Pre Planning

Once a week,half a day,I completely stp spnding time for othrs,stay at home,a small pause frm al my routines excpt my rituals and spend that halfday only for my self.During this mmnt,I plan my major plans for the whole fcking week.This is the habit that I created a yr bck whn I realized I cnt keep myself orgnized.When I wondered whats wrng,I realized the major prblm with plannin bck thn was,plannin for the day.Have a to-do-list for the day.When I was doing my pre med(Mlysia)the clge gv us schedule/timetble 4 the whle year.We can orgnze our hldy,pre book the tckt,stdy n prep for the exm earlr etc bt whn I went to Bngldsh,it was a terrible cultre shck.The schdle for major centrlzd exam wil b out a week or few days b4 exm,n thats oni cvr the wrttn xm,(the dates mght chnge anytime if they wanted to).Dates for Ospe ,viva prctl long case etc wil b out ltr, few days b4 the exm. So we nvr knw hw God,luck n time gona scrw us 4 the cmng mnths unlike other stdnts out there that judge me with their own assumtn.Hw cld sumone tat havin everytin in their life wit a gud flow would understnd my strggle.I dnt hate thm cz i realzd thy would nvr undstn what Im fcing.Thats whn i realzd abt this weekly plan since i cant hlp myself when the systm is al there jst to fck my life more.I pre plan for a week.There are activities that u can oni do during weekends,there r thngs that u can oni do in mrng,b4 2pm,b4 the prayers time,only aft 6 pm of wed n etc..Since then,i nvr apply this to do list for the day shit.I roam freely for others,but in my head,im well aware what im gona do for the next 2 days,the next 4 days.That way,I never miss the brthdy of ppl I see as fmly.I dnt depend Fb notifctn cz i dnt even have tat app in my phne.I keep those imprtnt things n dates in my head cz I alwys apply this -my mind is my coach.I dnt train wit others,I dnt depend on othrs anymre.I assess my grwth durin this time n I realzd i jst lost 3 kg of my hard gained muscle.That nvr brng me dwn at all,cz whn there is a prblm,there is whr the opprtnies lies I learnt.And whenever shit happns,thats the rmndr to strt again fresh,strnger n bttr than yestdy.
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