Whatever happened yest was so fcking soul weakening.The enfeebled state made me lost interest to do anyting anymore for the day.It gt me awke at 4.44am,wit jst few hrs of slp.. Was thnking so mch til I decided to do sumting tat I hv nvr done for past 6 years.Im finally lettin go of every toxic ppl frm my life.There's so mch more to live than wastin time waiting for sumtin or sumone to hpn or cm bck.I wasted to mch time alrdy,overthnkin n blamin myself for othr ppl's mistke.So im letin go al the laughs we shared,al the memories we built.Its time to mv on wit my life,the same way everyone did wit theirs.Ppl that was on their deathbed frgt al my strggle that whle nite to gt them their n- acetylcystn when othrs dont even care n was ok when Dr said thy wont last a nite.A week ltr,they paid for my service as if it was a weedin.Thats human.U can buy a human's mind n hand to wrk 4 u,bt not their heart.I didn help any1 for mny.I dont.Money is a tool.I spend it for anyone anytime if i thnk they needed it n when I have it.Whn i dnt hv any shit,I spend my time.I wont bring al the mny to my grave.Tired of being gud shit,toleratin everytin.I can tolerate bt i cant cmprmse..N if u dnt gt bck frm me tmrw,knw where u stnd.When fllwin sumone,i felt likin their post is a form of respct but wasting time for sumone that thnk themselves so fckin great,unfllw even thy knw me well is bullshit.Im not ur fan..No one is that fcking great for me.I wil b there til the end for ppl who deserve,bt wil nvr waste my time for sumone who tk me for grntd.My circle wil gt smaller frm tmrw,quantity wil ⬇,bt the quality wil ⬆.Extrnly,I mght ugly af,full of scars,rude,arrgnt,bt deep insde,I was very real with whoever im with.I shw u what my brain n soul is capable of soon.
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