw 2 indian grls passd by there wit pbsm tshrt and one of the grl was on phne,not tlking to one persn on the phne bt the whle shplot;her voice was tat loud.The frst wrd I heard was a terrble bad wrd tat even I wouldnt use in such a pblc plce.I notcd she said to tat persn on the phne,'wtf u dstrbin me again n again like a dog?'Mayb sum relatshp issue.I was wonderin abt the way ppl see a dog.Did u ever realze dog is the oni anml tat doesnt hv to wrk for a living?Hen lays egg,cow gv milk,canary sing bt a dog make his living by gvng us ntg bt love n loyalty.Even a cat wouldnt b tat loyal.My cat jst ran awy the mmnt I set him free,nvr even turn nor cm bck.The way we see a human resmble the way we see a dog.Sum see it for its loyalty n sum see it as annying.We r the weakest species on earth.We cant run tat fast,clmb a tree like mnky,swin like a fsh,bt we hv sixth sense unlike othr species tat make us special,yet mst of the time we nvr chnl it in a prpr way.Ego,greedinss,anger,jealsy n etc..Mst of the time,we failed to see a human as a human in the frst plce.Hw we label a dog,a human, reflct us,not the dog.Some pure soul like a dog stay the same eventho our lens varies.It wasnt the dogs fault,but us,humans.

Misunderstanding

Yesterday,I had a small misunderstndin wit my frnd.It strtd month ago wit variation of mindset n yest I ended it in a very bad way.I said thngs that rly rude n hurtful to this 2 yr old frndshp.End of the argmnt,she cmplty blck me.I dnt even call her to make thngs btr bt I knw I was respnsble for her tears.I didnt tk it serious bt for her,my wrds mght hurt her so mch tat she labelld me as male chauvinist,a persn tat wil attck a grl wit acid etc.Ntg make mch sense bt that acid etc made me felt dwn cz I born wit a grl jst a mint diff n I'm well aware tat no mttr hw strng a man is, he was brght to this wrld by a woman.I cmprd this pure soul,I criticised n condemn her in a way tat I really shdnt.I wishd she could argue few mint more.I told her I wishd this day nvr cm in my life bt I sensed that it gona chnge my whle way of dealing wit ppl.I was thnkin whle day n i cm to my sense tat any fool can criticise,cmpre,cndmn n cmpln bt a great man shws his greatness by the way he treats little man.I wil nvr use mch bad wrds aft this.I wil speak ill of nobdy n i cm to my sense tat God himself does not propose to jdge a man until the end of his days,why shld I..I told her I wouldnt cmpre prevsly bt I did again.Sometime sum ppl left us not cz we done to many mstke bt cz we done the same mstke too mny times.I wishd she would frgve me a day.I wish I can b a bttr persn this cmg days.I will.See u on tv a day grl.All the best.

Habits

Aft went to temple,I went early to gym cz I wana spend time alone reshuffle my own stuff cz its gettin messed up since the day I cm bck.Once I entrd gym,the caretkr askd if i dnt hv any job,why Im so early.He askd my age n said i looked way too old n when I said I stdied at Bngldsh,he strtd his own review same as othrz.I hv no idea abt the dr out there.For me,hw i see myself is diff.The frnd of mine tat went 2 yrs ltr thn me to India graduated n every1 cmpred abt it to me.Let me shre hw I wrk eventho im stil not offcly wear my whte coat posin wit a steto arnd my neck.Lets kp this prsn idnty confdntl(this prb was in bngldsh).She had 2 kids n the son frqntly had diarrhoe n stmchache pst 6 yrs.He gt well wit med bt the prb kpt repeatin n no dr could cure the root bt thy mnge the symptm wit med n albndzle past 4 yrs.For sum its lk im blwin my own trmpt bt i dnt gv othrs rghts to dwngrd me.She told me wit tear abt the prb n i sensd tat the sistr was fine despte bth eatin the same food the mum cookd.I wnt to their hm n obsrvd what wrng.Aft sumtime i knws wats wrng wit the boy by observin them.They play outside mst of the time n this boy here n had a hbit of bitin nails.I realzd there is whr the prb lies.Bittin nails past 6 years is a chrnc psychological prb n its not easy to crct it wit meds or asking him to stp.Stght frwrd thrpy nvr wrks wit addctn if u realze as a human.So that day I went bck n was thnkin hw to solve that prb..bck in Bangldsh,the Dr's arnt as arrngnt as Malaysian.They listen to us(the hghr their post,the hghr their arrgncy )..So I was thnkin a way to solve it without involvin drs cz I knw no one like it whn we crct them n no one hv tat mch time for othrs.That night,aft thnkin so mch I sensed I cant solve it myself n went bck to the boy the next day..Whn I askd him,he explnd to me hw he felt b4 he strtd bitin his nails..

10,000 Hour Rules

Most teams aren't really teams.They're just guys who wrk tgtr.I never wish to train someone who is doing fine in their life.I felt train and chnge a persn life means more than their physique.I realized some ppl r so hard to bring into a belief.It wasnt God that mattered.It was belief itself tat made a diff.I sensed belief was the ingredient n belief can oni b achved by lead by an exmple.Ppl might be skeptical about their ability to change if they're by themselves,but when we do as a group,as a family,it wil convince them to suspend disbelief.A community creates belief and I turn people that believe in me into a #tlgn community,more accrte,into a family.I spread the knwldge I have,how to build muscle without gym equipmnt,jst by trainin at tat home,hw to lose weight without even a single cardio,supplmnt,or a single drop of steroid,all by altering metabolism,using hiit,iso,fst7,sex trnsmutation,med,anat,physio,food,every single shit I knw into pre plannin.It mght b slow,bt its way healthy than stroid shit.That wat real excse is al abt..Some need all n sum need few n the rest needs a listenin n blvin soul..It mght b oni few ppl nw bt soon we wil turn this cmmnty into thsnds n fix any kind of addction,misry,heartbreak,prb into opprtnty n gold.My brotha askd what if someone try to take ur plce when u teach everytin to a strngr.That 10,000 hr is the key.Whn I wrked 2000 hrs alrdy,the snake that workd oni 200 hr wil nvr ever b able to take my plce.I mght told him 300mg /day is the lvl of chlstrl intke for us.Bt if he went out there n pretnd as if its his own hrdwrk knwin everytin to a heart pt who shld oni tk <200mg/day,he wil gt tat persn killed.Thats the diff.

Forgiveness

• The nxt day,I wnt bck to the shop,askd sorry to him and I explaind to him why i need the chckn without skin n fat.That 1 mint converstn made him understnd n whnever I visit the shop again,he gv the best for me,worth the money.I went to my auntie's plce,I cleaned her hz,chnge the bed sheet,buy al the food she need,boil the wtr,prep meds n explnd to  her why i cant stay there..I realzd evryting can b solved jst by prctce of deep communication, talking,listening n explainin.When we listn to the words frm their own mouth,the assumtion that we made seems totally diff .They have al the rights to say yes n no for something..That way,I nvr comprmse n we both win the situation not that i lose n she wins..When the circle of influence sucks we bcm an ass I realzd.No wonder it is bein said that wars are won in the general's tent.Some day,in the years to cm,we wil be wrestlin wit the great temptation or tremblin under the great sorrow of our life.But the real struggle is here,now.Now it is being decided whethr in the day of our suprme sorrow or temptation,we shall miserably fail or gloriously conquer.Chrtcr cnt be made excpt by a steady long continued process and it al strt by tlking, understnding and listnin.

Relationship

• At nght I went to wtch mv wit my frnd.I went to a diff plce cz I dnt wana see any 'unwantd' ppl.My bad luck,i saw this 'frnd' of mine.She saw me too bt she ignrd me.The same grl ,a mnth bck,when she had a dental prb n sufferin wit pain n exm,I went and searchd for topicl benzocaine at each n every phrmcy in Ctg.Aft more than 1 hr,I found it n bght it for her.Thats jst one exmple.She was so nice til the moment she left to Mlysia(As usual).It wasnt new for me bt I dnt knw why whnever she havin prb,i cant help myself to avoid her bt wil b there for her.For anyone facin hrd time.Whle exitin the mall,my frnd saw her strtd to poke me sayin tat 'look,that ur gf/ex/frnd n she cm here n going bck at 1am aft a mv.Did u see if she cm alone or with a guy bla22 😒.Doesnt mttr hw mch i ignre her,her sight alwys gv so mch of pain cz I can nvr frgt nor fgve her.This kind of so cld strght frwrd mthrfck doesnt matter cousins,siblings,frnd that sit bsde u tryin to gt into ur head is a real prb that wil spoil ur day n ur repo.(i shre more abt this type of frnds ltr).I was so down for a moment..The feelin was very unplsnt.I saw her car bhnd me.I tried to ignre her again.Whle waitin at the trffc light,I asked myself..Whats wrong wit u..U was well al this whle n whnever u cm bck here,the same shit hpn again n again..U cant run frm prblms n heartache.Why Im no more proactve bt bcm reactive for everytin..why i let othr ppl's wrds ruin my day.Im reactin for everytin,no more respndin.Aft all,she was the grl tat meant the world for me once n doesnt matter she like me or not,as long as she is hppy,it shld b fine for me.As long as she is under my sight,she is my respnblty.She is jst anthr human as me,n I dnt knw whats insde her head nw..I hv my self wrth n I wil set her free frm tdy,I told myself.I turned n look at my cousin,askd him to STFU n fllwd her car al the way bck not to stalk her bt to ensure tat she went bck safely.Its was rly late..Thats what a man shld do even if she dont like me anymre.I nvr knw what she fcing.Mayb she was depressd,she mght faced lot of prb,she's lonely or any legit reason that I nvr knw n mayb that is why she cm alone..Things can be seen this way too isnt it..

Hypo

What Im gona share tody wil be quite long,so I wil divide the story into few post.This is not for anyone but for myself,a reminder that I can read again in future when the same situation repeats.Past few days,as I shared before,my mood was extrmly bad as if im havin pms.
The incident strtd wit a helmet visor.Since the day i cm bck til nw,cz of roamin here n there under bldy hot sun,i bcm darker than before,I cant eat prply,I didn slp prply,I lose weight,i cant read fnsh my books cz my mum keep tlking wit me at nite n I lost my peace totally..I went to gt a visor for my hlmt cz when it rains,I cant see prply cz my glasses bcm wet.The ownr took the money,gv me the visor and asked me to fix myself.I tried for so long bt i cant fix it.It made me sweat af n aft 15mint tryin,I bcm mad.I went to her,askd her if one day u cm to my clnc ,what if i tk the paymnt,give the med n syrnge n ask u to inject urself?Is it ok?Hnstly i said it in such a rude way n the husbnd cm n fix it for me.He used few extra tools n bascly it cant b done by myself.She noticed I cant fix it bt she didn even ask if I need any help..Frm there I went to a chckn rice shop and askd him to parcl for me chckn for rm5.He mistknly prep 5 pckt of chkn rice.It made thngs worse..I sounded him n the worker if u both an idiot or what,cancel everytin,n walkd away frm that shop..I argued wit everyone tat day..I just dnt knw why.My bp was nrml.My unmarried auntie had a total knee replcmnt n Im the one who went n signed al the forms.She was under my care to b frnk n aft a week,I went to brng her bck.Pushin the wheelchr,carryin her stuff,payin,gting her med,went n brng the car that I parked far away to the entrnce etc ,everytin made me angry cz i didn even eat anytin n the road was fckin jam.The hypo making thngs criticl for me.At nite she cld n asked me to cm n stay at her plce.She didn even ask if I can bt asked me to cm.It made me angry even more.

Overthinking

Whatever happened yest was so fcking soul weakening.The enfeebled state made me lost interest to do anyting anymore for the day.It gt me awke at 4.44am,wit jst few hrs of slp.. Was thnking so mch til I decided to do sumting tat I hv nvr done for past 6 years.Im finally lettin go of every toxic ppl frm my life.There's so mch more to live than wastin time waiting for sumtin or sumone to hpn or cm bck.I wasted to mch time alrdy,overthnkin n blamin myself for othr ppl's mistke.So im letin go al the laughs we shared,al the memories we built.Its time to mv on wit my life,the same way everyone did wit theirs.Ppl that was on their deathbed frgt al my strggle that whle nite to gt them their n- acetylcystn when othrs dont even care n was ok when Dr said thy wont last a nite.A week ltr,they paid for my service as if it was a weedin.Thats human.U can buy a human's mind n hand to wrk 4 u,bt not their heart.I didn help any1 for mny.I dont.Money is a tool.I spend it for anyone anytime if i thnk they needed it n when I have it.Whn i dnt hv any shit,I spend my time.I wont bring al the mny to my grave.Tired of being gud shit,toleratin everytin.I can tolerate bt i cant cmprmse..N if u dnt gt bck frm me tmrw,knw where u stnd.When fllwin sumone,i felt likin their post is a form of respct but wasting time for sumone that thnk themselves so fckin great,unfllw even thy knw me well is bullshit.Im not ur fan..No one is that fcking great for me.I wil b there til the end for ppl who deserve,bt wil nvr waste my time for sumone who tk me for grntd.My circle wil gt smaller frm tmrw,quantity wil ⬇,bt the quality wil ⬆.Extrnly,I mght ugly af,full of scars,rude,arrgnt,bt deep insde,I was very real with whoever im with.I shw u what my brain n soul is capable of soon.

How to Apply for Job

Since I dont drnk n smke,I went to this place to a pool cntre to meet my brother to knw more abt hw to recruit sumone.I wanted to buy n read the book rgdin it bt that book itself cst rm135 (it was oni rm15 in Bangla n fck Malysia for this)whch I felt uncsry.Whle tlking to him,I learnt alot thngs since he was in HR.He told me whn thy recruit sumone,they wil cnfrm wt Bukit Aman to exclde sum1 wit crimnl rcrd.He explain more hw they judge an applctn.He told me hw they filter within sec who is a useless cnditate n who is actly a hrdwrkin persn.The simple ting was frm the diff hw a persn fill the mailin add n permnt add on the frm.Whn someone wrte their permnt add n  the mailin add as SAME AS ABOVE,the higher prsn autmtcly reject it within sec cz thy realzde hw lazy the prsn is(so spend few sec n wrte the add again even if its same).He also told me hw they judge a persn frm their handwrtin,their bdy language,their level of cnfdnt whle answrin the intrvws, who wil win amng batman n suprman(thy judge hw u manage ur time whle bein bsy wit life).He explnd a lot bt one of the imprtnt thng was the reason why thy stop wrking frm their past wrkin plce.Whatever reasn they gv,the oni reason tat HR recruit sum1 is when thy wrte there as- end of cntrct/to gain more exprnce/to learn more etc.Anyting such as prblm wit mangmnt,less salary,persnl reason,far /prgnt etc u failed at a glance.I learnt more bt he  askd me if im gona post it anywhere since i was jottin it  dwn.He told me revealin sumone brthdy or left open their form etc is a crmnl act for HR.Since im shring it openly n ppl mght learn few ting frm it try to dplcte it,b aware that they wil realze if sumone is cheatin or fakin aft 2 weeks of joinin,so be hnst whle applyin for wrk.He explnd hw I can safe guard myself as a boss n the rightz of emplyee.So if u try to fill a form for a job vacncy,be very careful n hnst.Any lie wil  cz u ntg bt ur time n learn tat fuckin Mandrin since it bcm a new skill n an interntnl language in Mlysia 😤 Doesnt mttr if u can wrte n prnce supercalifragilisticexpialidocious ,all u need in 2017 is the ability to speak Mandrin.
N i nvr win a single pool game,tanx to my kanadi.

Gym on Sunday

Gravity didn't hold us back from visiting the moon.Sunday and rain didn't hold me back from visiting the gym.🤗

Pre Planning

Once a week,half a day,I completely stp spnding time for othrs,stay at home,a small pause frm al my routines excpt my rituals and spend that halfday only for my self.During this mmnt,I plan my major plans for the whole fcking week.This is the habit that I created a yr bck whn I realized I cnt keep myself orgnized.When I wondered whats wrng,I realized the major prblm with plannin bck thn was,plannin for the day.Have a to-do-list for the day.When I was doing my pre med(Mlysia)the clge gv us schedule/timetble 4 the whle year.We can orgnze our hldy,pre book the tckt,stdy n prep for the exm earlr etc bt whn I went to Bngldsh,it was a terrible cultre shck.The schdle for major centrlzd exam wil b out a week or few days b4 exm,n thats oni cvr the wrttn xm,(the dates mght chnge anytime if they wanted to).Dates for Ospe ,viva prctl long case etc wil b out ltr, few days b4 the exm. So we nvr knw hw God,luck n time gona scrw us 4 the cmng mnths unlike other stdnts out there that judge me with their own assumtn.Hw cld sumone tat havin everytin in their life wit a gud flow would understnd my strggle.I dnt hate thm cz i realzd thy would nvr undstn what Im fcing.Thats whn i realzd abt this weekly plan since i cant hlp myself when the systm is al there jst to fck my life more.I pre plan for a week.There are activities that u can oni do during weekends,there r thngs that u can oni do in mrng,b4 2pm,b4 the prayers time,only aft 6 pm of wed n etc..Since then,i nvr apply this to do list for the day shit.I roam freely for others,but in my head,im well aware what im gona do for the next 2 days,the next 4 days.That way,I never miss the brthdy of ppl I see as fmly.I dnt depend Fb notifctn cz i dnt even have tat app in my phne.I keep those imprtnt things n dates in my head cz I alwys apply this -my mind is my coach.I dnt train wit others,I dnt depend on othrs anymre.I assess my grwth durin this time n I realzd i jst lost 3 kg of my hard gained muscle.That nvr brng me dwn at all,cz whn there is a prblm,there is whr the opprtnies lies I learnt.And whenever shit happns,thats the rmndr to strt again fresh,strnger n bttr than yestdy.
#0carbsday

Beef vs Indian

Beef vs Indian vs BB

Since that meal tasted so fckd up,i stopped here while otw bck frm the restaurant.I came here,I ordered fish patties without bun,sauce or any extra taste giving shit.While waiting,came this Indian auntie.She ordered chickn burgr n few minute later,another chinese boy cm.His left armed fully tattooed,look like a small town mafia king cm n  ordered beef burgr.I saw the ownr was cooking al of thm,fsh chkn n beef tgtr on the same pan.I was wonderin in my head if its okay since this whle scene rmnded me abt an incdnt.A video tht I saw while i was in bangladesh.An indian took a video bullyin the shp wrkrs cz thy mistknly gave beef assumin it as mutton.So this guy made a big issue ,recorded the whole scene.Im not againts ppls belief bt he askd the wrkrs(wrkrs was an indian frm India n it was so fckin clear that it was a mistake bt we all knew indian gt their supr pwer whn thy ingst club 99 or with their mates,without this two,most self claimed gangsta is a p*ssy).He askd the wrker ,'will u eat ur own mum?' Damn,such a powerful wrds but this same mthrfuckr wil tease an indian auntie who pass by wit sarees 😒 Maybe he meant it cz cow gv milk n we shldnt eat it..Hw abt goat then..Most drnk goat's milk yet stil enjoyin their spicy mutton curry durin weeknds ,gainin tckt to heart blck.Ok fine.Since indian hv gods in almst al kind of animal(fish,chkn n even pigs etc,dnt tel me no cz i hv seen thse gods pict)wtf fck we ate al that? its totally fine isnt it?No one can create  drama as indian.They wil treat visitors so fcking well n whck their wife at kitchn.No wonder in 20 yrs,india wil bcm the biggest muslim populated cnrty overtakin indonesia cz indian are so retard when it cm to this kind of silly issue.They fight n kill each other,giving al kind of space to others bt relucnt abt their own race cz of diff dramas.

Cholesterol

FAILED MEAL

Chlstrl intake shld b less thn 300 mg per day n this shit here itself contain abt 300 mg chlstrt.If you have been diagnosed with heart disease,on steroids,drnking beer evry fckin day,smking etc,this meal isnt suitable at all.
3-ounce serving of  calamari contains 1.6 grams of saturated fat and 5 grams of unsaturated fat. Saturated fat can elevate your LDL (LDL is bad lipid.It bring fat frm liver to vessel n HDL do the oppste so HDL is our frnd if in crct amnt).Calamari contains more thn 3 times as much unsaturated fat as saturated fat.So squit is gud for your cholesterol if you have a healthy cholesterol level, but if you alrdy have high fckd up cholesterol, you shld consume it as an occasional treat.When we try to make it abt 35g prtein,the chlstrl lvl incrses too..We realized adding this into our menu is not a good idea at all n we have to drop this from our menu.Past 3 days,I was seriously being an ass,asking to try variety of meals with a simple n most hardest term-should b healthy af,n tasty as well ,whch is a terrible combo during plannin n executin.Tat was the mistake.This shit almost taste as raw but Taj Taste of India was so helpful n tanx u so mch for tolerating my naggin.Once the shop is closed,the kitchn bcm our research lab.Definitely we wil cm up wit sumtin bttr soon n today's hustle wil be tmrw's success.If it works,I prmse I wil turn each one of those who believe in me into someone with a filled pocket n heart.Eventho it failed,the pleasure of eating ur own endeavour feels fckingg awesome.Just that the taste suck